2012-02-29

在这一天, 多出24小时的这一天..

忽然有些感触涌上心头..

茫茫人海当中, 仿佛听见你的声音在我身后传来..

记得你说你有一天会突然出现在我身后，给我一个惊喜..

我还说你别说笑了..

但是, 真的.. 当时我真的感觉你就在我的身后..

回头一看, 我失望了..

不记得什么时候开始, 去饮料店只想点百香果柠檬..

宝说, 为什么只喝这个?不可以有别的选择..

我笑笑说, 习惯了..

这股习惯已经跟着我好久好久..

真的就不知不觉的习惯了怎么选择终会回到原点..

也许, 这个习惯会有终止的一天..

我只希望, 好好的珍惜每一天, 每一刻可以习惯有它的存在..

习惯想念, 习惯等待, 习惯珍惜, 习惯渐进式... 习惯一切的一切...

Trials

How many times I have told myself stop looking at my cell phone?
How many times I have stopped myself glancing your status on facebook?
How many times I was actually hoping the ring were from you?

I have been trying so hard to wait until Saturday.
You know what this means to me.

IMY~

只想知道你境况
知道你是快乐的
我放心了 :)

所以我说，人不可以言而无信。
又学到了.. 知道什么是“怕”了..

:(

Life as a Student (I)

Trying very hard to bury myself in books and breathe with io's songs. :)

Hope this can last slightly longer.. :P else, i will die in March.
I am wondering, why lecturers love to put all the things together?
Enable to train students into well-manage-stress-and-time?
Midterm test, quiz, and assignment due date all "arrange" in 1-2 weeks.
Gosh!

This is just the second week, but I start to feel the stress.
After cny, it will be February already.
March is just 4 weeks later. :X
Kinda scary.
Time flies and slips away when we don't even aware of it.
Really scary, terrifying. :P hahahaha


anyway, keep fighting. just the second week, more weeks to come.
Jiayou bah. :)

In the beginning of 2012

People are posting and wishing it would be a great year. Me either.

I hope that I have a great start in this year with my study.

However, things happened without any signs. unexpected happened when we think that we are blissful.

We blamed, we complaint, we shouted, we cried.. but we forgot to pray.
I always think that, yea, it is just a small matter, i can handle it myself without God.
But what's next? I relied too much on my own, and when things come, I fell, I cried, and I shouted to God for reasons.

there is only a reason, I am too ego to live my own way, and God was not in my life.
I abandoned His words. and refused to listen the sound deeply in my heart.

look back, there are so many chances that i could have grabbed and moved back to the right track.
But i refused to do so. and keep the old nasty bad me.
And this, made today's me.
What's worse can be happening?

But then, I have promised myself, not to blame, not to complain. everything i met has a good will behind.
I have no fear, to move on. As there is always a hand guiding me in front.
I always believe that, man's extremity is God's opportunity.
Lean on God, make my choice, and move on.
What's next? MOVING ON with the guiding hand.

A great grace and promise from God, as He said, ‎"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10)

This verse strengthens me. And not looking backwards, but forwards. Fear not, for He is with me; for He is my God. He will strengthen me, yes, He will help me, He will uphold me with His righteous right hand.
And this will never ever fail. :))

And late posting my TO-DO-LIST in 2012 year.

1. not to blame, not to complain, and wait for His good wills.
2. be a happy fellow who dips in inner peace always.
3. study well, achieve a better grades as my ability can make it
4. serve more, no complains, no delay.
5. give more time to God: study His words.
6. WWJD, think of what Jesus will do before doing one thing.

*I guess, items will be added as days come.*

Great night, great immersion.
Great verse, great promise.
Great end, great start.

:))

Christmas Day 2011

People might ask, what's so special this year.
I will answer you, yes, it is definitely not special this year, it is fabulous, awesome, wonderful, graceful every year instead.

Awww, what am I trying to express? LOL

Anyway, just Jack came during this Christmas, celebration with all Mi-KL-ians who has come back in Miri.

