其实，我有想过，我不再说话，我不再多管闲事，我不再主动做什么。

因为我一直在做的在别人眼里只是鸡婆，只是无谓。

那，有必要吗？

花一分钟好好跟我说说有什么吗？

一句我很忙，就这样打发我？

平时，对每个人说话都好声好气，那我呢？

我不再说话，也许是好的

应该说我应该说的，说完了，就住口吧。

跟有智慧的人談完話,就是會有一種被罵得狗血淋頭,自慚形穢,卻

又

很爽很有衝勁的感覺!!!

Masks

Everyone has a mask, or should say, masks.

I don't like to masking up actually.

But I am not a good one.

Masking up is just let everyone satisfies, happy and wishing nothing happens.

But, I definitely prefer you tell me face to face, WHAT THE F*CK YOU ARE NOT SATISFYING WITH!

Don't be a coward, crapping in Facebook, using xxx to cover up what you are currently unhappy with.

F*cking angry but unwilling to spit it out. Making everyone happy? No, you're not.

You're making everything messed! Showing your Facebook status with everyone, so that people know that you're SACRED WITH YOUR ATTITUDE?

F*cking nonsense, dude!

I don't like you! Piss off!

给音乐的歌

从开始到现在

开始有些迷惘

是不是一切将要结束

从失败到努力

我一直在坚持

是不是坚持将要瓦解

但听见你说FLY

风来了就要开始新的旅程

不怕前路有多艰辛

有你在 我挺得住

你把最美丽的音符编成奇迹

你将声音变成安慰的力量

你将受伤的心一一捧起 放在手心里

你把最美丽的乐章凑成奇迹

你将爱音乐的人聚在一起

一切最美丽的事 全在这里

P.S/HAHAHA! 随手写一些，不知道melody将会是怎样.. 期待，我将要在3年后再开始写歌？

COPYRIGHT RESERVED 哈.. =X

遇见 自己

听完卢学叡整张专辑，心中莫名的感到安慰。

好像心被触摸，莫名的感到安慰..

卢学叡 Hallelujah

作词：卢学叡 作曲：卢学叡、刘嘉钧

当我开口呼唤你 呼唤你名

你侧耳倾听关心 我的声音

你触摸我软弱的心 给予安慰

使我能够坚强站立 面对一切

当我开始爱上你 爱上了你

你用爱将我抱紧 不会离去

你释放我所有重担 给我力量

开啓美丽道路赐我 新的生命

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主 我寻求祢 耶稣

我要敬拜祢 耶稣我主

当我开始爱上你 爱上了你

你用爱将我抱紧 不会离去

你释放我所有重担 给我力量

开啓一条美丽道路 充满我生命

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主 我寻求祢 耶稣

我要敬拜祢 耶稣我主

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主 我寻求祢 耶稣

我要敬拜祢 耶稣我主

Hallelujah Hallelujah

耶稣我主 我寻求祢 耶稣

我要敬拜祢 耶稣我主

同人不同命

放下吧，目光放远点

相信总有一天会有回报。

Why can't we last long?

You told me, everything's gonna be alright.

I said, I don't know, I hope so.

You cried. And I didn't know how to comfort you.

And you said, Let's break up.

I replied with a silent kiss.

But you seemed have no feeling.

I'd let you go if you insist, I said.

And you left.

Why can't we last long? I wonder.

Why can't we last longer?

Ohh~ Baby, give me one more chance.

Ohh~ Baby, please come back to me.

朋友

回头一看，自己依然是孤独一人走在这条路上。

何必骗自己自己有多受欢迎

何必骗自己自己有朋友相伴

对你好的，暗地里捅你数刀

对你好的，把你的私生活放在放大镜下曝晒

对你好的，在你兴高采烈时泼你冷水

对你好的，笑里藏刀

你不知道，你不知道

你只是一味的想着过往的背叛

你只是一味的觉得，你是对的

我不知道，我真的不知道

谁是凶手，谁是挑拨离间者。

也许，挑拨我跟你的是同一个人

也许，挑拨你和我的也是同一个人

她不希望你离开她

所以她行动可恶，可怕，可笑

这一辈子，无法再见面的话

我还想对你说什么？

只想说，你对我的好，我会记住

请小心提防，近在咫尺的人

她 会 害 你。

我想你 (:

体会

1) 心有一句感慨，我真的老了。

脑海里的东西，多半是很久以前该记得的事。

最近发生的，我都忘了。

有人告诉我，不美好的事物，我们的大脑都会选择不去记起。

是真的吗？

2) 如果我做错了一件事，就要死一次，我已经不在了。

但是，神爱我。

祂让我在这世上为祂做美好的事，为祂打美好的战。

如果是这样，我还应该犹豫吗？

3) 不经一事，不长一智。

每个人都渴望的，未必是好的。

只有渴慕主，才是对我们有益的。

与其花时间，倒不如做些有意义的事。

与其花时间，倒不如做一些有益的事。

4) 爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。

不管有多么的讨厌，都应该去容忍。

上帝对我多番忍让，不管我做了多么错的事。

我 要 忍 耐 ！ ！ ！

5) 上帝心里有蓝图，祂的时间不错误。

如果你求的，不是他所喜悦的，

一切只是惘然。

不管现在的你有多么的乐在其中，

时间到了，一切只是转眼云烟。

不要一味的求，乃是要明白上帝的旨意。

10.10.10 until 10.10.15 (:

Promise

一直都还没有做的祷告，

今天我终于提起勇气了。

在那堂讲之后，一直都有感动。

但是，我怕我做不到。

我害怕，如果做不到，

再怎么祷告，一切只是惘然。

我看见他的生命，

在人前是多么的有见证。

不想触碰的感情事，

没有爱情的生命，

也多么的有生命力。

我看见，5年的承诺，

其实并不遥远。

除了爱情，

世上还有更多的事情可以做。

别人我不知道，至少我自己。

已经开始遗忘的一个祷告，

从新在我心中燃起火焰。

谢谢你。

让我知道。

因为你，我知道可以等待。

:)

River flows in you

It has been a long time I have avoided to listen to this song.

