2012-02-29

在这一天, 多出24小时的这一天..

忽然有些感触涌上心头..

茫茫人海当中, 仿佛听见你的声音在我身后传来..

记得你说你有一天会突然出现在我身后，给我一个惊喜..

我还说你别说笑了..

但是, 真的.. 当时我真的感觉你就在我的身后..

回头一看, 我失望了..

不记得什么时候开始, 去饮料店只想点百香果柠檬..

宝说, 为什么只喝这个?不可以有别的选择..

我笑笑说, 习惯了..

这股习惯已经跟着我好久好久..

真的就不知不觉的习惯了怎么选择终会回到原点..

也许, 这个习惯会有终止的一天..

我只希望, 好好的珍惜每一天, 每一刻可以习惯有它的存在..

习惯想念, 习惯等待, 习惯珍惜, 习惯渐进式... 习惯一切的一切...

Trials

How many times I have told myself stop looking at my cell phone?
How many times I have stopped myself glancing your status on facebook?
How many times I was actually hoping the ring were from you?

I have been trying so hard to wait until Saturday.
You know what this means to me.

IMY~

In the beginning of 2012

People are posting and wishing it would be a great year. Me either.

I hope that I have a great start in this year with my study.

However, things happened without any signs. unexpected happened when we think that we are blissful.

We blamed, we complaint, we shouted, we cried.. but we forgot to pray.
I always think that, yea, it is just a small matter, i can handle it myself without God.
But what's next? I relied too much on my own, and when things come, I fell, I cried, and I shouted to God for reasons.

there is only a reason, I am too ego to live my own way, and God was not in my life.
I abandoned His words. and refused to listen the sound deeply in my heart.

look back, there are so many chances that i could have grabbed and moved back to the right track.
But i refused to do so. and keep the old nasty bad me.
And this, made today's me.
What's worse can be happening?

But then, I have promised myself, not to blame, not to complain. everything i met has a good will behind.
I have no fear, to move on. As there is always a hand guiding me in front.
I always believe that, man's extremity is God's opportunity.
Lean on God, make my choice, and move on.
What's next? MOVING ON with the guiding hand.

A great grace and promise from God, as He said, ‎"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10)

This verse strengthens me. And not looking backwards, but forwards. Fear not, for He is with me; for He is my God. He will strengthen me, yes, He will help me, He will uphold me with His righteous right hand.
And this will never ever fail. :))

And late posting my TO-DO-LIST in 2012 year.

1. not to blame, not to complain, and wait for His good wills.
2. be a happy fellow who dips in inner peace always.
3. study well, achieve a better grades as my ability can make it
4. serve more, no complains, no delay.
5. give more time to God: study His words.
6. WWJD, think of what Jesus will do before doing one thing.

*I guess, items will be added as days come.*

Great night, great immersion.
Great verse, great promise.
Great end, great start.

:))

快乐

有时候幸福就是那么简单

却又那么困难

但是因为你

我了解到什么是单纯的快乐

就只是静静的遥远望着你

希望在你脸上看见笑容

希望你能天天开心

体会惜福，感恩着... 每件事情的发生

体会到各种不同的人事物带来的喜悦

感谢曾经你们到过我的生命之中...

感恩有你在最痛苦的时候, 用歌声的陪伴 :))

C: Xie xie ni men~~

I'm back ONCE AGAIN

Hmmm, after 2 months, finally I am back to blog.

No much things to be updated.

Just, I feel very lost.

What do I want actually? I don't know, frankly.

Drawing is now becoming another part of my life.

And what else? Oh yea, working.

Like a robot, repeating my daily life.

Over and start again.

Just like resonance, repeating its rhythm.

Hmmm..

There is someone whom I really appreciate to have in my life.

However, I doubt if s/he knows it.

I have no idea about what exactly s/he thinks of me.

But I hope, there is a positive feedback? :))

Anyway, IMY. :))

Time flies

Time flies.

One month of exam is going to end in no time, one more paper to go before getting a real free from exam. :D

Normally, an end means another start.

But, my end is an unknown for now. Who knows i might retake my A2 again? :X

HAHAHA.. STRIVE to MY BEST in this coming, and the LAST paper of mine! :D :D

Jia, read ur blog. Handling it well with God, alright? everything's gonna be alright. As i said, love sucks. always hurt if we do not meet the right and only one. (: Cheers.. miss you badly. ^^ <3 not sure whether u gonna read it. :P love you.

