Christmas Day 2011

People might ask, what's so special this year.
I will answer you, yes, it is definitely not special this year, it is fabulous, awesome, wonderful, graceful every year instead.

Awww, what am I trying to express? LOL

Anyway, just Jack came during this Christmas, celebration with all Mi-KL-ians who has come back in Miri.

Visiting, talking, laughing, bullshit-ing, and a really sincere conversation with Lemuel and Jack.

Start to know what's on guys' mind.
Not they don't know, they just don't dare to give any concern further more.
Yes, I got it. :)

Met KKL in the christmas concert. Well, seems that he has forgotten about me.
and yes, I am trying to get back so far, but suddenly feel what a shock that he is so much alike as J. Who I don't really mind or should say I don't even want to think back of any of the memories he had given. So much of hurts, heart broken and fear.

Met love this christmas, he has really gone mature a lot.
Same old charming he is, uncontrollable attracted by him.

This might be why lil girls always get cheated by old men. :X
no offend. *wink*

Life is going to go back to normal.
Studying life.

Hope that what's on my mind will really work in real life.
I am not kidding on it, I am serious.
Just wish that I can hang over, and strive my best again, again with God.

Thanks KKL, Love, and Stevie. :)
Thanks for this Christmas.

Miss y'all in Miri.
Just can't wait for the next meet-ups. :)

4 days more to 2012.
All the best.

Dream

Again, I dreamt about you.
In my dream, you finally proposed in blog.
How hurt it were.

I hope, it is not going to happen in real life.
I hope, we are friends as always.

Please?

那些年, 那个人, 那些事

喜欢看着脸书左侧发现你上线了

喜欢你总是毫不在乎的语气

喜欢你温柔体贴问我什么风把我吹来

喜欢你总是不能小声的哼唱

喜欢我们一起玩上线游戏

喜欢你不拘小节不顾形象

喜欢你的背影永远走在我前面

喜欢你爱说教

喜欢你每一个优点缺点

也喜欢这样的相处模式

曾经是那么的喜欢

换来今天的就只是礼貌的问候

换来今天就只是你脸书上的新帐号

换来的只是你和她的合照

脑里还隐约存留着那年我和你的...

第一张合照

第一次的夜市

第一次的棉花糖

第一次那么静距离的看着你

第一次把你介绍给朋友

第一次被朋友称赞说我眼光终于也有好的一次

第一次钱包里有男生的自拍照

第一次为了约会搭巴士

第一次为了和你一起念书跑到图书馆

第一次被牧者传道知道我们交往的消息

第一次为了一封简讯哭了

第一次为了你送的巧克力开心了几天都不舍得吃完

第一次在戏院里被牵着看完整部戏

第一次为了你的家人担心了整晚

第一次为了忍耐你姐的我的不满低声下气的道歉解释

第一次为了你我哭到不成人形

第一次认真的幻想计划我们的未来

第一次为了你不再主动找我哭了

第一次为了赌气关机3天

第一次冷战就结束了我们1年的关系

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真的只能说, 你是我生命里带给我最多欢笑, 最多泪水, 也最刻骨铭心

直到现在我还忘不了... 那时的点点滴滴

早知道 你只是飞鸟

拥抱后 只剩下 羽毛

当初你又何必浪费

那么多咖啡和玫瑰来打扰

那些日子 让我无法忘记的日子

我依然无法把你从梦里赶走

是否证明--我还想你??

快乐

有时候幸福就是那么简单

却又那么困难

但是因为你

我了解到什么是单纯的快乐

就只是静静的遥远望着你

希望在你脸上看见笑容

希望你能天天开心

体会惜福，感恩着... 每件事情的发生

体会到各种不同的人事物带来的喜悦

感谢曾经你们到过我的生命之中...

感恩有你在最痛苦的时候, 用歌声的陪伴 :))

C: Xie xie ni men~~

No title (2)

What if dreams are meant to come true?

What if hearts are meant to be broken?

What if rules are meant to be broken?

What if I am no longer myself?

What if I am not who I suppose to be?

What if I am not as happy as you always see?

What if I am not as tough as I have done pretending?

What if I am crying when I am laughing out loud?

What if I am crazy as I can't make a right decision?

What if everything is just an "if" in my life?

Dreams are not meant to come true.

Hearts are not meant to be broken

Rules are set to follow.

You are always who you suppose to be.

