后宫细语

Trials

2012-02-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

How many times I have told myself stop looking at my cell phone?
How many times I have stopped myself glancing your status on facebook?
How many times I was actually hoping the ring were from you?

I have been trying so hard to wait until Saturday.
You know what this means to me.

IMY~

To Love

2012-01-26T13:53:00.000+08:00

Hey Love.
Thanks for everything that you have done to me. :)
Thanks for introducing me to your sister and mommy. They are really kind to me.
Thanks for your presents, the B scarf and the souvenirs from Korea.
Thanks for spending time with me these few days. How surprisingly sweeeettttt~

IMY, ILY.

Words are not enough to express.
Besides appreciate all you have given, I don't know what else that I can do for you. :) <3
Thankiu thankiuuuu~~ *Hearts*

~YTze~

2012-01-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

只想知道你境况
知道你是快乐的
我放心了 :)

2012-01-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

所以我说，人不可以言而无信。
又学到了.. 知道什么是“怕”了..

:(

Life as a Student (I)

2012-01-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

Trying very hard to bury myself in books and breathe with io's songs. :)

Hope this can last slightly longer.. :P else, i will die in March.
I am wondering, why lecturers love to put all the things together?
Enable to train students into well-manage-stress-and-time?
Midterm test, quiz, and assignment due date all "arrange" in 1-2 weeks.
Gosh!

This is just the second week, but I start to feel the stress.
After cny, it will be February already.
March is just 4 weeks later. :X
Kinda scary.
Time flies and slips away when we don't even aware of it.
Really scary, terrifying. :P hahahaha

anyway, keep fighting. just the second week, more weeks to come.
Jiayou bah. :)

In the beginning of 2012

2012-01-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

People are posting and wishing it would be a great year. Me either.

I hope that I have a great start in this year with my study.

However, things happened without any signs. unexpected happened when we think that we are blissful.

We blamed, we complaint, we shouted, we cried.. but we forgot to pray.
I always think that, yea, it is just a small matter, i can handle it myself without God.
But what's next? I relied too much on my own, and when things come, I fell, I cried, and I shouted to God for reasons.

there is only a reason, I am too ego to live my own way, and God was not in my life.
I abandoned His words. and refused to listen the sound deeply in my heart.

look back, there are so many chances that i could have grabbed and moved back to the right track.
But i refused to do so. and keep the old nasty bad me.
And this, made today's me.
What's worse can be happening?

But then, I have promised myself, not to blame, not to complain. everything i met has a good will behind.
I have no fear, to move on. As there is always a hand guiding me in front.
I always believe that, man's extremity is God's opportunity.
Lean on God, make my choice, and move on.
What's next? MOVING ON with the guiding hand.

A great grace and promise from God, as He said, ‎"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10)

This verse strengthens me. And not looking backwards, but forwards. Fear not, for He is with me; for He is my God. He will strengthen me, yes, He will help me, He will uphold me with His righteous right hand.
And this will never ever fail. :))

And late posting my TO-DO-LIST in 2012 year.

1. not to blame, not to complain, and wait for His good wills.
2. be a happy fellow who dips in inner peace always.
3. study well, achieve a better grades as my ability can make it
4. serve more, no complains, no delay.
5. give more time to God: study His words.
6. WWJD, think of what Jesus will do before doing one thing.

*I guess, items will be added as days come.*

Great night, great immersion.
Great verse, great promise.
Great end, great start.

:))

Christmas Day 2011

2011-12-27T11:18:00.000+08:00

People might ask, what's so special this year.
I will answer you, yes, it is definitely not special this year, it is fabulous, awesome, wonderful, graceful every year instead.

Awww, what am I trying to express? LOL

Anyway, just Jack came during this Christmas, celebration with all Mi-KL-ians who has come back in Miri.

Visiting, talking, laughing, bullshit-ing, and a really sincere conversation with Lemuel and Jack.

Start to know what's on guys' mind.
Not they don't know, they just don't dare to give any concern further more.
Yes, I got it. :)

Met KKL in the christmas concert. Well, seems that he has forgotten about me.
and yes, I am trying to get back so far, but suddenly feel what a shock that he is so much alike as J. Who I don't really mind or should say I don't even want to think back of any of the memories he had given. So much of hurts, heart broken and fear.

Met love this christmas, he has really gone mature a lot.
Same old charming he is, uncontrollable attracted by him.

This might be why lil girls always get cheated by old men. :X
no offend. *wink*

Life is going to go back to normal.
Studying life.

Hope that what's on my mind will really work in real life.
I am not kidding on it, I am serious.
Just wish that I can hang over, and strive my best again, again with God.

Thanks KKL, Love, and Stevie. :)
Thanks for this Christmas.

Miss y'all in Miri.
Just can't wait for the next meet-ups. :)

4 days more to 2012.
All the best.

Dream

2011-11-25T12:53:00.002+08:00

Again, I dreamt about you.
In my dream, you finally proposed in blog.
How hurt it were.

I hope, it is not going to happen in real life.
I hope, we are friends as always.

Please?

那些年, 那个人, 那些事

2011-11-23T01:41:00.003+08:00

喜欢看着脸书左侧发现你上线了

喜欢你总是毫不在乎的语气

喜欢你温柔体贴问我什么风把我吹来

喜欢你总是不能小声的哼唱

喜欢我们一起玩上线游戏

喜欢你不拘小节不顾形象

喜欢你的背影永远走在我前面

喜欢你爱说教

喜欢你每一个优点缺点

也喜欢这样的相处模式

曾经是那么的喜欢

换来今天的就只是礼貌的问候

换来今天就只是你脸书上的新帐号

换来的只是你和她的合照

脑里还隐约存留着那年我和你的...

第一张合照

第一次的夜市

第一次的棉花糖

第一次那么静距离的看着你

第一次把你介绍给朋友

第一次被朋友称赞说我眼光终于也有好的一次

第一次钱包里有男生的自拍照

第一次为了约会搭巴士

第一次为了和你一起念书跑到图书馆

第一次被牧者传道知道我们交往的消息

第一次为了一封简讯哭了

第一次为了你送的巧克力开心了几天都不舍得吃完

第一次在戏院里被牵着看完整部戏

第一次为了你的家人担心了整晚

第一次为了忍耐你姐的我的不满低声下气的道歉解释

第一次为了你我哭到不成人形

第一次认真的幻想计划我们的未来

第一次为了你不再主动找我哭了

第一次为了赌气关机3天

第一次冷战就结束了我们1年的关系

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真的只能说, 你是我生命里带给我最多欢笑, 最多泪水, 也最刻骨铭心

直到现在我还忘不了... 那时的点点滴滴

2011-11-21T10:26:00.002+08:00

早知道你只是飞鸟

拥抱后只剩下羽毛

当初你又何必浪费

那么多咖啡和玫瑰来打扰

那些日子让我无法忘记的日子

我依然无法把你从梦里赶走

是否证明--我还想你??

快乐

2011-11-21T00:18:00.002+08:00

有时候幸福就是那么简单

却又那么困难

但是因为你

我了解到什么是单纯的快乐

就只是静静的遥远望着你

希望在你脸上看见笑容

希望你能天天开心

体会惜福，感恩着... 每件事情的发生

体会到各种不同的人事物带来的喜悦

感谢曾经你们到过我的生命之中...

感恩有你在最痛苦的时候, 用歌声的陪伴 :))

C: Xie xie ni men~~

No title (2)

2011-11-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

What if dreams are meant to come true?

What if hearts are meant to be broken?

What if rules are meant to be broken?

What if I am no longer myself?

What if I am not who I suppose to be?

What if I am not as happy as you always see?

What if I am not as tough as I have done pretending?

What if I am crying when I am laughing out loud?

What if I am crazy as I can't make a right decision?

What if everything is just an "if" in my life?

Dreams are not meant to come true.

Hearts are not meant to be broken

Rules are set to follow.

You are always who you suppose to be.

When you are not happy, I am always hang on, and find a way to make u happy once again.

When you are crying, please remember there is a tissue box beside your table.