Visiting, talking, laughing, bullshit-ing, and a really sincere conversation with Lemuel and Jack.

Start to know what's on guys' mind.
Not they don't know, they just don't dare to give any concern further more.
Yes, I got it. :)

Met KKL in the christmas concert. Well, seems that he has forgotten about me.
and yes, I am trying to get back so far, but suddenly feel what a shock that he is so much alike as J. Who I don't really mind or should say I don't even want to think back of any of the memories he had given. So much of hurts, heart broken and fear.

Met love this christmas, he has really gone mature a lot.
Same old charming he is, uncontrollable attracted by him.

This might be why lil girls always get cheated by old men. :X
no offend. *wink*

Life is going to go back to normal.
Studying life.

Hope that what's on my mind will really work in real life.
I am not kidding on it, I am serious.
Just wish that I can hang over, and strive my best again, again with God.

Thanks KKL, Love, and Stevie. :)
Thanks for this Christmas.

Miss y'all in Miri.
Just can't wait for the next meet-ups. :)

4 days more to 2012.
All the best.

那些年, 那个人, 那些事

喜欢看着脸书左侧发现你上线了

喜欢你总是毫不在乎的语气

喜欢你温柔体贴问我什么风把我吹来

喜欢你总是不能小声的哼唱

喜欢我们一起玩上线游戏

喜欢你不拘小节不顾形象

喜欢你的背影永远走在我前面

喜欢你爱说教

喜欢你每一个优点缺点

也喜欢这样的相处模式

曾经是那么的喜欢

换来今天的就只是礼貌的问候

换来今天就只是你脸书上的新帐号

换来的只是你和她的合照

脑里还隐约存留着那年我和你的...

第一张合照

第一次的夜市

第一次的棉花糖

第一次那么静距离的看着你

第一次把你介绍给朋友

第一次被朋友称赞说我眼光终于也有好的一次

第一次钱包里有男生的自拍照

第一次为了约会搭巴士

第一次为了和你一起念书跑到图书馆

第一次被牧者传道知道我们交往的消息

第一次为了一封简讯哭了

第一次为了你送的巧克力开心了几天都不舍得吃完

第一次在戏院里被牵着看完整部戏

第一次为了你的家人担心了整晚

第一次为了忍耐你姐的我的不满低声下气的道歉解释

第一次为了你我哭到不成人形

第一次认真的幻想计划我们的未来

第一次为了你不再主动找我哭了

第一次为了赌气关机3天

第一次冷战就结束了我们1年的关系

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真的只能说, 你是我生命里带给我最多欢笑, 最多泪水, 也最刻骨铭心

直到现在我还忘不了... 那时的点点滴滴

快乐

有时候幸福就是那么简单

却又那么困难

但是因为你

我了解到什么是单纯的快乐

就只是静静的遥远望着你

希望在你脸上看见笑容

希望你能天天开心

体会惜福，感恩着... 每件事情的发生

体会到各种不同的人事物带来的喜悦

感谢曾经你们到过我的生命之中...

感恩有你在最痛苦的时候, 用歌声的陪伴 :))

C: Xie xie ni men~~

夢

昨晚的夢境是多麼的真實

可以就讓它在真實生活發生嗎?

如果真的發生了, 我會不會真的很開心?

我只能说, 我们在错的时间遇见对的人~
你明白吗?

有时候看见人家已成双成对

心里感到十分无奈

“陈吟诗，你逞什么强呢？”

:((

狮子座

I hate myself as a Leo.

我恨我是狮子座

Merely for the shameful pride, I told myself I shall not talk to you.

只为了那该死的尊严，我告诉自己我不应该跟你说话

But I always know, you're catching my eye sight every single second.

但我知道，我的视线总离不开你

It's suffering and suffocating when I got to see you.

你总让我感到窒息

Implying that I really miss you.

I really do.

Do you?

Quote of the day:

最酸的感觉不是吃醋, 而是没权吃醋..