When you are not happy, I am always hang on, and find a way to make u happy once again.

When you are crying, please remember there is a tissue box beside your table.

Don't go crazy, as you have been crazy enough all the time.

Everything is not fixed, unless you work on it.

Cheer, GT cheers.

Everything is going to be alright.

Everything is going to be just fine.

:'( TEACH ME HOW. PLEASE.

夢

昨晚的夢境是多麼的真實

可以就讓它在真實生活發生嗎?

如果真的發生了, 我會不會真的很開心?

喜新厌旧

你总爱说我喜新厌旧

我知道,这是铁一般的事实..

有时候，总羡慕着“爱情长跑”的情侣们

他们的包容，忍耐，也总为着对方着想的那种心态

而我，总是做不到..

我不要求完美

我不要求你完全奉献

我只想你给我一些些的空间

不要什么事情都必需在你掌控之中..

而我就像是你的傀儡, 要你一手一脚的安排我的生活..

也许你真的比我成熟, 有时候也比我想得远..

但是，我想经历的也是你曾经跌倒过，再爬起来的定点。。

我不要求跌得重.. 至少你让我有选择的余地

一步一步的慢慢走.. 至少，错了也是我的决定..

而你也不要总是说, 我是为了你好；我是过来人之类的讲法..

我真的感激你.. 但是，我真的想要自己试试看..

大不了，就从新开始..

你到底明白我在说什么，想什么吗?

我只觉得, 我们一开始就不在同一个起跑点上..

你跑的快，代表着我也必须跟上你繁忙的脚步..

只为了跟你并肩同行?

为什么只有我一直在追, 你不为了我停留？

这到底是什么？

我真的不知道..

那些年～～

又回到最初的起點 記憶中妳青澀的臉 我們終於來到了這一天 桌墊下的老照片 無數回憶連結 今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點 呆呆地站在鏡子前 笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結 將頭髮梳成大人模樣 穿上一身帥氣西裝 等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光 回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵 黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎 誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨 那些年錯過的愛情 好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣 曾經想征服全世界 到最後回首才發現 這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨 那些年錯過的愛情

 好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記 那天晚上滿天星星 平行時空下的約定 再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳 緊緊抱著妳

看著你們互post的留言，聽著這首歌.. 眼淚又情不自禁地往下滑落..

距離不是問題，在乎兩個人願不願意經營..

我相信這句話.. 但是你呢?

"世上最遠的距離不是生離死別, 而是我愛你,你卻不知道.."

我想你，是真的..

那你說的呢?

你問我為什麼不願意相信你..

請問，我還有這個勇氣嗎?

我, 原以為我已經完全放下了..

但是原來,我沒有..

這個答案, 你滿意嗎?

請讓我再一次變成冰塊..

在烈日當頭我可以悄悄融化

在寒冷的夜裡我可以隱藏自己

我的傷心失望也悄悄的離我遠去

我只能说, 我们在错的时间遇见对的人~
你明白吗?

有时候看见人家已成双成对

心里感到十分无奈

“陈吟诗，你逞什么强呢？”

:((

狮子座

I hate myself as a Leo.

我恨我是狮子座

Merely for the shameful pride, I told myself I shall not talk to you.

只为了那该死的尊严，我告诉自己我不应该跟你说话

But I always know, you're catching my eye sight every single second.

但我知道，我的视线总离不开你

It's suffering and suffocating when I got to see you.

你总让我感到窒息

Implying that I really miss you.

I really do.

Do you?

Quote of the day:

最酸的感觉不是吃醋, 而是没权吃醋..

It is soooo real.

I'm back ONCE AGAIN

Hmmm, after 2 months, finally I am back to blog.

No much things to be updated.

Just, I feel very lost.

What do I want actually? I don't know, frankly.

Drawing is now becoming another part of my life.

And what else? Oh yea, working.

Like a robot, repeating my daily life.

Over and start again.

Just like resonance, repeating its rhythm.

Hmmm..

There is someone whom I really appreciate to have in my life.

However, I doubt if s/he knows it.

I have no idea about what exactly s/he thinks of me.

But I hope, there is a positive feedback? :))

Anyway, IMY. :))

Time flies

Time flies.

One month of exam is going to end in no time, one more paper to go before getting a real free from exam. :D

Normally, an end means another start.