It was a memory between the one I thought he was forever be mine.

One year. It had been one year. I thought, I can really forget.

This song, had ever be our promise.

This song, was our favorite.

This song, was our ringtone.

This song, brought us together.

But now, this song means nothing to me, to you maybe?

I think I am a coward.

Keep avoiding from this stuff.

I don't want to get hurt anymore.

I can't stand of the pain you had brought me.

Maybe, I shall meet a good man to bring me out of this nightmare? HAHA!

Anyway, River Flows In You.

焦点

他说，做人要锁定一个焦点，做人才不会没有方向。

他说，什么都可以忘记，就是只要记得这一切都是为主而做的。

撇开一切，应该问问自己，我。。。

是不是太好胜了？

一直担心自己会输，输给不想输的人。。。

我到底怎么了？

没有见证..

It has been weeks.

Queendom

I have never expected it would actually happen on me, perhaps to us.

I am glad that I found them, my happiness, my passion.

Music, was my passion, I thought it was.

But actually it is, instead.

Having Queendom is a miracle, is not a dream that I could ever know.

Stella, LinY, XinQian: I love you all.

It would be a long way for us to hit our target, but I do believe, WE CAN if we are with GOD.

In God, nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing. (:

Next Saturday will be our first "performance", or we shall call it a gift to God as He lets us to meet each other and have the chance.

It is a lame post I suppose. But it is what I wanted to say.

It is really glad that I am having you guys. (: My pleasure.

Keep on going, Queendom. (: I love you.

Give all the glory to our beloved God Father. (:

Queendom ROCKS!!!

寂寞

寂寞依旧在蔓延..

爱笑的人，不一定快乐的；

快乐的人，却一定爱笑；

爱哭的人，不一定伤心；

只是哭了之后，会比较舒服。

如果已决定了寂寞，就不要埋怨。

如果以选择了迁就，就不要忧愁。

如果已放弃了追求，就不要苦苦相逼。

如果已不是你的，就不要假装高贵。

如果，一切都如果。^.^

久违的感觉，终于找回了。

谢谢你。

<3>

Happy Day

Today is a good day. (:

I am very happy.

I am not emotional anymore.

And thank you.

love you, xa man.

Keyboard can be nice too. :)

Sorry

I am sorry.
I am saying to those reading this.
I am not acting emotional now.
(: anyway, thank you for those who being with me for so long time.
I love you all.
Forgive my stupidity, forgive my stuborness, forgive me. :')

God, you are the one who leads me so far.
But I am once and once letting you down.
You still love me like your dearest daughther.
I m unworthy. You still love me.
Give me chances, and let me change to be a better one.
I love you lord.

And those I love and those who love me, bless them.

In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

感觉

所以我说，人始终是人，都会欺骗人。

所以我说，不要相信人。

因为人始终会骗你，而你自己永远都不会骗你自己。

我讨厌那些每次将自己想得有多完美就多完美的人。

总爱将自己的那一套思想套在别人的头上，

假装自己有多好。

心理不平衡，脑髓不清醒

Weekdays

I hate Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday in one week.

I like Friday.

I love Saturday.

I have no special feeling towards Sunday.

LOL.

Time is not enough.

Rest is not enough.

I love homeworks.

I hate LOTS OF HOMEWORKS.

I like to study.

I hate to study continuously for a whole night.

Hmmm, it is my uni life. =)

我应该做吗？

挣扎了一天，我还是不敢做决定。

毕竟，不是短期的。

我害怕，我会受不住引诱

我害怕，我会不能够自己

靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能做。

我应该怎样呢?

引言

“如果你不想说的话，可不可以拜托你，不要让别人知道你在生闷气？

我知道以你的演技应该一点都不难吧？”

原由：泡沫之夏-尹夏沫

What the LOL

This evening, after my class, it was raining HEAVILY.

really HEAVILY.

Then, HS aka ah bao aka Jen Goh and I decided to go to library to do homework.

But, due to some REASONs, she went to Dean's office to WORK.

so, left me alone. so cham. :(

Then, I was without an umbrella. So, I was trying to find an unused classroom to do my h/w.

Hmmm, UCSI earns big money i think. There is no empty class available.

Then, I took a lift to 3rd floor, tot to find yi-lin.

What the, the rain water is dripping in the lift.

I heard someone asking, "hey, how much u pay per sem? shud we complain?"

This one is still NORMAL complaining.

I heard another guy saying this. "UCSI might want to make a water theme park with this lift."

First---What the lol.

Then, i went to recital hall. There are a group of people who were doing their presentation for Moral studies.

So, I quietly went in, and sat at the last row, so that no one can see me.

There was a group, who are discussing abt the "gender".. something abt the equability.

Usually, there will be a Q&A section after each and every presentation.

And NORMALLY, there will be nobody asking anything.

BUT!!!

there is a guy, who looks so yong sui.

He asked, "is the topic u guys sharing related to MORAL?"

actually i found him quite funny by asking this question. ofcoz there is plenty of facts that can prove it is related.

Then, the group leader was so kind to answer, "we r sharing abt men and women have equal rights. and so on so forth."

Then that yong sui guy, "okay, then wad's the moral value?"

"respecting each and everyone in our society."

"why it is relating to the MORAL?"

Second--- WHAT THE LOL...

usually if we meet this kind of annoyer, we will just ignore during presentation.

but, one of the group members stood up, and asked.

