First day of the orientation

Okay, today is the 1st day i could do touring around our school compound.
It is not that big, as the pictures shown at the website.

There was one musician who came to give a speech today, DENNIS LAU, quite engdao too.. =X
When he asked, why some of us have chosen music faculty.
there are two answers.
Formal: My passion is in the music.
Informal: Life without music, SUCKS. lol

today, really a troublesome day.
did a lots of things myself. tired.
walking here and thr, and especially i need to communicate with ENGLISH.
hmmm, i really need to practise a lots, so that i can speak fluently.

haha, time to bed.. nite nite.. 2mr will continue with the stories.
Love u all.. night night. =)



GraccY~

New Life in KL

Urm, 1st of all, i need to thank all of you who came to airport today.
It is hard to arrange the transportation, but you guys still there. =)

Thanks god, for He once again let me know that I am not alone, I have a big bunch of friends who always stand at my side if i meet troubles.

Thanks my family, for they have sacrificed a lots sending me to KL.

God, bless those who love me. And wish you guys always in a good condition no matter where you are. Stay healthy and happy. =)




GraccY~

p.s/I will update my blog very soon to let you guys know about my new environment. HAHAHA!!

Merry Christmas to all of you!!

HOHOHO, Merry Christmas.
Christmas, makes me review my pasts.
The promises he has made, the words that he has given, etc.
I remember about the BEACH.
But, all are vanished.

However, it does make me to SEE CLEARER instead? LOL!
Christmas Day merely for us to remember about our Jesus Christ. =)

A big applause to our church choir members, they have done a very good job.
And our elders, for the dancing part. It is good, for me?
And those children performance. WOW, cute.. xD



Anyway, wish all of you have a happy day=)




GraccY~

《为何对我这么好》 种子音乐

词曲：盛晓玫 Amy Sand
演唱：盛晓玫
专辑：亲密的朋友

走过熙攘人群
踏遍海角天涯
找不到一份爱象耶稣
他抚慰我心
他怀抱我灵
测不透的
不求回报的爱情
爱到为我降生
爱到为我受死
爱到体恤我一切软弱
他柔声呼唤
他耐心守候
永不停息
无怨无悔的爱情
他为何对我这么好
我虽然不好
他却听我每个祈祷
或在宁静夜里
或在伤心夜里
他为何对我这么好
我虽然不配
他还爱我如同珍宝
此情山高海深
主你为何对我这么的好

爱到为我降生
爱到为我受死
爱到体恤我一切软弱
他柔声呼唤
他耐心守候
永不停息
无怨无悔的爱情
他为何对我这么好
我虽然不好
他却听我每个祈祷
或在宁静清晨
或在伤心夜里
他为何对我这么好
我虽然不配
他还爱我如同珍宝
此情山高海深
主你为何对我这么的好

主祢为何对我这么好
我虽然不好
祢却听我每个祈祷
或在宁静清晨
或在伤心夜里
祢为何对我这么好
我虽然不配
祢还爱我如同珍宝
此情山高海深
主你为何对我这么的好
此情山高海深
主你为何对我这么的好

Happy

Today is the first day going out with him, just both of us. *Happy*
We went to movie, watched "ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNKS II".
Really had the desire to lay on his shoulder when he was so close to me? =P
But, I have no courage to do so, and I know, I need to WAIT? Haha.
(Got the chance to go out with him already need to curi-curi gelak lw.. )

After that, we went to a shop with Chardly, Moses, and Jai Seng, discussing abt HIS WORDS.
Gained a lots from Chardly, thanks god that he sends such a good speaker to us.

Then, we went to Chun's house.
I am really glad that, he and I have a chat about our things.
Future, thinkings, and etc.
I am very surprised that, he wont avoid from me, since I am so clear to him.
God's lead? HAHA.


No matter what, am waiting still.
After A-level, I know I know.
I am very clear what are more important for me now.
So, no need to worry about me.
*If God really arranges me a mate, he will APPEAR at the right time. =)*
**But what if HE really does not arrange me one? uh oh.... **

Everything gives to god ba. Let him to lead. =)

aza aza fighting, Graccy. =)




554.