Don't go crazy, as you have been crazy enough all the time.

Everything is not fixed, unless you work on it.

Cheer, GT cheers.

Everything is going to be alright.

Everything is going to be just fine.

:'( TEACH ME HOW. PLEASE.

夢

2011-11-08T16:37:00.001+08:00

昨晚的夢境是多麼的真實

可以就讓它在真實生活發生嗎?

如果真的發生了, 我會不會真的很開心?

喜新厌旧

2011-11-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

你总爱说我喜新厌旧

我知道,这是铁一般的事实..

有时候，总羡慕着“爱情长跑”的情侣们

他们的包容，忍耐，也总为着对方着想的那种心态

而我，总是做不到..

我不要求完美

我不要求你完全奉献

我只想你给我一些些的空间

不要什么事情都必需在你掌控之中..

而我就像是你的傀儡, 要你一手一脚的安排我的生活..

也许你真的比我成熟, 有时候也比我想得远..

但是，我想经历的也是你曾经跌倒过，再爬起来的定点。。

我不要求跌得重.. 至少你让我有选择的余地

一步一步的慢慢走.. 至少，错了也是我的决定..

而你也不要总是说, 我是为了你好；我是过来人之类的讲法..

我真的感激你.. 但是，我真的想要自己试试看..

大不了，就从新开始..

你到底明白我在说什么，想什么吗?

我只觉得, 我们一开始就不在同一个起跑点上..

你跑的快，代表着我也必须跟上你繁忙的脚步..

只为了跟你并肩同行?

为什么只有我一直在追, 你不为了我停留？

这到底是什么？

我真的不知道..

那些年～～

2011-11-03T12:44:00.009+08:00

又回到最初的起點記憶中妳青澀的臉我們終於來到了這一天桌墊下的老照片無數回憶連結今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點呆呆地站在鏡子前笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結將頭髮梳成大人模樣穿上一身帥氣西裝等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨那些年錯過的愛情好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣曾經想征服全世界到最後回首才發現這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨那些年錯過的愛情

好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記那天晚上滿天星星平行時空下的約定再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳緊緊抱著妳

看著你們互post的留言，聽著這首歌.. 眼淚又情不自禁地往下滑落..

距離不是問題，在乎兩個人願不願意經營..

我相信這句話.. 但是你呢?

"世上最遠的距離不是生離死別, 而是我愛你,你卻不知道.."

我想你，是真的..

那你說的呢?

你問我為什麼不願意相信你..

請問，我還有這個勇氣嗎?

我, 原以為我已經完全放下了..

但是原來,我沒有..

這個答案, 你滿意嗎?

請讓我再一次變成冰塊..

在烈日當頭我可以悄悄融化

在寒冷的夜裡我可以隱藏自己

我的傷心失望也悄悄的離我遠去

2011-09-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

我只能说, 我们在错的时间遇见对的人~
你明白吗?

2011-09-08T23:06:00.003+08:00

有时候看见人家已成双成对

心里感到十分无奈

“陈吟诗，你逞什么强呢？”

:((

狮子座

2011-09-06T22:46:00.004+08:00

I hate myself as a Leo.

我恨我是狮子座

Merely for the shameful pride, I told myself I shall not talk to you.

只为了那该死的尊严，我告诉自己我不应该跟你说话

But I always know, you're catching my eye sight every single second.

但我知道，我的视线总离不开你

It's suffering and suffocating when I got to see you.

你总让我感到窒息

Implying that I really miss you.

I really do.

Do you?

2011-09-05T22:40:00.001+08:00

Quote of the day:

最酸的感觉不是吃醋, 而是没权吃醋..

It is soooo real.

I'm back ONCE AGAIN

2011-09-04T23:54:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, after 2 months, finally I am back to blog.

No much things to be updated.

Just, I feel very lost.

What do I want actually? I don't know, frankly.

Drawing is now becoming another part of my life.

And what else? Oh yea, working.

Like a robot, repeating my daily life.

Over and start again.

Just like resonance, repeating its rhythm.

Hmmm..

There is someone whom I really appreciate to have in my life.

However, I doubt if s/he knows it.

I have no idea about what exactly s/he thinks of me.

But I hope, there is a positive feedback? :))

Anyway, IMY. :))

Time flies

2011-06-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

Time flies.

One month of exam is going to end in no time, one more paper to go before getting a real free from exam. :D

Normally, an end means another start.

But, my end is an unknown for now. Who knows i might retake my A2 again? :X

HAHAHA.. STRIVE to MY BEST in this coming, and the LAST paper of mine! :D :D

Jia, read ur blog. Handling it well with God, alright? everything's gonna be alright. As i said, love sucks. always hurt if we do not meet the right and only one. (: Cheers.. miss you badly. ^^ <3 not sure whether u gonna read it. :P love you.

2011-06-16T00:42:00.000+08:00

悄悄的我走了，不带走一片云彩...

2011-06-12T18:53:00.002+08:00

Love, you're the suckest thing ever.

O.S-es/

2011-06-09T19:40:00.002+08:00

When I am viewing pretty girls' photos,

O.S: Why people always can dress up and make up prettily? :( what about me?

When I am listening to girls who have their boy friend love so much,

O.S: Why they are so lucky to have one? :( What about me?

When I am watching to Glee,

O.S: Why they have so much chance to sing out loud with lovely, powerful voice? :( What about me?

When I am shopping online,

O.S: When can I wear like them?

THESE ARE ALL BECAUSE OF MYSELF!

Why I caused myself gained so much of weight until my jeans almost explode with my fat thighs.

Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I am now enjoying Kellogs, which I am told to eat to loss weight, it is damn so nice to eat with milk and yogurt&fruits.

Sigh, imagine one day I can go back to my previous weight, and my previous "so-called-glory"? LOL..

give me 2 more weeks, and i will start with my PLAN A- DIET!

*just ignore this, because exams are driving me crazy, and i m writting this for fun.. but seriously for diet plan :P *

Never stop going!

2011-06-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

Dreams are always dreams.

Dreams are always yet to come true.

I work on it, and hope for rewards.

If it doesn't, please let me have a second chance.

I gave myself a deadline, next January.

If I still cannot make myself in, I quit.

Besides doing that, I have no directions.

Perhaps, I shall treat it as a challenge than a blocked way?

Think positively, then negatively.

I hope I will never stop pursuing what I really want.

I don't care what you think of me, I am always ME.

At the end, I still love RINGS.

So, no reason for me to quit.

NO reason to quit.

THERE IS NO REASON TO QUIT!

This is just to encourage myself, and as a reminder.

NEVER STOP PURSUING WHAT YOU REALLY WANT TO BE. *wink*

No title (1)

2011-05-25T01:02:00.003+08:00

Telling myself,

"Silly, don't you just think too much?"

Hmmm, I wish that you were right beside me now BAO BAO!!! :(

I miss you so much..

hope that you are right besides me listen to my murmuring, and hug me to sleep.

I want to cry out loud.

Loneliness..

Stay far away from me please?

Wake up

2011-05-05T14:09:00.004+08:00

It is so blessed to wake up every morning with your Grace.

Without You, I can't make it through.

I know You're always guiding me, leading me and showing me the right path.

Sometimes, I have chosen a wrong one.

But how blessed I am, You will always guide me to the correct way again.

Because You're my Lord, the one who knows me well from now to forever.

We are weak but God is strong.

We are fool but God is wise.

We are stubborn but God knows what is the best for us.

We are lost but God knows our life.

I have no idea whether I have chosen a wrong one.

However, I know He is leading.

Just give it a try.

Who knows? I have made a right decision? (:

Friends, break it through.

You know what you are doing.

It is so blessed for all of us to proceed so far over here.

Favorite Phrase: "Every question you have asked, God always knows the answer."

Pray for you guys. (:

Motivation

2011-05-03T18:59:00.002+08:00

It has been a while I did not spend so much time on this thing.

And, it seems hate me. :X hahaha

When I always feel suffocating, I think of you.

You're always the one who can make me laugh when I am down.

You're always the one who accompanies me when I am bored.