O.S-es/

When I am viewing pretty girls' photos,

O.S: Why people always can dress up and make up prettily? :( what about me?

When I am listening to girls who have their boy friend love so much,

O.S: Why they are so lucky to have one? :( What about me?

When I am watching to Glee,

O.S: Why they have so much chance to sing out loud with lovely, powerful voice? :( What about me?

When I am shopping online,

O.S: When can I wear like them?

THESE ARE ALL BECAUSE OF MYSELF!

Why I caused myself gained so much of weight until my jeans almost explode with my fat thighs.

Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I am now enjoying Kellogs, which I am told to eat to loss weight, it is damn so nice to eat with milk and yogurt&fruits.

Sigh, imagine one day I can go back to my previous weight, and my previous "so-called-glory"? LOL..

give me 2 more weeks, and i will start with my PLAN A- DIET!

*just ignore this, because exams are driving me crazy, and i m writting this for fun.. but seriously for diet plan :P *

Never stop going!

Dreams are always dreams.

Dreams are always yet to come true.

I work on it, and hope for rewards.

If it doesn't, please let me have a second chance.

I gave myself a deadline, next January.

If I still cannot make myself in, I quit.

Besides doing that, I have no directions.

Perhaps, I shall treat it as a challenge than a blocked way?

Think positively, then negatively.

I hope I will never stop pursuing what I really want.

I don't care what you think of me, I am always ME.

At the end, I still love RINGS.

So, no reason for me to quit.

NO reason to quit.

THERE IS NO REASON TO QUIT!

This is just to encourage myself, and as a reminder.

NEVER STOP PURSUING WHAT YOU REALLY WANT TO BE. *wink*

Wake up

It is so blessed to wake up every morning with your Grace.

Without You, I can't make it through.

I know You're always guiding me, leading me and showing me the right path.

Sometimes, I have chosen a wrong one.

But how blessed I am, You will always guide me to the correct way again.

Because You're my Lord, the one who knows me well from now to forever.

We are weak but God is strong.

We are fool but God is wise.

We are stubborn but God knows what is the best for us.

We are lost but God knows our life.

I have no idea whether I have chosen a wrong one.

However, I know He is leading.

Just give it a try.

Who knows? I have made a right decision? (:

Friends, break it through.

You know what you are doing.

It is so blessed for all of us to proceed so far over here.

Favorite Phrase: "Every question you have asked, God always knows the answer."

Pray for you guys. (:

Motivation

It has been a while I did not spend so much time on this thing.

And, it seems hate me. :X hahaha

When I always feel suffocating, I think of you.

You're always the one who can make me laugh when I am down.

You're always the one who accompanies me when I am bored.

Ya, YOU YOU YOU. <3

I really DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL.

Please, save me out of here.

21 days left to the real war. GOSH! :(((((((

Dream

Everyone has a dream.

Please, stop questioning and stop me from that.

This is not a matter about can or cannot; it is about you WANT or DON'T WANT!

When you start questioning others, why don't you think about yourself?

What have you done for your future?

What do you expect to do in your future?

Do you able to give your family a secure and safe condition?

Or your love one should always worry about money, food, bills?

When you are stating so much of principles, why don't you think about yourself?

Is life really as tough as you think?

Indeed, if you don't even want to work for it.

God will make a way (:

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

无题

还记得，“无题”是我真的十分非常emo的时候会用的题目。

因为，它真的是无题。

没有任何重要的东西，内容。

只是想找一个空间好好发泄。

看起来每天都很开心的我，

我，真的开心吗？

我，真的快乐吗？

当初做的决定，想在人生中，找充实来忘记不开心的回忆。

现在，我的生活充实的不像话。

我真的不知道我到底要的是什么。

每天忙忙碌碌的念书，

还是，每天吃饱摇脚？

我已经看不清楚我前面的路。

我看不见我所要去的地方。

常常对自己说，

对自己的决定负责任。

因为，路是我选的。

有人苦口婆心的劝告，

我都抛在脑后。

现在，自食恶果，活该！

我很笨，我懒惰，我堕落

我很笨，我懒惰，我堕落

还有一个月就final

而我，什么都不会。

我真的不知道，怎么办！救我！

It is a weird feeling.

I keep waiting for someone.

And someone keep waiting for me? HAHAHAHA..

Yet so near, yet so far.

Was far, was near, and is going to be far again.