GraccY~

感动

好久好久，没有因为主的缘故，我掉下了眼泪
我才刚发现。。。
往往，一次又一次的，为了自己的软弱，自己的无奈，
倔强的眼泪流下来

上帝，很奇妙
让人一次次的受伤害，但是又一次次的医治安慰
在朋友的见证下，
我看见，自己是多么的幸运
比上虽然不足，比下却有余
我还在等什么？
等着和别人一样的待遇？
好傻好傻。。。

很喜欢被上帝拥在怀里的感觉
前所未有的安慰，喜悦，
环绕着我。。。

上帝，就在你身边，等着你紧紧抓住他的手，
你愿意吗？
他在等你，无时无刻都在等你
他不在乎你是否是个无恶不作的人，
还是你是热心慈善的人
他爱我，他爱你，他爱我们大家

所以，我要时刻提醒自己，
不可离开上帝
即使，在深渊，在高峰，
上帝都在我左右，目光完全没有离开过我

感恩 =)






晴天 笔

Memorable Days in Camp

Last 2 days, I went to the gradution camp which is organized by MGC.
Wow, I am glad that I do join the camp, if not, I am the one who lost something important in our teenage life.

I have learnt a lots through the camp, I have made many friends who I don't even have a chance to talk to them without the camp.
I found out that, if I want to do something, it is possible, if only if I am willing to do so.

Ya, memorable days indeed.
The five-edged star, I would never forget. =)
Hope YOU too.




Thanks god, giving me tutorials.
Thanks god, giving me the chances to do everything.
Thanks god, giving me the chance to know YOU well.





Graccy~

Roses never red

I am so down.
I am so sicked.
I am so tired.

I don't know what shall I do for my future.
Day by day.
I am so confused with my feeling.
I am so blur about what I am working on.

It is a long journey, I need to walk step by step until I reach my destination, ALONE?
I don't know.

Roses never red, while I have never grown up.
Blog, is the only place, I can express my feeling, without arranging, without thinking.
It is my space, my way to do what I really want to do.


(Currently listening to You Raise Me Up from Westlife.)


When I am down, and my soul so weary.
When troubles come and my heart burdened be.
Then I am still and wait here in the silence.
Until YOU come and sit a while with me.

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains.
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas.
I am strong when I am on your shoulders.
YOU raise me up to more than I can be,


Is anybody there when I fall?
Is anybody there when I am down?
Is anybody there when I am lost?
Is anybody there to heal me?
Is anybody there to help?
IS ANYBODY THERE?
IS ANYBODY THERE?
HELLOOOOO?









560.




I am still waiting for ya.






ICE~

Sweet =)

Did something very crazy just now.
It was sweet, anyhow.
At least, it is.. for me. =)
Thanks for accompany me for a whole night.





563.

563 days

Yesterday, I was really stupid enough. I misunderstood something.
And, I made myself emo for whole night.
I am really, really, really stupid.
I am so sorry. I know you are so sad, as he is leaving today.
But, I brought you the mafan again.
Don't cry. Bound for the ball of glory.
I will always by your side if you need me?
Hahaha.


563.

564 days

I am going to wait another 564 days.
God bless me please? I don't want to break the promise.
I am waiting for the one you really have chosen for me.
Is he the one?
I don't know.
There are 564 days to go.
I'm willing to wait.



=)

一切就这样结束了

SPM 就这样在一场欢呼声中结束
而我却还一直闷闷不乐
华语，真的很难很难
“别让生命留白”
那我呢？



一直很难恢复自己的心情
EMO... zzzzzzz
听着别人的狂欢，我却在旁静静的等待黑夜的到来
我很失败，很失败


。564

I really enjoy my life.

I always blame, there is no one I can talk when I am emo.
Thanks god, I have found a bunch of good friends.
Biet, Jun Wei, Foon Ngian, Li Wei, Li Min, Hie ling and Sau Lin.
Hope I do not miss out anyone of you.

I am really glad that, I have found them.
Somehow, I always feel lonely.
Friends are to share my happiness instead of sadness?
I don't know. I pray and pray, I hope there is really somebody I can rely on when I am sad, helpless, and hopeless.
However, they have turned up. =)

Very soon, we have to split and going to places we study.
I hope, we will never forget each other, and keep contact.
I enjoy the moment talking to them, a lots.
No need to pretend, time to take off my mask, time to reload my machine gun. LOL

I think friends should be like this right?
Alright, wish we will all get good result in SPM.
And strive the best for our last paper, CHINESE. (My NIGHTMARE)

Hmmm, time to bed. Night night. =)

恩典之路

Last Sunday, thr was a duet.
they sang 恩典之路。
the song, really too nice.. lovely melody with meaningful lyrics.
I cried as if God leads me, this long journey.