Ya, YOU YOU YOU. <3

I really DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL.

Please, save me out of here.

21 days left to the real war. GOSH! :(((((((

Dream

2011-04-28T14:06:00.004+08:00

Everyone has a dream.

Please, stop questioning and stop me from that.

This is not a matter about can or cannot; it is about you WANT or DON'T WANT!

When you start questioning others, why don't you think about yourself?

What have you done for your future?

What do you expect to do in your future?

Do you able to give your family a secure and safe condition?

Or your love one should always worry about money, food, bills?

When you are stating so much of principles, why don't you think about yourself?

Is life really as tough as you think?

Indeed, if you don't even want to work for it.

Found out something in my Bloggie

2011-04-28T02:37:00.002+08:00

【所以我说，人始终是人，都会欺骗人。

所以我说，不要相信人。

因为人始终会骗你，而你自己永远都不会骗你自己。

我讨厌那些每次将自己想得有多完美就多完美的人。

总爱将自己的那一套思想套在别人的头上，

假装自己有多好。】

This is what I have written months ago. But yet, I still think that it is really applicable ALL THE TIME.

YES, I MEAN YOU!

YOU YOU YOU!

You're damn so mean, SO AM I?

WTH, I should have aware of this, but not enduring it.

So yea, it happens again and again.

Alright, this is what we called LIFE.

ALRIGHT! FINE!

PISSED OFF!

God will make a way (:

2011-04-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

Part of my life (I)

2011-04-25T00:51:00.009+08:00

In this silent night, I have learnt something.

It is uneasy to handle one thing- Friendship.

When you have trusted so much on ones, he/she might make stories on you.

Only one-week-friend though.

Perhaps, I am just not so good.

Perhaps, he is just a jerk.

Or, I am just way too stupid and the one who can be fooled around?

HA HA HA..

And I have made another decision too.

And, ya.. I really miss you guys, E ren.

Xinqian :'( I really feel very helpless now. Why ah.. Hahahahahaha..

Dear God,

I know I have made a stupid mistake again. And you knew I would do it. And I know it will not bring me a good ending. I insisted. So, this is what I got. (: So yea, Please let me rest in your arms for a night. And tomorrow I will be a new me. Because bible tells me so: (Exodus 15:26)

He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the LORD your God and do what is right in his eyes, if you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the LORD, who heals you."

Dear God, you love such a sinful me. I should be thankful. (: God, please give me one more chance.

Thanks for listening to my lil prayer. I give my pray in the name of Jesus, Amen.

2011-04-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

Someone is complaining about my blog theme. :(

but, i m not going to change it anyway. :)

lalala~

so yea, nothing much to update.

just bored.. :P

无题

2011-04-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

还记得，“无题”是我真的十分非常emo的时候会用的题目。

因为，它真的是无题。

没有任何重要的东西，内容。

只是想找一个空间好好发泄。

看起来每天都很开心的我，

我，真的开心吗？

我，真的快乐吗？

当初做的决定，想在人生中，找充实来忘记不开心的回忆。

现在，我的生活充实的不像话。

我真的不知道我到底要的是什么。

每天忙忙碌碌的念书，

还是，每天吃饱摇脚？

我已经看不清楚我前面的路。

我看不见我所要去的地方。

常常对自己说，

对自己的决定负责任。

因为，路是我选的。

有人苦口婆心的劝告，

我都抛在脑后。

现在，自食恶果，活该！

我很笨，我懒惰，我堕落

还有一个月就final

而我，什么都不会。

我真的不知道，怎么办！救我！

2011-02-28T21:52:00.001+08:00

It is a weird feeling.

I keep waiting for someone.

And someone keep waiting for me? HAHAHAHA..

Yet so near, yet so far.

Was far, was near, and is going to be far again.

Hmmm, what's going on? ):

We Christians?

2011-02-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

Should have do something for people who really needs help.

Or should merely think of how to spread gospel all around the global?

People say, we Christians always pray for our own hardship?

What should we do for this world?

After long while, I am updating my Blog. ^^

2011-02-24T21:37:00.008+08:00

AHA.. I have isolated my blog for months. And NOW, I am back to clean the dust!

Hmmm, this semester will be my busiest-ever semester! Events, exams, training, work, revisions are stacked up high on my desk, and I do not manage to touch it! Oh my GEEZ~! But anyway, YOU will always be the guidance. I believe in you! ^^

Events coming up! The very first battle will be my EE's training. Haha, I must start to grease my holy sword, and fight for HIM.

This will be a very tough one, as we need to fight against our biggest but weakest enemy!

Next, it will be MUET! This is also why I am writing this in English. Arghh, I can't imagine, how terrible my grammar and vocabulary! ALAMAK! Never mind, start from now, AT LEAST I DID SOMETHING FOR IT?! Haha!

In mid-April, it will be my last chance to sit for TRIAL EXAM in A levels! Hahaha, actually I know, I never study well for my trial. AHA! Failure is the mother of Success? Lalala!

In May and June, I am going to sit the last semester subjects, w

hich are always known as KILLER PAPERS! HAHAHA, for me the previous units are also KILLERS! :( (And my Jan exam result is going to release soon! HELP! SOS!!!!)

Lastly, it will be my interview to enter my degree course. Hopefully, my result enable me to proceed! >.<>

Slimmest angle ever! ^^

Okay, here come some cute photos!

Competition between 3 kids! Okay, I lose.

WAAAA.. Stella you very pia hoh? Want champion ah? GIVE U LA!

Okay, gonna off soon! Buaiiii~~

2010-12-23T13:50:00.002+08:00

其实，我有想过，我不再说话，我不再多管闲事，我不再主动做什么。

因为我一直在做的在别人眼里只是鸡婆，只是无谓。

那，有必要吗？

花一分钟好好跟我说说有什么吗？

一句我很忙，就这样打发我？

平时，对每个人说话都好声好气，那我呢？

我不再说话，也许是好的

应该说我应该说的，说完了，就住口吧。

2010-12-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

跟有智慧的人談完話,就是會有一種被罵得狗血淋頭,自慚形穢,卻

又

很爽很有衝勁的感覺!!!

Masks

2010-12-06T17:09:00.003+08:00

Everyone has a mask, or should say, masks.

I don't like to masking up actually.

But I am not a good one.

Masking up is just let everyone satisfies, happy and wishing nothing happens.

But, I definitely prefer you tell me face to face, WHAT THE F*CK YOU ARE NOT SATISFYING WITH!

Don't be a coward, crapping in Facebook, using xxx to cover up what you are currently unhappy with.

F*cking angry but unwilling to spit it out. Making everyone happy? No, you're not.

You're making everything messed! Showing your Facebook status with everyone, so that people know that you're SACRED WITH YOUR ATTITUDE?

F*cking nonsense, dude!

I don't like you! Piss off!

给音乐的歌

2010-12-04T02:54:00.002+08:00

从开始到现在

开始有些迷惘

是不是一切将要结束

从失败到努力

我一直在坚持

是不是坚持将要瓦解

但听见你说FLY

风来了就要开始新的旅程

不怕前路有多艰辛

有你在我挺得住

你把最美丽的音符编成奇迹

你将声音变成安慰的力量

你将受伤的心一一捧起放在手心里

你把最美丽的乐章凑成奇迹

你将爱音乐的人聚在一起

一切最美丽的事全在这里

P.S/HAHAHA! 随手写一些，不知道melody将会是怎样.. 期待，我将要在3年后再开始写歌？

遇见自己

2010-11-27T16:51:00.002+08:00

听完卢学叡整张专辑，心中莫名的感到安慰。

好像心被触摸，莫名的感到安慰..