But, my end is an unknown for now. Who knows i might retake my A2 again? :X

HAHAHA.. STRIVE to MY BEST in this coming, and the LAST paper of mine! :D :D

Jia, read ur blog. Handling it well with God, alright? everything's gonna be alright. As i said, love sucks. always hurt if we do not meet the right and only one. (: Cheers.. miss you badly. ^^ <3 not sure whether u gonna read it. :P love you.

悄悄的我走了，不带走一片云彩...

Love, you're the suckest thing ever.

O.S-es/

When I am viewing pretty girls' photos,

O.S: Why people always can dress up and make up prettily? :( what about me?

When I am listening to girls who have their boy friend love so much,

O.S: Why they are so lucky to have one? :( What about me?

When I am watching to Glee,

O.S: Why they have so much chance to sing out loud with lovely, powerful voice? :( What about me?

When I am shopping online,

O.S: When can I wear like them?

THESE ARE ALL BECAUSE OF MYSELF!

Why I caused myself gained so much of weight until my jeans almost explode with my fat thighs.

Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I am now enjoying Kellogs, which I am told to eat to loss weight, it is damn so nice to eat with milk and yogurt&fruits.

Sigh, imagine one day I can go back to my previous weight, and my previous "so-called-glory"? LOL..

give me 2 more weeks, and i will start with my PLAN A- DIET!

*just ignore this, because exams are driving me crazy, and i m writting this for fun.. but seriously for diet plan :P *

Never stop going!

Dreams are always dreams.

Dreams are always yet to come true.

I work on it, and hope for rewards.

If it doesn't, please let me have a second chance.

I gave myself a deadline, next January.

If I still cannot make myself in, I quit.

Besides doing that, I have no directions.

Perhaps, I shall treat it as a challenge than a blocked way?

Think positively, then negatively.

I hope I will never stop pursuing what I really want.

I don't care what you think of me, I am always ME.

At the end, I still love RINGS.

So, no reason for me to quit.

NO reason to quit.

THERE IS NO REASON TO QUIT!

This is just to encourage myself, and as a reminder.

NEVER STOP PURSUING WHAT YOU REALLY WANT TO BE. *wink*

No title (1)

Telling myself,

"Silly, don't you just think too much?"

Hmmm, I wish that you were right beside me now BAO BAO!!! :(

I miss you so much..

hope that you are right besides me listen to my murmuring, and hug me to sleep.

I want to cry out loud.

Loneliness..

Stay far away from me please?

Wake up

It is so blessed to wake up every morning with your Grace.

Without You, I can't make it through.

I know You're always guiding me, leading me and showing me the right path.

Sometimes, I have chosen a wrong one.

But how blessed I am, You will always guide me to the correct way again.

Because You're my Lord, the one who knows me well from now to forever.

We are weak but God is strong.

We are fool but God is wise.

We are stubborn but God knows what is the best for us.

We are lost but God knows our life.

I have no idea whether I have chosen a wrong one.

However, I know He is leading.

Just give it a try.

Who knows? I have made a right decision? (:

Friends, break it through.

You know what you are doing.

It is so blessed for all of us to proceed so far over here.

Favorite Phrase: "Every question you have asked, God always knows the answer."

Pray for you guys. (:

Motivation

It has been a while I did not spend so much time on this thing.

And, it seems hate me. :X hahaha

When I always feel suffocating, I think of you.

You're always the one who can make me laugh when I am down.

You're always the one who accompanies me when I am bored.

Ya, YOU YOU YOU. <3

I really DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL.

Please, save me out of here.

21 days left to the real war. GOSH! :(((((((

Dream

Everyone has a dream.

Please, stop questioning and stop me from that.

This is not a matter about can or cannot; it is about you WANT or DON'T WANT!

When you start questioning others, why don't you think about yourself?

What have you done for your future?

What do you expect to do in your future?

Do you able to give your family a secure and safe condition?

Or your love one should always worry about money, food, bills?

When you are stating so much of principles, why don't you think about yourself?

Is life really as tough as you think?

Indeed, if you don't even want to work for it.

Found out something in my Bloggie

【所以我说，人始终是人，都会欺骗人。

所以我说，不要相信人。

因为人始终会骗你，而你自己永远都不会骗你自己。

我讨厌那些每次将自己想得有多完美就多完美的人。

总爱将自己的那一套思想套在别人的头上，

假装自己有多好。】

This is what I have written months ago. But yet, I still think that it is really applicable ALL THE TIME.

