In the beginning of 2012

People are posting and wishing it would be a great year. Me either.

I hope that I have a great start in this year with my study.

However, things happened without any signs. unexpected happened when we think that we are blissful.

We blamed, we complaint, we shouted, we cried.. but we forgot to pray.
I always think that, yea, it is just a small matter, i can handle it myself without God.
But what's next? I relied too much on my own, and when things come, I fell, I cried, and I shouted to God for reasons.

there is only a reason, I am too ego to live my own way, and God was not in my life.
I abandoned His words. and refused to listen the sound deeply in my heart.

look back, there are so many chances that i could have grabbed and moved back to the right track.
But i refused to do so. and keep the old nasty bad me.
And this, made today's me.
What's worse can be happening?

But then, I have promised myself, not to blame, not to complain. everything i met has a good will behind.
I have no fear, to move on. As there is always a hand guiding me in front.
I always believe that, man's extremity is God's opportunity.
Lean on God, make my choice, and move on.
What's next? MOVING ON with the guiding hand.

A great grace and promise from God, as He said, ‎"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10)

This verse strengthens me. And not looking backwards, but forwards. Fear not, for He is with me; for He is my God. He will strengthen me, yes, He will help me, He will uphold me with His righteous right hand.
And this will never ever fail. :))

And late posting my TO-DO-LIST in 2012 year.

1. not to blame, not to complain, and wait for His good wills.
2. be a happy fellow who dips in inner peace always.
3. study well, achieve a better grades as my ability can make it
4. serve more, no complains, no delay.
5. give more time to God: study His words.
6. WWJD, think of what Jesus will do before doing one thing.

*I guess, items will be added as days come.*

Great night, great immersion.
Great verse, great promise.
Great end, great start.

:))

Part of my life (I)

In this silent night, I have learnt something.

It is uneasy to handle one thing- Friendship.

When you have trusted so much on ones, he/she might make stories on you.

Only one-week-friend though.

Perhaps, I am just not so good.

Perhaps, he is just a jerk.

Or, I am just way too stupid and the one who can be fooled around?

HA HA HA..

And I have made another decision too.

And, ya.. I really miss you guys, E ren.

Xinqian :'( I really feel very helpless now. Why ah.. Hahahahahaha..

Dear God,

I know I have made a stupid mistake again. And you knew I would do it. And I know it will not bring me a good ending. I insisted. So, this is what I got. (: So yea, Please let me rest in your arms for a night. And tomorrow I will be a new me. Because bible tells me so: (Exodus 15:26)

He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the LORD your God and do what is right in his eyes, if you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the LORD, who heals you."

Dear God, you love such a sinful me. I should be thankful. (: God, please give me one more chance.

Thanks for listening to my lil prayer. I give my pray in the name of Jesus, Amen.

Promise

一直都还没有做的祷告，

今天我终于提起勇气了。

在那堂讲之后，一直都有感动。

但是，我怕我做不到。

我害怕，如果做不到，

再怎么祷告，一切只是惘然。

我看见他的生命，

在人前是多么的有见证。

不想触碰的感情事，

没有爱情的生命，

也多么的有生命力。

我看见，5年的承诺，

其实并不遥远。

除了爱情，

世上还有更多的事情可以做。

别人我不知道，至少我自己。

已经开始遗忘的一个祷告，

从新在我心中燃起火焰。

谢谢你。

让我知道。

因为你，我知道可以等待。

:)

Sorry

I am sorry.
I am saying to those reading this.
I am not acting emotional now.
(: anyway, thank you for those who being with me for so long time.
I love you all.
Forgive my stupidity, forgive my stuborness, forgive me. :')

God, you are the one who leads me so far.
But I am once and once letting you down.
You still love me like your dearest daughther.
I m unworthy. You still love me.
Give me chances, and let me change to be a better one.
I love you lord.

And those I love and those who love me, bless them.

In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.