卢学叡 Hallelujah

2010-11-27T16:45:00.001+08:00

作词：卢学叡作曲：卢学叡、刘嘉钧

当我开口呼唤你呼唤你名

你侧耳倾听关心我的声音

你触摸我软弱的心给予安慰

使我能够坚强站立面对一切

当我开始爱上你爱上了你

你用爱将我抱紧不会离去

你释放我所有重担给我力量

开啓美丽道路赐我新的生命

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主我寻求祢耶稣

我要敬拜祢耶稣我主

当我开始爱上你爱上了你

你用爱将我抱紧不会离去

你释放我所有重担给我力量

开啓一条美丽道路充满我生命

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主我寻求祢耶稣

我要敬拜祢耶稣我主

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主我寻求祢耶稣

我要敬拜祢耶稣我主

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主我寻求祢耶稣

我要敬拜祢耶稣我主

同人不同命

2010-11-27T16:36:00.001+08:00

放下吧，目光放远点

相信总有一天会有回报。

Why can't we last long?

2010-10-24T19:44:00.002+08:00

You told me, everything's gonna be alright.

I said, I don't know, I hope so.

You cried. And I didn't know how to comfort you.

And you said, Let's break up.

I replied with a silent kiss.

But you seemed have no feeling.

I'd let you go if you insist, I said.

And you left.

Why can't we last long? I wonder.

Why can't we last longer?

Ohh~ Baby, give me one more chance.

Ohh~ Baby, please come back to me.

朋友

2010-10-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

回头一看，自己依然是孤独一人走在这条路上。

何必骗自己自己有多受欢迎

何必骗自己自己有朋友相伴

对你好的，暗地里捅你数刀

对你好的，把你的私生活放在放大镜下曝晒

对你好的，在你兴高采烈时泼你冷水

对你好的，笑里藏刀

你不知道，你不知道

你只是一味的想着过往的背叛

你只是一味的觉得，你是对的

我不知道，我真的不知道

谁是凶手，谁是挑拨离间者。

也许，挑拨我跟你的是同一个人

也许，挑拨你和我的也是同一个人

她不希望你离开她

所以她行动可恶，可怕，可笑

这一辈子，无法再见面的话

我还想对你说什么？

只想说，你对我的好，我会记住

请小心提防，近在咫尺的人

她会害你。

我想你 (:

体会

2010-10-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

1) 心有一句感慨，我真的老了。

脑海里的东西，多半是很久以前该记得的事。

最近发生的，我都忘了。

有人告诉我，不美好的事物，我们的大脑都会选择不去记起。

是真的吗？

2) 如果我做错了一件事，就要死一次，我已经不在了。

但是，神爱我。

祂让我在这世上为祂做美好的事，为祂打美好的战。

如果是这样，我还应该犹豫吗？

3) 不经一事，不长一智。

每个人都渴望的，未必是好的。

只有渴慕主，才是对我们有益的。

与其花时间，倒不如做些有意义的事。

与其花时间，倒不如做一些有益的事。

4) 爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。

不管有多么的讨厌，都应该去容忍。

上帝对我多番忍让，不管我做了多么错的事。

我要忍耐！！！

5) 上帝心里有蓝图，祂的时间不错误。

如果你求的，不是他所喜悦的，

一切只是惘然。

不管现在的你有多么的乐在其中，

时间到了，一切只是转眼云烟。

不要一味的求，乃是要明白上帝的旨意。

2010-10-11T02:03:00.001+08:00

10.10.10 until 10.10.15 (:

Promise

2010-10-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

一直都还没有做的祷告，

今天我终于提起勇气了。

在那堂讲之后，一直都有感动。

但是，我怕我做不到。

我害怕，如果做不到，

再怎么祷告，一切只是惘然。

我看见他的生命，

在人前是多么的有见证。

不想触碰的感情事，

没有爱情的生命，

也多么的有生命力。

我看见，5年的承诺，

其实并不遥远。

除了爱情，

世上还有更多的事情可以做。

别人我不知道，至少我自己。

已经开始遗忘的一个祷告，

从新在我心中燃起火焰。

谢谢你。

让我知道。

因为你，我知道可以等待。

River flows in you

2010-10-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time I have avoided to listen to this song.

It was a memory between the one I thought he was forever be mine.

One year. It had been one year. I thought, I can really forget.

This song, had ever be our promise.

This song, was our favorite.

This song, was our ringtone.

This song, brought us together.

But now, this song means nothing to me, to you maybe?

I think I am a coward.

Keep avoiding from this stuff.

I don't want to get hurt anymore.

I can't stand of the pain you had brought me.

Maybe, I shall meet a good man to bring me out of this nightmare? HAHA!

Anyway, River Flows In You.

焦点

2010-10-06T16:18:00.002+08:00

他说，做人要锁定一个焦点，做人才不会没有方向。

他说，什么都可以忘记，就是只要记得这一切都是为主而做的。

撇开一切，应该问问自己，我。。。

是不是太好胜了？

一直担心自己会输，输给不想输的人。。。

我到底怎么了？

2010-09-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

没有见证..

2010-09-16T23:13:00.001+08:00

It has been weeks.

Queendom

2010-09-16T23:03:00.005+08:00

I have never expected it would actually happen on me, perhaps to us.

I am glad that I found them, my happiness, my passion.

Music, was my passion, I thought it was.

But actually it is, instead.

Having Queendom is a miracle, is not a dream that I could ever know.

Stella, LinY, XinQian: I love you all.

It would be a long way for us to hit our target, but I do believe, WE CAN if we are with GOD.

In God, nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing. (:

Next Saturday will be our first "performance", or we shall call it a gift to God as He lets us to meet each other and have the chance.

It is a lame post I suppose. But it is what I wanted to say.

It is really glad that I am having you guys. (: My pleasure.

Keep on going, Queendom. (: I love you.

Give all the glory to our beloved God Father. (:

Queendom ROCKS!!!

寂寞

2010-09-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

寂寞依旧在蔓延..

爱笑的人，不一定快乐的；

快乐的人，却一定爱笑；

爱哭的人，不一定伤心；

只是哭了之后，会比较舒服。

如果已决定了寂寞，就不要埋怨。

如果以选择了迁就，就不要忧愁。

如果已放弃了追求，就不要苦苦相逼。

如果已不是你的，就不要假装高贵。

如果，一切都如果。^.^

久违的感觉，终于找回了。

谢谢你。

<3>

Happy Day

2010-08-22T13:50:00.003+08:00

Today is a good day. (:

I am very happy.

I am not emotional anymore.

And thank you.

love you, xa man.

Keyboard can be nice too. :)

Sorry

2010-08-20T19:49:00.002+08:00

I am sorry.
I am saying to those reading this.
I am not acting emotional now.
(: anyway, thank you for those who being with me for so long time.
I love you all.
Forgive my stupidity, forgive my stuborness, forgive me. :')

God, you are the one who leads me so far.
But I am once and once letting you down.
You still love me like your dearest daughther.
I m unworthy. You still love me.
Give me chances, and let me change to be a better one.
I love you lord.

And those I love and those who love me, bless them.

In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

感觉

2010-07-18T18:51:00.002+08:00

所以我说，人始终是人，都会欺骗人。

所以我说，不要相信人。

因为人始终会骗你，而你自己永远都不会骗你自己。

我讨厌那些每次将自己想得有多完美就多完美的人。

总爱将自己的那一套思想套在别人的头上，

假装自己有多好。

2010-07-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

心理不平衡，脑髓不清醒

Weekdays

2010-07-13T20:17:00.004+08:00

I hate Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday in one week.

I like Friday.

I love Saturday.

I have no special feeling towards Sunday.

LOL.

Time is not enough.

Rest is not enough.

I love homeworks.

I hate LOTS OF HOMEWORKS.

I like to study.

I hate to study continuously for a whole night.

Hmmm, it is my uni life. =)

我应该做吗？

2010-07-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

挣扎了一天，我还是不敢做决定。

毕竟，不是短期的。

我害怕，我会受不住引诱

我害怕，我会不能够自己

靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能做。

我应该怎样呢?

引言

2010-07-08T19:16:00.002+08:00

“如果你不想说的话，可不可以拜托你，不要让别人知道你在生闷气？

我知道以你的演技应该一点都不难吧？”

原由：泡沫之夏-尹夏沫

What the LOL

2010-07-07T16:02:00.003+08:00

This evening, after my class, it was raining HEAVILY.

really HEAVILY.