Hmmm, what's going on? ):

After long while, I am updating my Blog. ^^

AHA.. I have isolated my blog for months. And NOW, I am back to clean the dust!

Hmmm, this semester will be my busiest-ever semester! Events, exams, training, work, revisions are stacked up high on my desk, and I do not manage to touch it! Oh my GEEZ~! But anyway, YOU will always be the guidance. I believe in you! ^^

Events coming up! The very first battle will be my EE's training. Haha, I must start to grease my holy sword, and fight for HIM.

This will be a very tough one, as we need to fight against our biggest but weakest enemy!

Next, it will be MUET! This is also why I am writing this in English. Arghh, I can't imagine, how terrible my grammar and vocabulary! ALAMAK! Never mind, start from now, AT LEAST I DID SOMETHING FOR IT?! Haha!

In mid-April, it will be my last chance to sit for TRIAL EXAM in A levels! Hahaha, actually I know, I never study well for my trial. AHA! Failure is the mother of Success? Lalala!

In May and June, I am going to sit the last semester subjects, w

hich are always known as KILLER PAPERS! HAHAHA, for me the previous units are also KILLERS! :( (And my Jan exam result is going to release soon! HELP! SOS!!!!)

Lastly, it will be my interview to enter my degree course. Hopefully, my result enable me to proceed! >.<>

Slimmest angle ever! ^^

Okay, here come some cute photos!

Competition between 3 kids! Okay, I lose.

WAAAA.. Stella you very pia hoh? Want champion ah? GIVE U LA!

Okay, gonna off soon! Buaiiii~~

同人不同命

放下吧，目光放远点

相信总有一天会有回报。

朋友

回头一看，自己依然是孤独一人走在这条路上。

何必骗自己自己有多受欢迎

何必骗自己自己有朋友相伴

对你好的，暗地里捅你数刀

对你好的，把你的私生活放在放大镜下曝晒

对你好的，在你兴高采烈时泼你冷水

对你好的，笑里藏刀

你不知道，你不知道

你只是一味的想着过往的背叛

你只是一味的觉得，你是对的

我不知道，我真的不知道

谁是凶手，谁是挑拨离间者。

也许，挑拨我跟你的是同一个人

也许，挑拨你和我的也是同一个人

她不希望你离开她

所以她行动可恶，可怕，可笑

这一辈子，无法再见面的话

我还想对你说什么？

只想说，你对我的好，我会记住

请小心提防，近在咫尺的人

她 会 害 你。

我想你 (:

体会

1) 心有一句感慨，我真的老了。

脑海里的东西，多半是很久以前该记得的事。

最近发生的，我都忘了。

有人告诉我，不美好的事物，我们的大脑都会选择不去记起。

是真的吗？

2) 如果我做错了一件事，就要死一次，我已经不在了。

但是，神爱我。

祂让我在这世上为祂做美好的事，为祂打美好的战。

如果是这样，我还应该犹豫吗？

3) 不经一事，不长一智。

每个人都渴望的，未必是好的。

只有渴慕主，才是对我们有益的。

与其花时间，倒不如做些有意义的事。

与其花时间，倒不如做一些有益的事。

4) 爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。

不管有多么的讨厌，都应该去容忍。

上帝对我多番忍让，不管我做了多么错的事。

我 要 忍 耐 ！ ！ ！

5) 上帝心里有蓝图，祂的时间不错误。

如果你求的，不是他所喜悦的，

一切只是惘然。

不管现在的你有多么的乐在其中，

时间到了，一切只是转眼云烟。

不要一味的求，乃是要明白上帝的旨意。

Promise

一直都还没有做的祷告，

今天我终于提起勇气了。

在那堂讲之后，一直都有感动。

但是，我怕我做不到。

我害怕，如果做不到，

再怎么祷告，一切只是惘然。

我看见他的生命，

在人前是多么的有见证。

不想触碰的感情事，

没有爱情的生命，

也多么的有生命力。

我看见，5年的承诺，

其实并不遥远。

除了爱情，

世上还有更多的事情可以做。

别人我不知道，至少我自己。

已经开始遗忘的一个祷告，

从新在我心中燃起火焰。

谢谢你。

让我知道。

因为你，我知道可以等待。

:)

焦点

他说，做人要锁定一个焦点，做人才不会没有方向。

他说，什么都可以忘记，就是只要记得这一切都是为主而做的。

撇开一切，应该问问自己，我。。。

是不是太好胜了？

一直担心自己会输，输给不想输的人。。。

我到底怎么了？