"Hey dude, do u pay attention during our presentation? why u keep on asking those question which have already included in our presentation or the slides?"

Third, WHAT THE LOL....

".........................." (we all laughed like mad, even i could not stop my hand from clapping)

then that guy continued.

"any more stupid question to ask? if not, next group please. Thanks for ur supporting and claps."

HAHAHA, WHAT THE LOL.

rainy day is not emo day.

it is HAPPY day. =)

虽然我愿意

请让我 靠近你轻轻对你说

别让我 每个夜为你受折磨

是多麽 不容易才默默放手

为了我 就当作这次为了我

别让我 因为你被回忆折磨

而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无 选择

就算我们之间有什麽问题

依然想念着你

虽然被放弃 虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什麽难题

黑夜 我还想着你

心碎人孤寂 虽然我愿意

再让我 靠近你轻轻对你说

当我说 我要你从此好好过

是真的 否则我怎麽肯放手

赐给我 你现在幸福的笑容

别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做 选择

心还想着你~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93eed3H8HuU

理不清，剪就断

New Semester, New Life

This semester, can be very toughed and suffering. I want to make things different if compared to last semester.

1. I must study more.

2. I must touch a bit a bit of the lessons before it is taught.

3. I must COMPLETE my homeworks in time.

4. I must not sleep too much.

5. I must not watch drama too much.

6. I must not facebook-ing so much.

7. I must apply the "6am concept" always.

8. I must NOT EAT TOO MUCH.

9. I must apply the "WWJD" concept always.

10. I must not get angry of someone or something easily.

11. I must make myself to play piano during leisure time.

12. I must go to GYM.

13. I must do more reading to improve my english. *oh gosh, i cant even write an essay now*

14. I must clean my room often.

15. I must SMILE every time when I am not doing anything. *people always think that I am emo or angry when i have no emotion.*

That's all. I M-U-S-T make things right.

And, lastly before i post this and applying those i have promised, i want to say something.

Somehow, people always don't cherish what they have now. They pursue. This is correct, this ain't wrong at all.

But when you hurt someone, then you're wrong.

Somehow, people always think that THEY ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO DO THINGS CORRECTLY. And they always think the others were wrong, they are JERKS.

How absurd that is.

Somehow, people always think that their lies are perfectly covered. However, the lies are PERFECTLY presented in front of the public. Only those who lie ain't know that they are so stupid to lie.

Somehow, people always think that someone approach them have motives. However, when there is no one to concern about them, they will say the world is loveless. ABSURD!

Okay, done. (:

There is a phrase, in chinese. 井水不犯河水。

After bla-ing so much, time to off to bed. =D

New Semester, New Life. WWJD. 6am concept.

GraccY~

Don't Love

I should go. I should go now. Because my stubbornness will turn to tears.

I should hurry so I won't see you left behind.

I'm crying. All the sadness that this departing love built up has crashed.

I can't even move a step so I just stand crying with my back on you.

Don't love. Good bye will always come. It hurts so much that you can't even breath.

I thought it'd only hurt as much as love. I thought I could forget it.

But no, it hurts thousand times more.

I'm scared.

Living with my eyes opened, but I'll still be blind.

Don't love. Good bye will always come. It hurts so much that you can't even breath.

I thought it'd only hurt as much as love. I thought I could forget it.

But no, it hurts thousand times more.

Again and Again. No, No. I tell myself like a fool.

Don't love. It hurts so much that you feel like dying.

You cry everyday too.

I thought it would be easy, I thought I could forget once a new love comes

but no, my love can't do that. I can't do that.

Jam Hsiao

I just realized I have fallen in ROCK MUSIC, especially slow rock. I love it so much.

Credit to JAM HSIAO. =D

Honestly, I hate those singers with rough voice, it was so annoyed, for me. haha

BUT NOW, I have fallen for it because of Jam Hsiao.

He changes my life? He changes the music that I normally listen to? haha.

This is his first album. He used his sexy voice to sing. LOL.

I started to notice this guy since ONE MILLION STAR season one.

There are lots of people supported Aska Yang.

There were some people arguing about the PK between them.

They said, Jam is not as "lihai" as Aska. What the. =X *Don't get offended*

The fact is, Jam has published more albums than Aska.

So, are they going to insist that Aska is greater? HAHA. APPARENTLY NOT!!! *opps*

His second album, Princess. =) more and more rock songs.

This one, he re-sings those old songs. Woots, what a nice one. =D

Last year he did not win the "new singer" prize.

This year, once again, he gets into the "Best Male Singer" with David Tao, JJ Lin, Khalil Fong, Eason Chen and so on so for.

All the best to JAM HSIAO. (:

You're the ROCKER!!!

除了它，我真的不知道要做什么了

又去看了一次

还是很爱它

除了它，我真的不知道要做什么了

只有它，能让我产生兴趣

只有它，能让我花上最多的时间

只有它，能让我更投入现在应该要做的事

祝我，好运。

长大

在成长的路上 也许我们都一样

努力地想往上爬 但却都失去方向

爱要如何才发芽 付出了才算成长

忙碌的大街上 有太多爱被遗忘

懵懵懂懂的我们才发现之日就然后想依靠

偶尔想起了你的笑容也想起和你的争吵

于是忙碌的生活是用来麻痹自己的借口

慢慢还要再多久我才会懂

也许我们都应该长大 才能面对未来的风

或许那不算什么沉重

也许我们都应该长大 才能慢慢的忘了他

相遇的冬天却停留在哪

在成长的路上 也许我们都一样

努力地想往上爬 但却都失去方向

爱要如何才发芽 付出了才算成长

忙碌的大街上 有太多爱被遗忘

于是忙碌的生活是用来麻痹自己的借口

慢慢还要再多久我才能懂

也许我们都应该长大 才能面对未来的风

或许那不算什么沉重

也许我们都应该长大 才能慢慢的忘了他

相遇的冬天却停留在哪

也许我们都应该长大 才能慢慢的忘了他

下一个冬天说好忘了吧

Things changed

Things changed. Can I hold on tight on what I have done?