Then, HS aka ah bao aka Jen Goh and I decided to go to library to do homework.

But, due to some REASONs, she went to Dean's office to WORK.

so, left me alone. so cham. :(

Then, I was without an umbrella. So, I was trying to find an unused classroom to do my h/w.

Hmmm, UCSI earns big money i think. There is no empty class available.

Then, I took a lift to 3rd floor, tot to find yi-lin.

What the, the rain water is dripping in the lift.

I heard someone asking, "hey, how much u pay per sem? shud we complain?"

This one is still NORMAL complaining.

I heard another guy saying this. "UCSI might want to make a water theme park with this lift."

First---What the lol.

Then, i went to recital hall. There are a group of people who were doing their presentation for Moral studies.

So, I quietly went in, and sat at the last row, so that no one can see me.

There was a group, who are discussing abt the "gender".. something abt the equability.

Usually, there will be a Q&A section after each and every presentation.

And NORMALLY, there will be nobody asking anything.

BUT!!!

there is a guy, who looks so yong sui.

He asked, "is the topic u guys sharing related to MORAL?"

actually i found him quite funny by asking this question. ofcoz there is plenty of facts that can prove it is related.

Then, the group leader was so kind to answer, "we r sharing abt men and women have equal rights. and so on so forth."

Then that yong sui guy, "okay, then wad's the moral value?"

"respecting each and everyone in our society."

"why it is relating to the MORAL?"

Second--- WHAT THE LOL...

usually if we meet this kind of annoyer, we will just ignore during presentation.

but, one of the group members stood up, and asked.

"Hey dude, do u pay attention during our presentation? why u keep on asking those question which have already included in our presentation or the slides?"

Third, WHAT THE LOL....

".........................." (we all laughed like mad, even i could not stop my hand from clapping)

then that guy continued.

"any more stupid question to ask? if not, next group please. Thanks for ur supporting and claps."

HAHAHA, WHAT THE LOL.

rainy day is not emo day.

it is HAPPY day. =)

虽然我愿意

2010-07-07T15:57:00.002+08:00

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说

别让我每个夜为你受折磨

是多麽不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我

别让我因为你被回忆折磨

而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什麽问题

依然想念着你

虽然被放弃虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什麽难题

黑夜我还想着你

心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说

当我说我要你从此好好过

是真的否则我怎麽肯放手

赐给我你现在幸福的笑容

别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

心还想着你~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93eed3H8HuU

理不清，剪就断

2010-07-05T14:09:00.003+08:00

New Semester, New Life

2010-06-27T01:43:00.003+08:00

This semester, can be very toughed and suffering. I want to make things different if compared to last semester.

1. I must study more.

2. I must touch a bit a bit of the lessons before it is taught.

3. I must COMPLETE my homeworks in time.

4. I must not sleep too much.

5. I must not watch drama too much.

6. I must not facebook-ing so much.

7. I must apply the "6am concept" always.

8. I must NOT EAT TOO MUCH.

9. I must apply the "WWJD" concept always.

10. I must not get angry of someone or something easily.

11. I must make myself to play piano during leisure time.

12. I must go to GYM.

13. I must do more reading to improve my english. *oh gosh, i cant even write an essay now*

14. I must clean my room often.

15. I must SMILE every time when I am not doing anything. *people always think that I am emo or angry when i have no emotion.*

That's all. I M-U-S-T make things right.

And, lastly before i post this and applying those i have promised, i want to say something.

Somehow, people always don't cherish what they have now. They pursue. This is correct, this ain't wrong at all.

But when you hurt someone, then you're wrong.

Somehow, people always think that THEY ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO DO THINGS CORRECTLY. And they always think the others were wrong, they are JERKS.

How absurd that is.

Somehow, people always think that their lies are perfectly covered. However, the lies are PERFECTLY presented in front of the public. Only those who lie ain't know that they are so stupid to lie.

Somehow, people always think that someone approach them have motives. However, when there is no one to concern about them, they will say the world is loveless. ABSURD!

Okay, done. (:

There is a phrase, in chinese. 井水不犯河水。

After bla-ing so much, time to off to bed. =D

New Semester, New Life. WWJD. 6am concept.

GraccY~

Don't Love

2010-06-24T11:31:00.003+08:00

I should go. I should go now. Because my stubbornness will turn to tears.

I should hurry so I won't see you left behind.

I'm crying. All the sadness that this departing love built up has crashed.

I can't even move a step so I just stand crying with my back on you.

Don't love. Good bye will always come. It hurts so much that you can't even breath.

I thought it'd only hurt as much as love. I thought I could forget it.

But no, it hurts thousand times more.

I'm scared.

Living with my eyes opened, but I'll still be blind.

Don't love. Good bye will always come. It hurts so much that you can't even breath.

I thought it'd only hurt as much as love. I thought I could forget it.

But no, it hurts thousand times more.

Again and Again. No, No. I tell myself like a fool.

Don't love. It hurts so much that you feel like dying.

You cry everyday too.

I thought it would be easy, I thought I could forget once a new love comes

but no, my love can't do that. I can't do that.

Jam Hsiao

2010-06-22T16:44:00.006+08:00

I just realized I have fallen in ROCK MUSIC, especially slow rock. I love it so much.

Credit to JAM HSIAO. =D

Honestly, I hate those singers with rough voice, it was so annoyed, for me. haha

BUT NOW, I have fallen for it because of Jam Hsiao.

He changes my life? He changes the music that I normally listen to? haha.

This is his first album. He used his sexy voice to sing. LOL.

I started to notice this guy since ONE MILLION STAR season one.

There are lots of people supported Aska Yang.

There were some people arguing about the PK between them.

They said, Jam is not as "lihai" as Aska. What the. =X *Don't get offended*

The fact is, Jam has published more albums than Aska.

So, are they going to insist that Aska is greater? HAHA. APPARENTLY NOT!!! *opps*

His second album, Princess. =) more and more rock songs.

This one, he re-sings those old songs. Woots, what a nice one. =D

Last year he did not win the "new singer" prize.

This year, once again, he gets into the "Best Male Singer" with David Tao, JJ Lin, Khalil Fong, Eason Chen and so on so for.

All the best to JAM HSIAO. (:

You're the ROCKER!!!

除了它，我真的不知道要做什么了

2010-06-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

又去看了一次

还是很爱它

除了它，我真的不知道要做什么了

只有它，能让我产生兴趣

只有它，能让我花上最多的时间

只有它，能让我更投入现在应该要做的事

祝我，好运。

长大

2010-06-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

在成长的路上也许我们都一样

努力地想往上爬但却都失去方向

爱要如何才发芽付出了才算成长

忙碌的大街上有太多爱被遗忘

懵懵懂懂的我们才发现之日就然后想依靠

偶尔想起了你的笑容也想起和你的争吵

于是忙碌的生活是用来麻痹自己的借口

慢慢还要再多久我才会懂

也许我们都应该长大才能面对未来的风

或许那不算什么沉重

也许我们都应该长大才能慢慢的忘了他

相遇的冬天却停留在哪

在成长的路上也许我们都一样

努力地想往上爬但却都失去方向

爱要如何才发芽付出了才算成长

忙碌的大街上有太多爱被遗忘

于是忙碌的生活是用来麻痹自己的借口

慢慢还要再多久我才能懂

也许我们都应该长大才能面对未来的风

或许那不算什么沉重

也许我们都应该长大才能慢慢的忘了他

相遇的冬天却停留在哪

也许我们都应该长大才能慢慢的忘了他

下一个冬天说好忘了吧

Things changed

2010-06-20T23:34:00.003+08:00

Things changed. Can I hold on tight on what I have done?

Things messed up. Can I make the right decision?

Things seem wrong. Can I make a difference?

I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know who to discuss.

Or it is again a chance for me to grow up?

To make a decision and make it to be right, no more regret?

Can I?

I am so stressed. I don't want to face it. I don't want to know the consequence.

I don't want to hear any voice giving me opinion, am I doing this?

I do not think about all the consequences for the decision has made.