Here's the lyrics.

你是我的主,引我走正義路
高山或低谷,都是你在保護

萬人中唯獨,你愛我認識我
永遠不變的應許,這一生都是祝福

一步又一步,這是恩典之路
你愛,你手,將我緊緊抓住

一步又一步,這是盼望之路
你愛,你手,牽引我走這人生路



Here's the link to view the vid.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Q444bzsehU

Amen.



GracCY

HOHOHO, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

I am very excited today. As it is the LAST time touching my physics reference books and notes..
I gonna admit that, I didn't really study as hard as my friends.
Biet, always does his revision until the midnight; Ling and lily also did the same thing; ngian really takes his spm very seriously; li min's basics also a lots better than mine; Jun Wei is top student in 5S1, pun very stressed about his performance in exam...
What about me? hahaha, slacking, sleeping, talking, online, eating, and etc. I did it, when I really want to do it.
Haih, no matter how. I have tried my best. I am really week in physics, those concepts, drawing, law, rules and etc, i MEMORIZED it instead of understand it.. haha.. It takes more time for me to understand, i think? hahaha

Whatever la. It has passed, nothing can do for it.

Last 2 subjects, chemistry and chinese.
Chinese, the subject i worry the most.
I just realized that, i always speak(chinese) in ayat songsang.
I just realized, THIS YEAR.
They said, my chinese very english style. LOL


For an example,
English: I want to go to canteen now.
Chinese: 我要去食堂，现在。

This type of "grammar", appears many times in my chinese essays.
OMG, what i suppose to do now? (我应该做什么，现在？）
lol..


Lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS.

*JINGLE BELL, JINGLE BELL, JINGLE ALL THE WAY!!!*


*There is always someone who always lives in my heart. I miss you, I really do.=)*





GracCY~

A post specially for XIAO LINY

Sei loi yan... hahaha, I don't know when you are fated to read this post.
haha, so... haha..*siao eh*

okay, 1st of all, this zha bo is going to UCSI with me..
i m glad, of course.
and give thanks to god, as He finally chooses one to be my partner
no matter in school, or social.
because she is good in social. and i m not...*sad case*
as she said, let us "xiang yi wei ming" in the future 5 years..
lol.......


okay, done..=X





na, here showing ur pretty photo la.. =P

我讨厌我自己

生活，真的不简单
经过多次的挣扎，有过多少次的挫折
来到了今天。。。

今天，也没有想象中快乐
明明就带着不安的心情
还要带着挂着笑容的面具
深怕，心里不想被发掘的那一面，赤裸裸的排在众人面前

有时候，我鸡婆，多事
明知道，这样受伤的是我
我还偏偏把自己往那里塞

真希望，自己是一块冰块
不管晴天，阴天，雨天，大热天
冰块，都会融化
冰块，也会消失在不闻不问中
冰块，化成一滩水，路人甲乙丙丁

从希望天天放晴的我
到了今天，我走的下去吗？
EMO，新朋友
你好吗？







晴天/冰块 笔

EMO EMO EMO

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO
EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO
EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO
EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO
EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO

温岚 - 我全都相信

作词：吴克群 作曲：吴克群


我相信你说的每一句
就算是明知是甜言蜜语
可是我总觉得哪里有问题
也许这些话语不只说给我听

我相信是因为你的犹豫
所以把感情陷入难题
没关系我有做坏人的勇气
就算毁灭自己也要捍卫爱情

我全都相信 相信你说的每一句
每一句我答应我可以我不会负你
我全都相信 相信你说的每一句
每一句只差一句我爱你

我相信你说的每一句
就算是一切都变成回忆
可是我逃不开也回不去
也许这些欢愉 是讽刺的回忆

我相信是因为你的犹豫
所以把我永远困在这里
没关系我会继续撑下去
给我勇气呼吸我只需要一句

我全都相信 相信你说的每一句
每一句我答应我可以我不会负你
我全都相信 相信你说的每一句
每一句只差一句我爱你
我想你说不出 我爱你





【我真的相信，你就是。但是事实，摆在眼前。
你不是我想象中单纯。
你已经不是我一年前认识的你。
你，变了。
是因为那次的伤害吗？
还是，我根本就不了解你？】



晴天 笔

It drove me into crazy!!!