Things messed up. Can I make the right decision?

Things seem wrong. Can I make a difference?

I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know who to discuss.

Or it is again a chance for me to grow up?

To make a decision and make it to be right, no more regret?

Can I?

I am so stressed. I don't want to face it. I don't want to know the consequence.

I don't want to hear any voice giving me opinion, am I doing this?

I do not think about all the consequences for the decision has made.

I don't know!!!

不懂

不懂几时你变得那么肤浅

不懂几时你变得那么不成熟

不懂几时你变得那么不可理喻

不懂几时你变得那么无知

不懂几时你变得那么假

不懂几时你变得那么愚蠢

不懂几时你变得这样

是我过度敏感，还是？

我好期待那一瞬间赶快出现

救我脱离你的世界

可怕又愚蠢的世界

可怕的利益，可悲的无知

我无话可说

也许，你会成功？有一天?

加油吧。。。

有一天你会明白当初你是多可笑。。。

Complicated? No more.

It was once complicated, but now it seems so clear.

I should face the truth, and so do you.

I was expecting something to happen soon.

And I prayed.

The answer from God, is "no".

He once again reminded me, one and a half year promise I have given to him.

Be tough, have faith, be strength.

With God, nothing is impossible.

Without God, everything is impossible.

Just found a quote from Jaeson Ma's song-Love.

"Love is selfless, but not selfish."

Ya, love is selfless, not selfish. (:

我算什么？

你是大混蛋！我讨厌你！

有事情就找我，没事就把我甩一边！

贱贱贱！！！

有种就不要再找我！

!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*

I hate EMO

When you are reading the title of this post, are you guessing that I am EMO now?

Then you are definitely WRONG!

Haha, it has been a long time I have not be emo? LOL.. Gotta proud of it?

Somehow, I really hate people acting emo in front of me.

Alright, I admit that sometimes my face is smelly like shit, but I really don't mean to be like that.

I was born to be like this ma. =( cannot blame me.

I REALLY HATE ONES TO ACT EMO!!! seriously.

You can say, "oh come on, everyone has his/her emotion what."

Okay, I agree with that. But, do you need to SHOW it to other people who does not offend you?

WTF?

You love to be emo, that is ur own business what?!

Why do you need to affect all of us around you?

You said, "Hey, not everyone are cheerful as you like nothing to be worried."

Okay. This is what I damn mad of.

I have my own problem to be worried, so as the others.

BUT!!! DID I show u my emotion? Did I?

Did I treat you bad when I was stressed?

Did I treat you COLD when I was sad?

Everyone has their own things to be taken care of.

NOT ONLY YOU!!!

Grow up man, come on.

You are not young.

GRRRRRR...

Who created EMO this word?

LOL..

I HATE EMO!!!

No, I should say, I hate people who acts EMO without a valid reason!!!

:@

Let us say GOODBYE to EMO, say HELLO to CHEERS!!! hahaha..

*What a lame post. (Suddenly think of reading this when I was doing Statistics. xD)*

生命

生命是脆弱的

人生是残酷的

人性是可恶的

孩子是无辜的

刚听闻朋友说，

一个我很尊重的老师

刚发生起车祸

老婆走了，肚子里的孩子也是

剩下老师，和四个孩子

听到的时候，

是震惊，是感慨，是无奈

祝福你，黄国宾老师

希望你，坚强。

学生我，只能在远方祝福你。

爱情

爱情是什么？

是人空虚寂寞的必需品？

是人思念无奈的空间？

是人孤寂的氧气？

还是人的渴望？

谁不期待，谁不等待眼前的感动？

谁不期待，谁不等待真实的温热在手中？

我也曾期待着，等待着你出现在眼前的感动

我也曾期待，等待着一个真实的拥抱

思念，不声不响的

混淆了我的思绪

你弹吉他的样子

我依稀记得

嘴巴不承认你的存在

只因为我知道我不行

没办法让自己不爱你

也没办法让你爱自己

爱情在没有尝试之前，

都是偶然，不可相信的偶然

自己知道

自己到了那里

想不想？可不可以？

一点点想哭泣，一点点想着你

太依赖你给的回忆

那年发生的事，你还记得吗？

别担心，我明白你的答案

你和她还是比较适合

别夸大了寂寞。。。

寂寞没什么大不了。。。

晴

Statistics 1

*This should be updated on 27 May.*

Before the exam, the day before the exam,

I can say, the things seemed, NEW to me.

the formula, the way of calculating it, the techniques of scoring.

It was torturing, learning it once again.

Honestly, my stats 1 really not good.

I can still remember, i got 40 plus for my first small test.

it is all about GRAPHS!!

TAN XIN QIAN SAID, i might have GRAPH-PHOBIA.. lol?

Okay, go back to the paper.

it is not as tough as i expected.

urm, i really don understand why mathematics not all about figures,

but it is abt explanations and theories. LOL

i don think i did well in explaining the graphs, the answers and so on.

however, some of my friends are quite disappointed about their performance?

some could not finish, some said the answers are weird. (I agree with the later one)

hmmm, how leh? xD wait until august then we will know. =P

Hahahahaha

12 days more to go back to MIRI!!

11 days more to go to SUNWAY!

10 more days to sit for STATS 2.. lol?

Wish me good luck.

but SLACK FIRST la.. hahahahahahaha..