I don't know!!!

不懂

2010-06-15T10:46:00.003+08:00

不懂几时你变得那么肤浅

不懂几时你变得那么不成熟

不懂几时你变得那么不可理喻

不懂几时你变得那么无知

不懂几时你变得那么假

不懂几时你变得那么愚蠢

不懂几时你变得这样

是我过度敏感，还是？

我好期待那一瞬间赶快出现

救我脱离你的世界

可怕又愚蠢的世界

可怕的利益，可悲的无知

我无话可说

也许，你会成功？有一天?

加油吧。。。

有一天你会明白当初你是多可笑。。。

Complicated? No more.

2010-06-08T19:27:00.005+08:00

It was once complicated, but now it seems so clear.

I should face the truth, and so do you.

I was expecting something to happen soon.

And I prayed.

The answer from God, is "no".

He once again reminded me, one and a half year promise I have given to him.

Be tough, have faith, be strength.

With God, nothing is impossible.

Without God, everything is impossible.

Just found a quote from Jaeson Ma's song-Love.

"Love is selfless, but not selfish."

Ya, love is selfless, not selfish. (:

我算什么？

2010-06-05T20:19:00.004+08:00

你是大混蛋！我讨厌你！

有事情就找我，没事就把我甩一边！

贱贱贱！！！

有种就不要再找我！

!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*

I hate EMO

2010-06-03T23:42:00.001+08:00

When you are reading the title of this post, are you guessing that I am EMO now?

Then you are definitely WRONG!

Haha, it has been a long time I have not be emo? LOL.. Gotta proud of it?

Somehow, I really hate people acting emo in front of me.

Alright, I admit that sometimes my face is smelly like shit, but I really don't mean to be like that.

I was born to be like this ma. =( cannot blame me.

I REALLY HATE ONES TO ACT EMO!!! seriously.

You can say, "oh come on, everyone has his/her emotion what."

Okay, I agree with that. But, do you need to SHOW it to other people who does not offend you?

WTF?

You love to be emo, that is ur own business what?!

Why do you need to affect all of us around you?

You said, "Hey, not everyone are cheerful as you like nothing to be worried."

Okay. This is what I damn mad of.

I have my own problem to be worried, so as the others.

BUT!!! DID I show u my emotion? Did I?

Did I treat you bad when I was stressed?

Did I treat you COLD when I was sad?

Everyone has their own things to be taken care of.

NOT ONLY YOU!!!

Grow up man, come on.

You are not young.

GRRRRRR...

Who created EMO this word?

LOL..

I HATE EMO!!!

No, I should say, I hate people who acts EMO without a valid reason!!!

Let us say GOODBYE to EMO, say HELLO to CHEERS!!! hahaha..

*What a lame post. (Suddenly think of reading this when I was doing Statistics. xD)*

生命

2010-06-01T16:36:00.002+08:00

生命是脆弱的

人生是残酷的

人性是可恶的

孩子是无辜的

刚听闻朋友说，

一个我很尊重的老师

刚发生起车祸

老婆走了，肚子里的孩子也是

剩下老师，和四个孩子

听到的时候，

是震惊，是感慨，是无奈

祝福你，黄国宾老师

希望你，坚强。

学生我，只能在远方祝福你。

爱情

2010-06-01T14:09:00.006+08:00

爱情是什么？

是人空虚寂寞的必需品？

是人思念无奈的空间？

是人孤寂的氧气？

还是人的渴望？

谁不期待，谁不等待眼前的感动？

谁不期待，谁不等待真实的温热在手中？

我也曾期待着，等待着你出现在眼前的感动

我也曾期待，等待着一个真实的拥抱

思念，不声不响的

混淆了我的思绪

你弹吉他的样子

我依稀记得

嘴巴不承认你的存在

只因为我知道我不行

没办法让自己不爱你

也没办法让你爱自己

爱情在没有尝试之前，

都是偶然，不可相信的偶然

自己知道

自己到了那里

想不想？可不可以？

一点点想哭泣，一点点想着你

太依赖你给的回忆

那年发生的事，你还记得吗？

别担心，我明白你的答案

你和她还是比较适合

别夸大了寂寞。。。

寂寞没什么大不了。。。

晴

Statistics 1

2010-05-30T20:59:00.003+08:00

*This should be updated on 27 May.*

Before the exam, the day before the exam,

I can say, the things seemed, NEW to me.

the formula, the way of calculating it, the techniques of scoring.

It was torturing, learning it once again.

Honestly, my stats 1 really not good.

I can still remember, i got 40 plus for my first small test.

it is all about GRAPHS!!

TAN XIN QIAN SAID, i might have GRAPH-PHOBIA.. lol?

Okay, go back to the paper.

it is not as tough as i expected.

urm, i really don understand why mathematics not all about figures,

but it is abt explanations and theories. LOL

i don think i did well in explaining the graphs, the answers and so on.

however, some of my friends are quite disappointed about their performance?

some could not finish, some said the answers are weird. (I agree with the later one)

hmmm, how leh? xD wait until august then we will know. =P

Hahahahaha

12 days more to go back to MIRI!!

11 days more to go to SUNWAY!

10 more days to sit for STATS 2.. lol?

Wish me good luck.

but SLACK FIRST la.. hahahahahahaha..

是时候了

2010-05-30T20:51:00.002+08:00

逃避了那么久

是时候回去了

回到那时候的我

回到那时候不说后悔的我

回到那时候不说怨言的我

你们的爱

2010-05-27T11:02:00.001+08:00

过去总要离开无论多少感慨明天总会来

生命没有彩排我已不是小孩相信依赖

眼泪和心碎也不能让我的心裏失去期待

才看到那未来

那些人潮人海如此迫不及待散去又回来

没有某个角落可以置身世外逃开现在

如果我放弃该怎样去面对那些真挚的爱

谁拥有那未来

爱我的人相信我

我一直在努力改变所有失败

为你们而存在

爱我的人感谢你你们的爱

就算人生不是精彩我也要勇敢的姿态

就像夜裏的光就像皮鞭的响指引著羔羊

伤口需要滚烫生命需要成长痛要品尝

命运去碰撞才会懂坚持是不是对的方向

错过的不要想

就像干花的香就像杯底的糖沉淀了思想

每个人不一样也许你的幸福地址不详

要明白被爱并不是一种奖赏而是种力量

要用它去发光

爱我的人相信我

我一直在努力改变所有失败

为你们而存在

爱我的人感谢你你们的爱

就算人生不是精彩我也要勇敢的姿态

多少次紧握著明天徘徊

让昨天无法释怀

就算我注定失败

还有你暖的胸怀

爱我的人相信我

我一直在努力改变所有失败

为你们而存在

爱我的人感谢你你们的爱

在寒冷的雪天等待著一朵花盛开

Biology Unit 1

2010-05-25T21:21:00.003+08:00

Okay, I admit.

I was still thinking why so many of our seniors retake Bio paper.

Now, I know the answer.

It is damn eff-ing hard.

It is just like when you are having constipation,

but you feel stomache. *LOL*

I used to do the structure part.

So, I did it first.

First question, fill in the blank.

You thought it is easy?

no no no NO NO!!!

Next, phospholipid.

Next, protein fusion.

Next, GRAPHS.

ONLY GRAPHS.

What the abcde?

Are we doing statistics now? or maths?

I hate the part asking us to describe and explain about the graph

it is damn eff-ing hard.

Another question, asking us in this way.

"Using your own knowledge, answer .............."

I don't even know how to answer this question.

Does it mean that, I DO NOT HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE?

oh my......

I think, I need to retake this paper next semester.

No, not only next sem, i think few more times i need to retake in order to get an A?

or i shud not aim that high? okay la..

Give me a B at least, come on..

FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED!!

Let me burn the BIOLOGY TEXTBOOK.

it is just USELESS.

A friendly reminder for all,

those who want to do Biology A level Edexcel board,

PLEASE, don't buy the textbook.

it is useless when answering the exam question.

Don't defend.

and

Don't get offended.