Today, we as SPM candidates, sitting for addmaths papers.
Okay, I admit that, I didn't really worry about it.
In the morning, we sat for Paper 1, ji jiat lat xia lo... haha, it is too easy for us, as a chung hua student. (as our Puan Lau likes to come out with difficult questions, always!!)
This made all of us felt dont really worry, ONCE AGAIN.

What happened next was, paper 2, in the afternoon. (we ended our paper1 at 10am. stayed at school for 4 hours, talking...lool)


actually feel sorry to foon ngian, because I kept bothering him, and asked him to talk to me. haha
when we entered the classroom, we macam nothing to fear.
once, opened up the question paper, shitty stuff...............
for me, it is even harded 200% than those questions which Puan Lau has set.
WHOLE SCHOOL IS SCREAMING!!!
what i can listen after the exam has ended, !@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*
haha...

gosh, an A has gone.. =(

God bless meeeeeeeeeeee

I am so tired.

Gonna update randomly, as I am not in the mood.
haih, it has been so long, I am, wanting for it.
struggling, desperating...
from hoping to getting,
from getting to losing,
from losing to gaining back,
from gaining back to appreciating,
from appreaciating to nothing.

Does it call life?

Argh, gonna study again.

Buai..

Gonna die badly

This is the first time i treated my exam so seriously.
This is the first time i did my exam until i got headache.
This is the first time i nearly cant finish writing.
This is the first time i feel so bad after exam.


I am going to die very soon. After 3 to 4 months.


Justin, I miss you

Coming back?

30/11.......
bio day? i think so? hahaha..
can't really remember it..
asked y.c abt spm, wad he replied?
"aiya, spm, kacang laaa... u can study higher than that.."

LOL, ofcoz he can say like this. He has the opportunity to study in london, ofcoz talked like this la....
hahaha.. kinda miss those days without the word SPM...
played a lots.

sigh, wad can i do now? no hope.. no hope.. no hope.. no hope.
NO HOPE!!!
good, done..

NITE NITE...

Lame shit= Gracccccyyyy

I m a piece of shit.
I m lame.
I m lame shit.
I m superb lame shit.
I m a piece of shit.
I m lame.
I m lame shit.
I m superb lame shit.
I m a piece of shit.
...
...
...
...
...
...


Please tell that I AM NERVOUS!!
Please tell that I AM NERVOUS!!
Please tell that I AM NERVOUS!!
NERVOUS
NERVOUS
NERVOUS
NERVOUS
NERVOUS


LOADING.. 1%

LOADING.. 50%





LOADING.. 78%




LOADING..95%
LOADING.. 96%



LOADING.. 98%
LOADING.. 99%



LOADING.. 99%




LOADING FAILED




LAME SHITTTTT

林宥嘉 - 说谎

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡 让人家不安
才会 结果都阵亡

我没有什麽阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱 何况那算什麽伤
反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你懂我的 我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘
笑是真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口 闻得到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
你知道的 我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎 是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎 我何必说谎
爱一个人 没爱到难道就会怎麽样
别说我说谎 人生已经如此的艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎
它带你来 骗我说 渴望的有可能有希望
我没有说谎 祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你就遗忘

Recently, do a lots of reading. Lol, it is my so called RESPONSIBILITY now. Sad.
I usually study with my iPod, this is why I am addicted of this song.
There is a sentence, "我没有说谎 ,是爱情说谎,它带你来, 骗我说, 渴望的有可能有希望"
I am quite with it. I thought, he is. But actually he is not.
Who is the liar? Love or you?
You are the one who made the promise. However, u brought away your promises and ran from me. The scar is never healed for years, it's true. I act like I am nothing, been healed. ACT.

I'm afraid, but I am still wanting it so much. I was hurt, but I have not healed yet.
Trying my very best to leave this little island, just to forget about our past.
Trying not to think about you, just to make my life easier.
Trying to do everything which is not related to you, just to forget about you.




