林宥嘉 - 说谎

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡 让人家不安
才会 结果都阵亡

我没有什麽阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何况那算什麽伤
反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你懂我的 我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘
笑是真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口 闻得到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你知道的 我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎 是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
爱一个人 没爱到难道就会怎麽样
别说我说谎 人生已经如此的艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎
它带你来 骗我说 渴望的有可能有希望
我没有说谎 祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你就遗忘

Recently, do a lots of reading. Lol, it is my so called RESPONSIBILITY now. Sad.
I usually study with my iPod, this is why I am addicted of this song.
There is a sentence, "我没有说谎 ,是爱情说谎,它带你来, 骗我说, 渴望的有可能有希望"
I am quite with it. I thought, he is. But actually he is not.
Who is the liar? Love or you?
You are the one who made the promise. However, u brought away your promises and ran from me. The scar is never healed for years, it's true. I act like I am nothing, been healed. ACT.

I'm afraid, but I am still wanting it so much. I was hurt, but I have not healed yet.
Trying my very best to leave this little island, just to forget about our past.
Trying not to think about you, just to make my life easier.
Trying to do everything which is not related to you, just to forget about you.




GraccY

坦白

萧亚轩 - 坦白

作词：萧亚轩 作曲：李伟菘

无数个夜晚 任性的被你宠坏
我曾想就这样 耍赖
如今默默呼吸 孤单

失去了什么 还剩下什么 不再等待
面对你慷慨 无节制的爱
我该不该 勇敢的离开

对自己坦白 爱狠狠的 还在
找朋友陪伴 都抵不过你一半
泪在眼里打转 爱已变成黑白
找不到答案 也不想谎言主宰

对彼此坦白 我们真的失败
背叛不是意外 就算承诺不再
新欢成了旧爱 爱的没了姿态
我会释怀 让时间把一切都冲淡

就让它冲淡


这是Elva's的新专辑，有几首歌曲都是在叙述她如何相信一个男人，到被抛弃（真的）
一听见这首歌，眼泪不禁流了下来。不是因为我还不能忘记，而是心里扥道伤痕，一直还在。
“对彼此坦白， 我们真的失败，背叛不是意外，就算承诺不再。新欢成了旧爱， 爱的没了姿态，我会释怀 ，让时间把一切都冲淡。”
眼泪，更不知觉的，潸然落下。
是我不够勇敢，不能硬下心肠，大大方方的离开。
是我觉得，你是对的，所谓的“死缠烂打”。

这是一首好歌，有意思的歌=）

Elva 萧亚轩《钻石糖》

All are over

Jay is back. I'm here alone again. Missing the days spending with him, as I have only need to PLAY, PLAY and PLAY. Hmmm, these few days kept sticking with my cousins, I found out that, I am not the "small girl" anymore. As they are all older than me, and we seldom go out together. But now, we have a lots to talk about, we can talk to each other like FRIENDS... ... I miss the days we spent together at the beach, weddings, wedding dinners, thai bar, islands and the satay stall. I miss the moment ---- "Five Captains".

Maybe this is the last time we got gathering. I mean in this few years, as I am going to KL. I love the feeling we get together. I love the feeling we have our fun like nobody else. I still remember the warmth of your hand when holding me tight; I still remember the warmth of your body when hugging me tight when the day you are leaving. My tears drop down when I miss you, I miss the gentle way you treating me.

"Jay, if you're coming back to Miri again, must inform me okay. So that I can book the air ticket earlier then come back with you.=)"

I miss you badly, it is what I can tell.


Love you,
Your dear GraccY.

Slack first lah..

Hmmm, today is my cousinS' wedding day. My biao jie and biao ge is married on the same day. Wow, so sweet. When looking at them, I wonder when is my turn? Haha, it is somewhat a terrible, for me maybe?! Or I will never get married? =X, touch wood touch wood. Watching all my coussyS have a boy friend or a girl friend already, but I'm still available. Sad what? Although I am the youngest among them. Lalala.