*praying for my paper. Hope that when it is FLYING to london, my paper is left behind.*

红颜祸水

2010-05-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

有滩水说我是根草。我不可否认，因我平平无奇。

＊我死都要把那滩水吸光！！！＊

Before Bio 1 exam

2010-05-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

oh damn

bio bio bio bio bio..

how could you do it to me?

I M DAMN SO PANIC since u r coming to visit me tomorrow.

I don't want to see you la. GO AWAY!!

YOU drive me into crazy.

Chemistry 1 (6CH01)

2010-05-22T00:31:00.003+08:00

Today, I sat for my Chemistry 1.

okay, it is not that tough as I have expected, and it is not too easy as well. (talking rubbish)

Some of us are kind of disappointed as we did not study the textbook fully and ignored those looked like not important parts. Who knows? it came out. (geramnya)

well, we cant blame anyone, as we really rely on the past year papers that we have done by ourselves. (we did pay in our effort hoh.. )

so, what i m hoping is, at least give me a B la.. the minimum also a B please.. xD

somehow, people always ask me, why i aim so low.

I will answer, i don like to aim high and fall badly.

i don like the feeling of lose, as I am LEO.

hahaha. wad i can say is, I have tried my best.

I have done my part, the rest leave it to God.

Thanks Mom, as she always concerns about me and taking care of the family.

Thanks Xin Qian, as she always encourage me to study more and more and more.

Thanks Jen Yin(hong yan huo shui) aka ah bao, as she teaches me about the metalloid and accompany me going through the tough time.

Thanks Yi Lin, as she always provide her LILY for me. haha, for wad? MOLLY!!!

Thanks everyone who have helped me.

Today, JPA name list came out.

Diao diao got JPA among our classmates. Proud to have him as my buddy.

Desmond has went to Matrix in Labuan, now diao's turn.

who's next?

hong yan huo shui? :'(

all are leaving. sad case.

or maybe i m the one who is going to leave?

go back for FORM 6? hahahaha

DARE NOT TO THINK ABT FORM 6.

Lastly, please pray for my dad for his health problem.

I MISS HOME.

I miss home.

home.

home

Speechless

2010-05-19T17:34:00.000+08:00

I can’t belive what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless
I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless
I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?

Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?
If I promise to you boy

That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

Please pray for my dad and I.

来了，来了！！

2010-05-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

考试，距离3天。

好事来的。

考完了就回家！！！

家家家！！！

quoted from someone: 我要回美里，KL 很复杂，我要回美里... 我只想安安分分留在美里...

LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL ~~~~~~~~~

惜福

2010-05-11T22:43:00.004+08:00

最近，刚刚听闻一个好朋友发生的事
很同情他，也觉得他很勇敢
因为一些家里的事情
他，没办法继续现在的学业
离开了原本属于他的地方
他真的很坚强

我，不够坚强
我其实，一直在逃避
一直在逃避我懒惰的现实
我的惰性，从小就跟着我
一直都没离开过

就连现在，要考试了
我还提不起劲儿来读书
成天埋怨自己懒惰，却不从懒惰开始做起

他，要我珍惜每一次可以读书的机会
因为，真的很难得

是，真的很难得

来到这里几个月后，
开始忘记当初是多么辛苦才可以说服爸爸让我来吉隆坡
开始忘记当初妈妈是多么辛苦才把我送来这里
开始忘记当初我是流了多少滴眼泪才可以实现梦想
开始忘记当初自己为了梦想而坚持，而勇敢。。。

是时候开始了。。。我答应他，我会好好的
你也要加油，为你自己，为了你家人。。。
你要好好的。。。

惜福~~~

有时候人不要太聪明

2010-04-18T23:21:00.004+08:00

人类，是一种非常特别的创造物
他们拥有其他物体都没有的样子，四肢，头脑

人脑的构造也非常复杂
人一辈子都无法应用整个头脑
好事来的。。。真的

当你知道，你的脑知道了一些不该知道的事情
是时候装傻了
不要太聪明，想要去看穿着整件事
它，很伤人的

当你知道事实的真相，
却要压抑自己的情绪，
嬉皮笑脸的面对它，
这更难。。。

那为什么我就要去拆穿着整件事？
有什么益处吗？
是不是单纯点，不想不看不听？
这样他好你好我也好，对吗？

希望时间冲淡一切。。。

Counting Days

2010-04-17T00:01:00.004+08:00

你知道吗？
当日子越来越接近，我满心期待
原本应该是惊喜的明天，
变得没有意义。。。

你知道吗？
当时间的脚步离我越来越远，我很害怕
嘴巴硬着不说，
心里总觉得怪怪的。。。

你知道吗？
当你离我越来越遥远，我很慌，真的
告诉自己只要能经得起时间的考验
一切将变得不一样。。。

你知道吗？
当你说“如果我是对的人”，我真的很开心
虽然那可能只是你一时口快说出来的
但是，我真的很开心。。。

你知道吗？
(你不知道) 这叫设问。(:

TRIALS

2010-04-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

Today is the 1st day of my 1st trial for my A-levels.
Urm, I should say, I am just too lucky.
Those I cant do, didn't come out.. phew~~
(but of course, I did a lot of CARELESS MISTAKES again. But never mind, no PAIN no GAIN ma..)

But, I really feel bad when I am blogging now.
My friends really NEVER ONLINE (maybe I should say less online) these few days.
And they really paid a lots of hardwork and their effort for the papers sitting.
me? not at all.
haihhhh.. =((

i know one day my balasan will come.
but i hope, not in my real exam la.. please.. =(
anyway, wish all of you good luck and GAMBATEH YO..~~~
GA YAO GA YAO~~!!

恶习

2010-04-04T22:38:00.003+08:00

我的坏习惯又“发作”了
我爱跑厕所！！

常常抱着书本，到厕所
很奇怪。。。
但久而久之就习惯了

但是，朋友们都不习惯吧？
常常问我，去厕所读书，行得通吗？

真的，行得通！！！
哈哈哈哈。。。

实验1：Malaysian Studies
我在厕所读，而且就只读了那么一遍，就考试了
还考得不错的成绩（至少给我，它是不错的）

实验2：Chemistry Quiz （明天）
我也去厕所读，读完我最混乱的部分
希望明天能顺顺利利吧！！

如果这招真的行得通，
哈哈哈哈哈哈
厕所厕所，我爱你
你像玫瑰一样着人迷。。。 xD

这整个星期，都有考试
意味着，我每天都要霸厕？

啦啦啦啦啦。。。。
@v@

一切并没有我想象中美好

2010-03-26T22:48:00.003+08:00

时间，一点一滴的过去了
不曾为你停留的脚步，渐渐开始后悔了
心不再像以前一般火热
那久违的你，还记得当初我们开心的时光吗？
一切并没有我想象中美好

阳光，被雨天交替了
我也开始放慢了脚步，希望你追赶上来
雨滴不留情的，打乱我思绪
嘲笑着我说， “傻瓜，别再等了。”
心情，像喝醉了一样，疯疯癫癫。。。
一切并没有我想象中美好

没有你的日子，我过得很好
但是，没有你的日子，
好像，总缺少些什么
一切并没有我想象中美好

听着朋友近来的故事，
我庆幸着我有你。。。
那你呢？
一切并没有我想象中美好

你说，“别傻了，你值得更好的。”
但我说，“那你呢？”
一切并没有我想象中美好

因为我会想起你，我害怕面对自己
我的意志总被寂寞吞噬
因为你总会提醒，
过去总不会过去，有种真爱不是我的
一切并没有我想象中美好

假如我不曾爱你，
我不会失去自己，
想念的刺，钉住我的位置
因为你总会提醒，
就算我赢得这世界，
有种幸福不是我的
一切并没有我想象中美好

我忍！！！

2010-03-22T14:18:00.003+08:00

不知道是月经来袭，所以心情老是闷闷的
还是，我已经忍无可忍？

今天已经不是第一次了
我忍你无数次，不代表你就可以hurt我 xD

一句，“是你自己不够努力”，就像一巴掌
毫不留情地，打了下去

在你说这句话以前，你又如何？
在你每次批评我时，你有没有想过自己有多好？
我知道，我样样不如人。。。
但是，你有必要这样吗？

还是，我每天嬉皮笑脸的，让你觉得你说什么我都无所谓？
还是，我太过敏感了？你根本就没有这个意思？

嗨~~~也对，自己就是没有很好，所以才有借口让别人“讲”。。。
只能够说，我要多些严肃？哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈（疯了！！）
俗语所的好，要人家佩服你，你就要让人觉得你真的很好。。。