GraccY

坦白

萧亚轩 - 坦白

作词：萧亚轩 作曲：李伟菘

无数个夜晚 任性的被你宠坏
我曾想就这样 耍赖
如今默默呼吸 孤单

失去了什么 还剩下什么 不再等待
面对你慷慨 无节制的爱
我该不该 勇敢的离开

对自己坦白 爱狠狠的 还在
找朋友陪伴 都抵不过你一半
泪在眼里打转 爱已变成黑白
找不到答案 也不想谎言主宰

对彼此坦白 我们真的失败
背叛不是意外 就算承诺不再
新欢成了旧爱 爱的没了姿态
我会释怀 让时间把一切都冲淡

就让它冲淡


这是Elva's的新专辑，有几首歌曲都是在叙述她如何相信一个男人，到被抛弃（真的）
一听见这首歌，眼泪不禁流了下来。不是因为我还不能忘记，而是心里扥道伤痕，一直还在。
“对彼此坦白， 我们真的失败，背叛不是意外，就算承诺不再。新欢成了旧爱， 爱的没了姿态，我会释怀 ，让时间把一切都冲淡。”
眼泪，更不知觉的，潸然落下。
是我不够勇敢，不能硬下心肠，大大方方的离开。
是我觉得，你是对的，所谓的“死缠烂打”。

这是一首好歌，有意思的歌=）

Elva 萧亚轩《钻石糖》

All are over

Jay is back. I'm here alone again. Missing the days spending with him, as I have only need to PLAY, PLAY and PLAY. Hmmm, these few days kept sticking with my cousins, I found out that, I am not the "small girl" anymore. As they are all older than me, and we seldom go out together. But now, we have a lots to talk about, we can talk to each other like FRIENDS... ... I miss the days we spent together at the beach, weddings, wedding dinners, thai bar, islands and the satay stall. I miss the moment ---- "Five Captains".

Maybe this is the last time we got gathering. I mean in this few years, as I am going to KL. I love the feeling we get together. I love the feeling we have our fun like nobody else. I still remember the warmth of your hand when holding me tight; I still remember the warmth of your body when hugging me tight when the day you are leaving. My tears drop down when I miss you, I miss the gentle way you treating me.

"Jay, if you're coming back to Miri again, must inform me okay. So that I can book the air ticket earlier then come back with you.=)"

I miss you badly, it is what I can tell.


Love you,
Your dear GraccY.

Slack first lah..

Hmmm, today is my cousinS' wedding day. My biao jie and biao ge is married on the same day. Wow, so sweet. When looking at them, I wonder when is my turn? Haha, it is somewhat a terrible, for me maybe?! Or I will never get married? =X, touch wood touch wood. Watching all my coussyS have a boy friend or a girl friend already, but I'm still available. Sad what? Although I am the youngest among them. Lalala.

By the way, today I am my cousin's "ji mui". It is really a fun one. ASKING ANGPAOs is our main job today. All of us, money face and money minded. Kept asking red pockets from the bridegroom. And, I was really jiat lat one. I have RM100 together, but RM50 is lost by me. Really jiat lat one lo.. =( haha, however, I got experience to kacau bridegroom and his "heng dai". Haha

Tonight will be my biao ge's wedding dinner, and 2mr nite is my biao jie's as well. It is so called, WEIGHT-GAINING-DAY!! Hahaha.



MEMORABLE DAYS WITH JAY=D

This feeling, visits me again.

Tonight, is tonight. The feeling I hate the most comes visiting me once again. It is not really emo, but it is emo; it is not really sad, but it is sad; it is not really frustrated, but it is frustrated. LOL, wth?! Haha. Since I can "haha", means I'm still okay. I have fed up with this kind of feeling, from the day I made the promise with him. He, is him. He is a damn freaky guy. I don't wth are in his mind. Somehow, I seem to be fooling all around. However, I love to spend time with him. I have been waiting for a long time. Is he? As he said, he is. But, is that true? I don't know. He is surrounded with flowers, but I am just the fertilizer? Haha, according to those minerals inside my body, yeah, I'm somewhat like a fertilizer. ZZZ... I hate this kind of feeling. I hate!!! When will this end up?

Not I never thought to give up. I tried not to SMS, chatting and thinking about him. However, I still end up like this. HAHA. Stupid. He says, he will wait for me. Somewhen, I think to blame, he ain't spent enough time with me. But, I love to pretend, I don't really care, as he always busy with his studies. PRETENDING I am tough enough, enough. PRETENDING huh?

Oh well, it is all done. Done abreaction. Feeling better than just now. Wondering shall I post such a post like this? Later sure all come to me and ask, "who is that guy?", "what happened again?", bla bla bla. Alright, I would answer now. He is a damn freaky guy. Nothing happens actually. Only my own wishful thinking.