是时候了

逃避了那么久

是时候回去了

回到那时候的我

回到那时候不说后悔的我

回到那时候不说怨言的我

你们的爱

过去总要离开 无论多少感慨 明天总会来

生命没有彩排 我已不是小孩 相信依赖

眼泪和心碎也不能 让我的心裏 失去期待

才看到那未来

那些人潮人海 如此迫不及待 散去又回来

没有某个角落 可以置身世外 逃开现在

如果我放弃该怎样去面对那些真挚的爱

谁拥有那未来

爱我的人 相信我

我一直在努力改变所有失败

为你们而存在

爱我的人感谢你 你们的爱

就算人生不是精彩 我也要勇敢的姿态

就像夜裏的光 就像皮鞭的响 指引著羔羊

伤口需要滚烫 生命需要成长 痛要品尝

命运去碰撞才会懂坚持 是不是对的方向

错过的不要想

就像干花的香 就像杯底的糖 沉淀了思想

每个人不一样 也许你的幸福 地址不详

要明白被爱并不是 一种奖赏 而是种力量

要用它去发光

爱我的人 相信我

我一直在努力改变所有失败

为你们而存在

爱我的人感谢你 你们的爱

就算人生不是精彩我也要勇敢的姿态

多少次紧握著明天徘徊

让昨天无法释怀

就算我注定失败

还有你暖的胸怀

爱我的人相信我

我一直在 努力 改变所有失败

为你们而存在

爱我的人感谢你你们的爱

在寒冷的雪天 等待著 一朵花盛开

Biology Unit 1

Okay, I admit.

I was still thinking why so many of our seniors retake Bio paper.

Now, I know the answer.

It is damn eff-ing hard.

It is just like when you are having constipation,

but you feel stomache. *LOL*

I used to do the structure part.

So, I did it first.

First question, fill in the blank.

You thought it is easy?

no no no NO NO!!!

Next, phospholipid.

Next, protein fusion.

Next, GRAPHS.

ONLY GRAPHS.

What the abcde?

Are we doing statistics now? or maths?

I hate the part asking us to describe and explain about the graph

it is damn eff-ing hard.

Another question, asking us in this way.

"Using your own knowledge, answer .............."

I don't even know how to answer this question.

Does it mean that, I DO NOT HAVE THE KNOWLEDGE?

oh my......

I think, I need to retake this paper next semester.

No, not only next sem, i think few more times i need to retake in order to get an A?

or i shud not aim that high? okay la..

Give me a B at least, come on..

FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED!!

Let me burn the BIOLOGY TEXTBOOK.

it is just USELESS.

A friendly reminder for all,

those who want to do Biology A level Edexcel board,

PLEASE, don't buy the textbook.

it is useless when answering the exam question.

Don't defend.

and

Don't get offended.

*praying for my paper. Hope that when it is FLYING to london, my paper is left behind.*

红颜祸水

有滩水说我是根草。我不可否认，因我平平无奇。

＊我死都要把那滩水吸光！！！＊

Before Bio 1 exam

oh damn

bio bio bio bio bio..

how could you do it to me?

I M DAMN SO PANIC since u r coming to visit me tomorrow.

I don't want to see you la. GO AWAY!!

YOU drive me into crazy.

Chemistry 1 (6CH01)

Today, I sat for my Chemistry 1.

okay, it is not that tough as I have expected, and it is not too easy as well. (talking rubbish)

Some of us are kind of disappointed as we did not study the textbook fully and ignored those looked like not important parts. Who knows? it came out. (geramnya)

well, we cant blame anyone, as we really rely on the past year papers that we have done by ourselves. (we did pay in our effort hoh.. )

so, what i m hoping is, at least give me a B la.. the minimum also a B please.. xD

somehow, people always ask me, why i aim so low.

I will answer, i don like to aim high and fall badly.

i don like the feeling of lose, as I am LEO.

hahaha. wad i can say is, I have tried my best.

I have done my part, the rest leave it to God.

Thanks Mom, as she always concerns about me and taking care of the family.

Thanks Xin Qian, as she always encourage me to study more and more and more.

Thanks Jen Yin(hong yan huo shui) aka ah bao, as she teaches me about the metalloid and accompany me going through the tough time.

Thanks Yi Lin, as she always provide her LILY for me. haha, for wad? MOLLY!!!

Thanks everyone who have helped me.

Today, JPA name list came out.

Diao diao got JPA among our classmates. Proud to have him as my buddy.

Desmond has went to Matrix in Labuan, now diao's turn.

who's next?

hong yan huo shui? :'(

all are leaving. sad case.

or maybe i m the one who is going to leave?

go back for FORM 6? hahahaha

DARE NOT TO THINK ABT FORM 6.

Lastly, please pray for my dad for his health problem.

I MISS HOME.

I miss home.

home.

home

Speechless

I can’t belive what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless
I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless
I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?
Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?

Haaaa-oooo-wow?
H-ooow?

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?
If I promise to you boy

That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh




Please pray for my dad and I.

来了，来了！！

考试，距离3天。

好事来的。

考完了就回家！！！

家 家 家！！！

quoted from someone: 我要回美里，KL 很复杂，我要回美里... 我只想安安分分留在美里...

LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL ~~~~~~~~~

惜福

最近，刚刚听闻一个好朋友发生的事
很同情他，也觉得他很勇敢
因为一些家里的事情
他，没办法继续现在的学业
离开了原本属于他的地方
他真的很坚强

我，不够坚强
我其实，一直在逃避
一直在逃避我懒惰的现实
我的惰性，从小就跟着我
一直都没离开过

就连现在，要考试了
我还提不起劲儿来读书
成天埋怨自己懒惰，却不从懒惰开始做起

他，要我珍惜每一次可以读书的机会
因为，真的很难得

是，真的很难得

来到这里几个月后，
开始忘记当初是多么辛苦才可以说服爸爸让我来吉隆坡
开始忘记当初妈妈是多么辛苦才把我送来这里
开始忘记当初我是流了多少滴眼泪才可以实现梦想
开始忘记当初自己为了梦想而坚持，而勇敢。。。


是时候开始了。。。我答应他，我会好好的
你也要加油，为你自己，为了你家人。。。
你要好好的。。。



惜福~~~

有时候人不要太聪明

人类，是一种非常特别的创造物
他们拥有其他物体都没有的样子，四肢，头脑



人脑的构造也非常复杂
人一辈子都无法应用整个头脑
好事来的。。。真的




当你知道，你的脑知道了一些不该知道的事情
是时候装傻了
不要太聪明，想要去看穿着整件事
它，很伤人的




当你知道事实的真相，
却要压抑自己的情绪，
嬉皮笑脸的面对它，
这更难。。。




那为什么我就要去拆穿着整件事？
有什么益处吗？
是不是单纯点，不想不看不听？
这样他好你好我也好，对吗？





希望时间冲淡一切。。。

Counting Days

你知道吗？
当日子越来越接近，我满心期待
原本应该是惊喜的明天，
变得没有意义。。。




你知道吗？
当时间的脚步离我越来越远，我很害怕
嘴巴硬着不说，
心里总觉得怪怪的。。。




你知道吗？
当你离我越来越遥远，我很慌，真的
告诉自己只要能经得起时间的考验
一切将变得不一样。。。




你知道吗？
当你说“如果我是对的人”，我真的很开心
虽然那可能只是你一时口快说出来的
但是，我真的很开心。。。




你知道吗？
(你不知道) 这叫设问。(:

TRIALS

Today is the 1st day of my 1st trial for my A-levels.
Urm, I should say, I am just too lucky.
Those I cant do, didn't come out.. phew~~
(but of course, I did a lot of CARELESS MISTAKES again. But never mind, no PAIN no GAIN ma..)

But, I really feel bad when I am blogging now.
My friends really NEVER ONLINE (maybe I should say less online) these few days.
And they really paid a lots of hardwork and their effort for the papers sitting.
me? not at all.
haihhhh.. =((

i know one day my balasan will come.
but i hope, not in my real exam la.. please.. =(
anyway, wish all of you good luck and GAMBATEH YO..~~~
GA YAO GA YAO~~!!

恶习

我的坏习惯又“发作”了
我爱跑厕所！！

常常抱着书本，到厕所
很奇怪。。。
但久而久之就习惯了

但是，朋友们都不习惯吧？
常常问我，去厕所读书，行得通吗？

真的，行得通！！！
哈哈哈哈。。。

实验1：Malaysian Studies
我在厕所读，而且就只读了那么一遍，就考试了
还考得不错的成绩（至少给我，它是不错的）

实验2：Chemistry Quiz （明天）
我也去厕所读，读完我最混乱的部分
希望明天能顺顺利利吧！！


如果这招真的行得通，
哈哈哈哈哈哈
厕所厕所，我爱你
你像玫瑰一样着人迷。。。 xD




这整个星期，都有考试
意味着，我每天都要霸厕？

啦啦啦啦啦。。。。
@v@

一切并没有我想象中美好

时间，一点一滴的过去了
不曾为你停留的脚步，渐渐开始后悔了
心不再像以前一般火热
那久违的你，还记得当初我们开心的时光吗？
一切并没有我想象中美好

阳光，被雨天交替了
我也开始放慢了脚步，希望你追赶上来
雨滴不留情的，打乱我思绪
嘲笑着我说， “傻瓜，别再等了。”
心情，像喝醉了一样，疯疯癫癫。。。
一切并没有我想象中美好

没有你的日子，我过得很好
但是，没有你的日子，
好像，总缺少些什么
一切并没有我想象中美好

听着朋友近来的故事，
我庆幸着我有你。。。
那你呢？
一切并没有我想象中美好

你说，“别傻了，你值得更好的。”
但我说，“那你呢？”
一切并没有我想象中美好

因为我会想起你，我害怕面对自己
我的意志总被寂寞吞噬
因为你总会提醒，
过去总不会过去，有种真爱不是我的
一切并没有我想象中美好

假如我不曾爱你，
我不会失去自己，
想念的刺，钉住我的位置
因为你总会提醒，
就算我赢得这世界，
有种幸福不是我的
一切并没有我想象中美好

我忍！！！

不知道是月经来袭，所以心情老是闷闷的
还是，我已经忍无可忍？

今天已经不是第一次了
我忍你无数次，不代表你就可以hurt我 xD

一句，“是你自己不够努力”，就像一巴掌
毫不留情地，打了下去

在你说这句话以前，你又如何？
在你每次批评我时，你有没有想过自己有多好？
我知道，我样样不如人。。。
但是，你有必要这样吗？

还是，我每天嬉皮笑脸的，让你觉得你说什么我都无所谓？
还是，我太过敏感了？你根本就没有这个意思？



嗨~~~也对，自己就是没有很好，所以才有借口让别人“讲”。。。
只能够说，我要多些严肃？哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈（疯了！！）
俗语所的好，要人家佩服你，你就要让人觉得你真的很好。。。

*路边一棵榕树下*

加油吧~~~

如果没有你

Hey～我真的好想你
现在窗外面 又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey～我真的好想你
太多的情绪 没适当的表情
最想说的话 我该从何说起你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你 没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果 还是要爱你

如果没有你 我在哪里
又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没了自己
Hey～我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

你是否也像我一样在想你

Attempting~~~

ngek ngek ngek (new laughing style from Jen Yin)
Today, I started of a NEW daily routine which I call it as "六点钟行列"
wad does it mean? haha.
let me explain this.
I NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6AM EVERY MORNING.
this is because, I really need to fix my time for sleeping, studying, and PLAYING.. =X
i seemed to be spending too much time on EATING instead of studying last few months, so now..
I WANT TO TRY TO "EARLY SLEEP EARLY WAKE"..
meaning that, I need to make myself sleep at 12am and wake up at 6am or sometimes 7am..(depends)
AND TODAY, I MADE IT!!! Congratz..!! (sot)
did many things today. *half-done* homework, studying, preparing for 2mr classes, doing something on grammar and vocabulary, reading, and GYM..
hahahaha, kinda satisfied about it..