YES, I MEAN YOU!

YOU YOU YOU!

You're damn so mean, SO AM I?

WTH, I should have aware of this, but not enduring it.

So yea, it happens again and again.

Alright, this is what we called LIFE.

ALRIGHT! FINE!

PISSED OFF!

God will make a way (:

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

Part of my life (I)

In this silent night, I have learnt something.

It is uneasy to handle one thing- Friendship.

When you have trusted so much on ones, he/she might make stories on you.

Only one-week-friend though.

Perhaps, I am just not so good.

Perhaps, he is just a jerk.

Or, I am just way too stupid and the one who can be fooled around?

HA HA HA..

And I have made another decision too.

And, ya.. I really miss you guys, E ren.

Xinqian :'( I really feel very helpless now. Why ah.. Hahahahahaha..

Dear God,

I know I have made a stupid mistake again. And you knew I would do it. And I know it will not bring me a good ending. I insisted. So, this is what I got. (: So yea, Please let me rest in your arms for a night. And tomorrow I will be a new me. Because bible tells me so: (Exodus 15:26)

He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the LORD your God and do what is right in his eyes, if you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the LORD, who heals you."

Dear God, you love such a sinful me. I should be thankful. (: God, please give me one more chance.

Thanks for listening to my lil prayer. I give my pray in the name of Jesus, Amen.

Someone is complaining about my blog theme. :(

but, i m not going to change it anyway. :)

lalala~

so yea, nothing much to update.

just bored.. :P

无题

还记得，“无题”是我真的十分非常emo的时候会用的题目。

因为，它真的是无题。

没有任何重要的东西，内容。

只是想找一个空间好好发泄。

看起来每天都很开心的我，

我，真的开心吗？

我，真的快乐吗？

当初做的决定，想在人生中，找充实来忘记不开心的回忆。

现在，我的生活充实的不像话。

我真的不知道我到底要的是什么。

每天忙忙碌碌的念书，

还是，每天吃饱摇脚？

我已经看不清楚我前面的路。

我看不见我所要去的地方。

常常对自己说，

对自己的决定负责任。

因为，路是我选的。

有人苦口婆心的劝告，

我都抛在脑后。

现在，自食恶果，活该！

我很笨，我懒惰，我堕落

我很笨，我懒惰，我堕落

还有一个月就final

而我，什么都不会。

我真的不知道，怎么办！救我！

It is a weird feeling.

I keep waiting for someone.

And someone keep waiting for me? HAHAHAHA..

Yet so near, yet so far.

Was far, was near, and is going to be far again.

Hmmm, what's going on? ):

We Christians?

Should have do something for people who really needs help.

Or should merely think of how to spread gospel all around the global?

People say, we Christians always pray for our own hardship?

What should we do for this world?

After long while, I am updating my Blog. ^^

AHA.. I have isolated my blog for months. And NOW, I am back to clean the dust!

Hmmm, this semester will be my busiest-ever semester! Events, exams, training, work, revisions are stacked up high on my desk, and I do not manage to touch it! Oh my GEEZ~! But anyway, YOU will always be the guidance. I believe in you! ^^

Events coming up! The very first battle will be my EE's training. Haha, I must start to grease my holy sword, and fight for HIM.

This will be a very tough one, as we need to fight against our biggest but weakest enemy!

Next, it will be MUET! This is also why I am writing this in English. Arghh, I can't imagine, how terrible my grammar and vocabulary! ALAMAK! Never mind, start from now, AT LEAST I DID SOMETHING FOR IT?! Haha!

In mid-April, it will be my last chance to sit for TRIAL EXAM in A levels! Hahaha, actually I know, I never study well for my trial. AHA! Failure is the mother of Success? Lalala!

In May and June, I am going to sit the last semester subjects, w

hich are always known as KILLER PAPERS! HAHAHA, for me the previous units are also KILLERS! :( (And my Jan exam result is going to release soon! HELP! SOS!!!!)

Lastly, it will be my interview to enter my degree course. Hopefully, my result enable me to proceed! >.<>

Slimmest angle ever! ^^

Okay, here come some cute photos!

Competition between 3 kids! Okay, I lose.

WAAAA.. Stella you very pia hoh? Want champion ah? GIVE U LA!

Okay, gonna off soon! Buaiiii~~