It is soooo real.

I'm back ONCE AGAIN

Hmmm, after 2 months, finally I am back to blog.

No much things to be updated.

Just, I feel very lost.

What do I want actually? I don't know, frankly.

Drawing is now becoming another part of my life.

And what else? Oh yea, working.

Like a robot, repeating my daily life.

Over and start again.

Just like resonance, repeating its rhythm.

Hmmm..

There is someone whom I really appreciate to have in my life.

However, I doubt if s/he knows it.

I have no idea about what exactly s/he thinks of me.

But I hope, there is a positive feedback? :))

Anyway, IMY. :))

Time flies

Time flies.

One month of exam is going to end in no time, one more paper to go before getting a real free from exam. :D

Normally, an end means another start.

But, my end is an unknown for now. Who knows i might retake my A2 again? :X

HAHAHA.. STRIVE to MY BEST in this coming, and the LAST paper of mine! :D :D

Jia, read ur blog. Handling it well with God, alright? everything's gonna be alright. As i said, love sucks. always hurt if we do not meet the right and only one. (: Cheers.. miss you badly. ^^ <3 not sure whether u gonna read it. :P love you.

O.S-es/

When I am viewing pretty girls' photos,

O.S: Why people always can dress up and make up prettily? :( what about me?

When I am listening to girls who have their boy friend love so much,

O.S: Why they are so lucky to have one? :( What about me?

When I am watching to Glee,

O.S: Why they have so much chance to sing out loud with lovely, powerful voice? :( What about me?

When I am shopping online,

O.S: When can I wear like them?

THESE ARE ALL BECAUSE OF MYSELF!

Why I caused myself gained so much of weight until my jeans almost explode with my fat thighs.

Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I am now enjoying Kellogs, which I am told to eat to loss weight, it is damn so nice to eat with milk and yogurt&fruits.

Sigh, imagine one day I can go back to my previous weight, and my previous "so-called-glory"? LOL..

give me 2 more weeks, and i will start with my PLAN A- DIET!

*just ignore this, because exams are driving me crazy, and i m writting this for fun.. but seriously for diet plan :P *

Never stop going!

Dreams are always dreams.

Dreams are always yet to come true.

I work on it, and hope for rewards.

If it doesn't, please let me have a second chance.

I gave myself a deadline, next January.

If I still cannot make myself in, I quit.

Besides doing that, I have no directions.

Perhaps, I shall treat it as a challenge than a blocked way?

Think positively, then negatively.

I hope I will never stop pursuing what I really want.

I don't care what you think of me, I am always ME.

At the end, I still love RINGS.

So, no reason for me to quit.

NO reason to quit.

THERE IS NO REASON TO QUIT!

This is just to encourage myself, and as a reminder.

NEVER STOP PURSUING WHAT YOU REALLY WANT TO BE. *wink*

Wake up

It is so blessed to wake up every morning with your Grace.

Without You, I can't make it through.

I know You're always guiding me, leading me and showing me the right path.

Sometimes, I have chosen a wrong one.

But how blessed I am, You will always guide me to the correct way again.

Because You're my Lord, the one who knows me well from now to forever.

We are weak but God is strong.

We are fool but God is wise.

We are stubborn but God knows what is the best for us.

We are lost but God knows our life.

I have no idea whether I have chosen a wrong one.

However, I know He is leading.

Just give it a try.

Who knows? I have made a right decision? (:

Friends, break it through.

You know what you are doing.

It is so blessed for all of us to proceed so far over here.

Favorite Phrase: "Every question you have asked, God always knows the answer."

Pray for you guys. (:

Motivation

It has been a while I did not spend so much time on this thing.

And, it seems hate me. :X hahaha

When I always feel suffocating, I think of you.

You're always the one who can make me laugh when I am down.

You're always the one who accompanies me when I am bored.

Ya, YOU YOU YOU. <3

I really DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL.

Please, save me out of here.

21 days left to the real war. GOSH! :(((((((