HAHAHAHA.. Dear Journal, are you happy with my 180 degrees changing? xD *sot some more*

lalala, just randomly updated again.. since i have quite a long time didnt TOUCH my blog already..
hahaha


time to bed.. NIGHT!!　（：

梦想

梦+想 = 梦想？
你想得美

花样男子

I have emo for long time, just because of MEN!!! hahaha, they are not only MEN, they are STARS..
I did not study much for my Malaysian Studies' midterm.
I just anyhow read through those lecture notes.
so, I know, what is the consequence.. xD
Actually, I think that I have gone through the age of being 花痴..
But now seems like, I HAVE NOT.

I have watched 18 episodes in 2 days. (which one epi is like 1 hour plus.)
hahaha, I start to imagine my mom's face if she know this. :X


When I was reading this blog, I went and searched some photos for this drama.
Accidentally found this. ----->

**************************
***!!!!!!!SWEEEEETTTTTTTT!!!!!!!***
**************************
He is soooo engdao.. (Tan Xin Qian, syok lw ma?)

Hiak, just randomly update xia my blog.
hahaha, I gotta continue with the drama NOW!!!...

tata.. ^^



((:

每天

最近，你的名字常出现
开心开心。。。

还有每天的一分钟。。。
超爽超爽。。。

每天

还以为 是浪漫的雾景
我呼吸 被染黑的空气
雪不再结成了冰 我们将沉没
阳光太遥远 还剩下什么能留到最后

一年了 候鸟没有回来
飞不远 变成谁的晚餐
站在摩天高楼顶 瞬间变平地
永远是什么 一眨眼就蹦落

You are my everyday
oh 每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号 却任谁也无处可逃
You are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱 你是否还愿意感觉得到

后悔吗 Tell me why
在亲手毁灭之后挽救
像伤害我最爱的人
听地球正在哭泣

You are my everyday
oh 每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号 却任谁也无处可逃
You are my everyday
oh 想你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱 你是否还愿意感觉得到

Seng jor of Seng Sok jor?

These two words, are in cantonese.
LOL i can say.
Kar Soon posted it at my facebook's wall.
I once could not guess what's the meaning.
BUT, after few trials, realized that, "SENG JOR" means woke up; and "seng sok jor" means become mature.

Yea, it has been a long time, I do not want to face my past.
It was terrible, INDEED.
Some people just think that, "yes, grace tan is a friendly one."
But, I WAS not.. I use "was". (Hope it is really a past tense)

I don't dare to think about my past.
Terrible and horrible.
I... am... Urm, a bad girl.

I did many THINGS, which are hurtful, to me, and to the others, especially those who love me.
I did many crazy things, especially in my Form4 life.
I loved to think too much, and tried to achieve something with any methods I can think of.
I loved to do whatever I like.

But now, still.. I love to do my way, my own way.
One of the characteristics of Leo.
Think twice, think thrice before I want to do something, will do?
I thought I would become more GENTLE in talking, but I fail.
Diao2 (Kwei eng) asked me not to change it? As he is not used to a GENTLE grace.. (go knock, pls..)

But then, I still can stop thinking of those things of SOMEONE did to me, not even one times.
She hurts me once and once.
I have forgiven her once and once.
Too generous I will say.
My forgiveness doesn't reward me any.
It gives me only betrayals, once and once.

Yuk Chang told me, " You must experience things yourself only then you will gain something that you have never had it. Because friends you are having now, will not be there forever. You will see different people, different situation... What you are looking now is a picture on the wall which doesn't move. What you need to do is look at the 3D screen, look from all sides, or even look further."

Actually he was just copy and paste something to me. But, it calms me.
Although it has been a long time, he sent this to me.
But, what I see is, I have successfully tried his method, towards the one I really damn sien.
Somehow, a friend of mine told me that, I might be too cold-blooded if I keep using this angle to see everyone, instead of giving them a chance to entering my world.

Everyone gives me a different opinion.

However, I really do think that, I have changed.
I will never let the one who is trying to hurt me, get closer to me? Again?.. I think?
I live my own life, you please, do your great also.
Continue with your studies, your lies, your dreams, your imaginations, your men, your girls, etc.
Good luck to you?

Good luck to me. (:

手分手

自私的我
不曾顾太你的感受
当手分手
你没有意见都由我

累了太久
泪水已如湍急洪流
就手分手
没有人需要挽留

你也许以为是借口
我说 爱情不太适合我
不如只当朋友
会在一起更久
我对你很坏（你其实不坏）
轻易把手放开（只是把手放开）
让我的真心
一瞬间
适应不太过来

我对你很坏（你其实不坏）
给你依赖却又拿开（我已经习惯）
多想要把我的真心拆开（把你的真心拆开）
再看一次有没有你的存在（再看一次有没有我的存在）

你也许以为是借口
我说 爱情不太适合我
不如只当朋友
会在一起更久

如果不见你
我们就说
拜拜。。。

"STUDY" equation

Study= No fail
No study= Fail

Combine equations:
Study= No fail
+No study= Fail
Study+ No study = No fail + Fail
(No+1)Study = (No+1)Fail

Simplify equation:
Study= Fail

Study = Fail

Uncountable noun?