*路边一棵榕树下*

加油吧~~~

如果没有你

2010-03-20T17:34:00.003+08:00

Hey～我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey～我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我该从何说起你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你

如果没有你我在哪里
又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没了自己
Hey～我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

你是否也像我一样在想你

Attempting~~~

2010-03-16T00:15:00.002+08:00

ngek ngek ngek (new laughing style from Jen Yin)
Today, I started of a NEW daily routine which I call it as "六点钟行列"
wad does it mean? haha.
let me explain this.
I NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6AM EVERY MORNING.
this is because, I really need to fix my time for sleeping, studying, and PLAYING.. =X
i seemed to be spending too much time on EATING instead of studying last few months, so now..
I WANT TO TRY TO "EARLY SLEEP EARLY WAKE"..
meaning that, I need to make myself sleep at 12am and wake up at 6am or sometimes 7am..(depends)
AND TODAY, I MADE IT!!! Congratz..!! (sot)
did many things today. *half-done* homework, studying, preparing for 2mr classes, doing something on grammar and vocabulary, reading, and GYM..
hahahaha, kinda satisfied about it..

HAHAHAHA.. Dear Journal, are you happy with my 180 degrees changing? xD *sot some more*

lalala, just randomly updated again.. since i have quite a long time didnt TOUCH my blog already..
hahaha

time to bed.. NIGHT!!　（：

梦想

2010-03-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

梦+想 = 梦想？
你想得美

花样男子

2010-03-01T22:50:00.005+08:00

I have emo for long time, just because of MEN!!! hahaha, they are not only MEN, they are STARS..
I did not study much for my Malaysian Studies' midterm.
I just anyhow read through those lecture notes.
so, I know, what is the consequence.. xD
Actually, I think that I have gone through the age of being 花痴..
But now seems like, I HAVE NOT.

I have watched 18 episodes in 2 days. (which one epi is like 1 hour plus.)
hahaha, I start to imagine my mom's face if she know this. :X

When I was reading this blog, I went and searched some photos for this drama.
Accidentally found this. ----->

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***!!!!!!!SWEEEEETTTTTTTT!!!!!!!***
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He is soooo engdao.. (Tan Xin Qian, syok lw ma?)

Hiak, just randomly update xia my blog.
hahaha, I gotta continue with the drama NOW!!!...

tata.. ^^

((:

每天

2010-02-26T01:09:00.003+08:00

最近，你的名字常出现
开心开心。。。

还有每天的一分钟。。。
超爽超爽。。。

每天

还以为是浪漫的雾景
我呼吸被染黑的空气
雪不再结成了冰我们将沉没
阳光太遥远还剩下什么能留到最后

一年了候鸟没有回来
飞不远变成谁的晚餐
站在摩天高楼顶瞬间变平地
永远是什么一眨眼就蹦落

You are my everyday
oh 每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号却任谁也无处可逃
You are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱你是否还愿意感觉得到

后悔吗 Tell me why
在亲手毁灭之后挽救
像伤害我最爱的人
听地球正在哭泣

You are my everyday
oh 每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号却任谁也无处可逃
You are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱你是否还愿意感觉得到

Seng jor of Seng Sok jor?

2010-02-24T01:17:00.002+08:00

These two words, are in cantonese.
LOL i can say.
Kar Soon posted it at my facebook's wall.
I once could not guess what's the meaning.
BUT, after few trials, realized that, "SENG JOR" means woke up; and "seng sok jor" means become mature.

Yea, it has been a long time, I do not want to face my past.
It was terrible, INDEED.
Some people just think that, "yes, grace tan is a friendly one."
But, I WAS not.. I use "was". (Hope it is really a past tense)

I don't dare to think about my past.
Terrible and horrible.
I... am... Urm, a bad girl.

I did many THINGS, which are hurtful, to me, and to the others, especially those who love me.
I did many crazy things, especially in my Form4 life.
I loved to think too much, and tried to achieve something with any methods I can think of.
I loved to do whatever I like.

But now, still.. I love to do my way, my own way.
One of the characteristics of Leo.
Think twice, think thrice before I want to do something, will do?
I thought I would become more GENTLE in talking, but I fail.
Diao2 (Kwei eng) asked me not to change it? As he is not used to a GENTLE grace.. (go knock, pls..)

But then, I still can stop thinking of those things of SOMEONE did to me, not even one times.
She hurts me once and once.
I have forgiven her once and once.
Too generous I will say.
My forgiveness doesn't reward me any.
It gives me only betrayals, once and once.

Yuk Chang told me, " You must experience things yourself only then you will gain something that you have never had it. Because friends you are having now, will not be there forever. You will see different people, different situation... What you are looking now is a picture on the wall which doesn't move. What you need to do is look at the 3D screen, look from all sides, or even look further."

Actually he was just copy and paste something to me. But, it calms me.
Although it has been a long time, he sent this to me.
But, what I see is, I have successfully tried his method, towards the one I really damn sien.
Somehow, a friend of mine told me that, I might be too cold-blooded if I keep using this angle to see everyone, instead of giving them a chance to entering my world.

Everyone gives me a different opinion.

However, I really do think that, I have changed.
I will never let the one who is trying to hurt me, get closer to me? Again?.. I think?
I live my own life, you please, do your great also.
Continue with your studies, your lies, your dreams, your imaginations, your men, your girls, etc.
Good luck to you?

Good luck to me. (:

手分手

2010-02-22T21:59:00.003+08:00

自私的我
不曾顾太你的感受
当手分手
你没有意见都由我

累了太久
泪水已如湍急洪流
就手分手
没有人需要挽留

你也许以为是借口
我说爱情不太适合我
不如只当朋友
会在一起更久
我对你很坏（你其实不坏）
轻易把手放开（只是把手放开）
让我的真心
一瞬间
适应不太过来

我对你很坏（你其实不坏）
给你依赖却又拿开（我已经习惯）
多想要把我的真心拆开（把你的真心拆开）
再看一次有没有你的存在（再看一次有没有我的存在）

你也许以为是借口
我说爱情不太适合我
不如只当朋友
会在一起更久

如果不见你
我们就说
拜拜。。。

后宫细语

Trials

To Love

Life as a Student (I)

In the beginning of 2012

Christmas Day 2011

Dream

那些年, 那个人, 那些事

快乐

No title (2)

夢

喜新厌旧

那些年～～

狮子座

I'm back ONCE AGAIN

Time flies

O.S-es/

Never stop going!

No title (1)

Wake up

Motivation

Dream

Found out something in my Bloggie

God will make a way (:

Part of my life (I)

无题

We Christians?

After long while, I am updating my Blog. ^^

Masks

给音乐的歌

遇见 自己

卢学叡 Hallelujah

同人不同命

Why can't we last long?

朋友

体会

Promise

River flows in you

焦点

Queendom

寂寞

Happy Day

Sorry

感觉

Weekdays

我应该做吗？

引言

What the LOL

虽然我愿意

理不清，剪就断

New Semester, New Life

Don't Love

Jam Hsiao

除了它，我真的不知道要做什么了

长大

Things changed

不懂

Complicated? No more.

我算什么？

I hate EMO

生命

爱情

Statistics 1

是时候了

你们的爱

Biology Unit 1

红颜祸水

Before Bio 1 exam

Chemistry 1 (6CH01)

Speechless

来了，来了！！

惜福

有时候人不要太聪明

Counting Days

TRIALS

恶习

一切并没有我想象中美好

我忍！！！

如果没有你

Attempting~~~

遇见自己