By the way, today I am my cousin's "ji mui". It is really a fun one. ASKING ANGPAOs is our main job today. All of us, money face and money minded. Kept asking red pockets from the bridegroom. And, I was really jiat lat one. I have RM100 together, but RM50 is lost by me. Really jiat lat one lo.. =( haha, however, I got experience to kacau bridegroom and his "heng dai". Haha

Tonight will be my biao ge's wedding dinner, and 2mr nite is my biao jie's as well. It is so called, WEIGHT-GAINING-DAY!! Hahaha.



MEMORABLE DAYS WITH JAY=D

This feeling, visits me again.

Tonight, is tonight. The feeling I hate the most comes visiting me once again. It is not really emo, but it is emo; it is not really sad, but it is sad; it is not really frustrated, but it is frustrated. LOL, wth?! Haha. Since I can "haha", means I'm still okay. I have fed up with this kind of feeling, from the day I made the promise with him. He, is him. He is a damn freaky guy. I don't wth are in his mind. Somehow, I seem to be fooling all around. However, I love to spend time with him. I have been waiting for a long time. Is he? As he said, he is. But, is that true? I don't know. He is surrounded with flowers, but I am just the fertilizer? Haha, according to those minerals inside my body, yeah, I'm somewhat like a fertilizer. ZZZ... I hate this kind of feeling. I hate!!! When will this end up?

Not I never thought to give up. I tried not to SMS, chatting and thinking about him. However, I still end up like this. HAHA. Stupid. He says, he will wait for me. Somewhen, I think to blame, he ain't spent enough time with me. But, I love to pretend, I don't really care, as he always busy with his studies. PRETENDING I am tough enough, enough. PRETENDING huh?

Oh well, it is all done. Done abreaction. Feeling better than just now. Wondering shall I post such a post like this? Later sure all come to me and ask, "who is that guy?", "what happened again?", bla bla bla. Alright, I would answer now. He is a damn freaky guy. Nothing happens actually. Only my own wishful thinking.




***I miss you, baby.
I love you. ***

When there was me and you

It's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all i want
is to be over there
Why did i let myself believe
miracles could happen
'cause now i have to pretend
that i don't really care



I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
that I confused my feelings
with the truth
When there was me and you



I swore I knew the melody
that I heard you singing
and when you smiled you made me feel
like I could sing along
but then you went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-bes
and once upon a song



now I know you're not a fairytale
and dreams were meant for sleeping
and wishes on a star just don't come true
'cause now even I can tell
that I confused my feelings
with the truth
because I liked the view
when there was me and you



I can't believe
that I could be so blind
it's like you were floating
while I was falling
and I didn't mind
because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too


When there was me and you

Heading to UCSI!!

Good news of the month: "I have applied to UCSI, the KL Campus instead. =D
One step closer to my dream, give thanks to God as He leads me and guides me all along the way. Give all the glory to Him. And, thanks my mom as she finally lets me to go KL, although she is worried so much. Especially my dad, he insisted to let me go studying in Form 6. However, he has agreed with my decision. These are all good done from God. Thankssssss..

People say, "Grace, must guai guai over there, study hard. Don't let your parents to worry." Ya, I will try my very hard to study. (STUDY BECAUSE I WANT TO EARN LOTS OF MONEY IN THE FUTURE!!) Haha. Somebody asked, "eh grace, will you slim down when you go KL? As there are a lot of LENGLUIs who are thin and charming." LMAO, will I? Haha, KL has lots of nice food leh. Haha, I will gua? GUA?

Lastly, my dear buddy, Pong is going to Aussie, Jia is staying in Riam Tech for her A-level. Sooner or later, all of us will be seperated all over the GLOBE, to study. God, let's my dearries, always in good condition, stay pretty, SLIM, haha. The most important, our souls must be kept by God, let Him to lead us, be our guardian. =) Give thanks to God.
FRIENDS FOREVER!!! MUACKSSSSSSSSS