What does "uncountable noun" mean?
It means, CANNOT KIRA PUNYA BARANG!!!

So, K-I-S-S is an uncountable noun?

hahaha..

Too late?

When I have realized that I missed out something, is it too late to say sorry?
When I have realized that I can never entering your world, is it too late to say sorry?
When I have realized that you are no longer belonged to me, is it too late to propose?
When I have realized that I could not understand, is it too late for us?
When I have realized that we are separated into two worlds, is it too late to figure out?
When I have realized that everything does not go right, is it too late?
When I have realized that nothing is worth to, is it right?





Things changed in a sudden.
Tell me, what should I do?
Shall I go for it?
Or, ...
Doing nothing?



Walking to the left, turning to the right...
Which road is the correct one?



Stepping on the same ground, listening to the wind.
Nothing is done without God.



Nothing can be done without GOD.

梦

昨晚，发了一个梦
梦见了大家，梦见了他们
心理莫名的感到开心
梦中的我，笑得很开心
不知为何，心中有一种罪恶感
仿佛告诉我，这是错的


怎样？现在是怎样？
为什么我会变成这样？
当现实生活中的我，
变得越来越贪婪，
变得越来越不知足，
就会变成这样？


讨厌这样的自己
讨厌这样的贪婪
讨厌这样的不知足

但，我真的并不讨厌那个梦...
这才是我为何对我自己生气。。。

丁当 - 你为什么说谎

作词：刘沁 黄婷 作曲：刘沁

这次我走开 再没有话要说出来
我不想再期待走下去 还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安
也抓不住你的倔强
可是我知道你 你为什么说谎

你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来


你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

Untitled

this few days, one word---sien..
headache becoz of MC..
and cant complete wad i suppose to complete in time..
damn sien one..
this year would be the 1st year i am not going to celebrate cny with family.
sad case.. and this is the 1st year i have no new clothes for my cny? LOL..
hahahaha..
just update randomly.. =)


buai buai!!~

为何？

为何心情纳闷
为何心情低落
为何感觉无奈
为何眼泪不落下
为何不想溶入
为何不想表达
为何没有情绪
为何沉默寡言
为何不笑
为何不哭
为何我不知
为何我不想睡?

生命的话语

主每一日对我说话，你生命的话语

显明你心意亲爱圣灵，教我生命之道

开我眼是我看见，提升我的灵使我欢唱

你的话使我能再次拥有新的生命

我需要，我需要你生命的话语

Speak to me, my Lord Jesus.

I need Your words of life.

Reveal to me Holy Spirit, teach me Your ways of life.

Touch my eyes so I can see

Lift my soul so I can sing again.

Say the word, so I can live again

just by Your words.

Speak to me, speak to me,

I need Your words of life.

=)

什么东？

什么东什么东?

我很粗鲁，很男人婆???

死鬼，竟然这样说我!!!

来到这里，真的越来越粗鲁

不知怎么的..

一旦找到和自己“同一类”的人，

就很开心，料到很痛快。。

加油加油

最后，希望我身边的人，都开开心心

=))

Kwei Eng and I at stadium bukit jalil.. haha

Desmond and Kwei Eng (both of my BUDDY now in KL.. very nice indeed.. =) )

太傻

有时候，觉得可以依靠的人真的很了解自己
有时候，觉得他真的很在乎自己
有时候，甚至不用开口他已知道
可是，有时候他有意的背叛了你

我不知道我可以忍多久
希望你不要越来越过分
最多，一拍两散罢了
不要让我做出这样的举动
而且，也不要把我当成是傻瓜
我不出声，不代表我不觉得怎样
你爱怎样就怎样
不要把你自己的想法套在我身上
我真的很讨厌！！！

恨 恨 恨！！！


:@

遗失的自我

消失了，不见了
漂浮的，虚拟的
无臭无味，无影无形

不见啦！！~

看屁？

你，就是你了。。还看别人？
就是你了。。
就知道你每次都偷偷来看我的部落格

还不承认？还想抵赖？

*有开心到啦*
你每次都有抽空来看看，有爽到

=))

每个星期三

每个星期三，pasar malam..

一直都不会错过我最爱的---豆腐花

被我弄烂了。。 =(

喜欢它淡淡的香味

喜欢它嫩嫩的口感

就这样平平淡淡的

=）

请允许我

请允许我尖叫
请允许我哭泣
请允许我难过
请允许我伤心
请允许我快乐
请允许眼泪落下
请允许我无奈
请允许我假装
请允许我坚强
请允许我懦弱
请允许我无知
请允许我说谎
请允许我诚实

过分

有时候，过分的撒娇换来的只是无奈
有时候，过分的关怀换来的只是冷漠
有时候，过分的依赖换来的只是逃避
有时候，过分的过分换来的只是自讨没趣
有时候，过分的想念换来的只是可笑

有时候，过分的过分只是过分的过分
过分的过分，只是虚空的虚空


半夜的无聊，陪着我可爱的书本，无聊的写出无聊

不只是朋友

你身边的女人总是美丽
你追逐的爱情总是游戏
在你的眼里 我是你可以对饮言欢的朋友
你从不吝啬催促我分享你的快乐
你开心的时候 总是挥霍
你失意的片刻总是沉默
在你的眼里 我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友
你从不忘记提醒我分担你的寂寞

你从不知道，我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点温柔的骄纵
你从不知道，我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有

想做你不变的恋人
想做你一世的牵挂
想做你不只是朋友

What If?

What if, I can't make it?

What if, the colour has faded?

What if, you can't?

What if, it is impossile?

What if? What if?