***I miss you, baby.
I love you. ***

When there was me and you

It's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all i want
is to be over there
Why did i let myself believe
miracles could happen
'cause now i have to pretend
that i don't really care



I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
that I confused my feelings
with the truth
When there was me and you



I swore I knew the melody
that I heard you singing
and when you smiled you made me feel
like I could sing along
but then you went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-bes
and once upon a song



now I know you're not a fairytale
and dreams were meant for sleeping
and wishes on a star just don't come true
'cause now even I can tell
that I confused my feelings
with the truth
because I liked the view
when there was me and you



I can't believe
that I could be so blind
it's like you were floating
while I was falling
and I didn't mind
because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too


When there was me and you

Heading to UCSI!!

Good news of the month: "I have applied to UCSI, the KL Campus instead. =D
One step closer to my dream, give thanks to God as He leads me and guides me all along the way. Give all the glory to Him. And, thanks my mom as she finally lets me to go KL, although she is worried so much. Especially my dad, he insisted to let me go studying in Form 6. However, he has agreed with my decision. These are all good done from God. Thankssssss..

People say, "Grace, must guai guai over there, study hard. Don't let your parents to worry." Ya, I will try my very hard to study. (STUDY BECAUSE I WANT TO EARN LOTS OF MONEY IN THE FUTURE!!) Haha. Somebody asked, "eh grace, will you slim down when you go KL? As there are a lot of LENGLUIs who are thin and charming." LMAO, will I? Haha, KL has lots of nice food leh. Haha, I will gua? GUA?

Lastly, my dear buddy, Pong is going to Aussie, Jia is staying in Riam Tech for her A-level. Sooner or later, all of us will be seperated all over the GLOBE, to study. God, let's my dearries, always in good condition, stay pretty, SLIM, haha. The most important, our souls must be kept by God, let Him to lead us, be our guardian. =) Give thanks to God.
FRIENDS FOREVER!!! MUACKSSSSSSSSS

What is the PRINCIPLE or LAW is it?

There is a pressure, which will make students study hard, as well as spend all the time to read.
What is the Principle or Law is that?

"Pascal's principle?"


"Bernoulli's principle?"


"Archimedes' principle?"


Lol, do suffering a lot these few days. Black circles come out, like "scare people can't see". Haha.

Now, I got sick. Strong and HEALTHY girl like me got sick? hahaha..
People always say, once u released all your stress, you will get sick easily. WTH?!
Cough, sore throat and flu. All come to visit me together, so kind are they. Hmmm, I wonder.



Jiayou laaaa, no matter what. Graccy, jiayou jiayou jiayou. Shoo away all the sicknesses.
One more month to big game, chiong ahhhhh!!!




Graccyyyyy

Forgive Even You can't Forget.

This quote, I got it from DAILY ADVICE in Facebook.
Somehow, I can't let go. Somewhat I am the one who insist to remember?
I don't know.
Look further. No matter what happens, the sun still shines brightly for us.

QIONG ah, SPM!!!

Today, I have my history paper 1. I tot i would fail this paper, as I didn't study much. What I can say is, I am just too lucky. Haha..My blazer photo

My blazer photo with spec..
You guys might feel weird, why both photos look similar.
It is because... hahahah.. (secret) *wink*


I promise, I will do my best in my SPM, so is MY 2ND TRIAL.
(Though I have gotten my forecast result already=( )

JIAYOU!!

30 days to go

30 days, too long? too short?
But how come, I don't feel like studying? I don't even in the mood. WHY?
But it is not for olympic, it is for spm countdown.. lol.. 30, 29, 28..............................................
GOSHHHH

Updates RANDOMLY

It has been a week I didn't touch my lil bloggie. I have forced myself NOT TO ONLINE!!! But, I failed to do it. Because I'm recently addicted to MAFIA WAR. I can still remember, I said to my friends, "It is just a boring game, clicking here and there, earning money and fight with others!" But now, what's happened? I must "look after" my mafia war everyday at 530pm to 6pm, and at 10 o clock if my mom has gone to sleep. (HIAK HIAK HIAK)

Okay, nothing special happens in this week. Burying myself into books. LOL

Honestly, I feel pretty regret of wasting my time last year. So, I need to cope hard to chase my friends. Besides, I am not the "hardworking" type. You can imagine, how hard I make myself survive with BOOKS. SO, the lesson I have learnt is,
"DO NOT WASTE YOUR TIME ON THOSE UNNECESSARY THINGS DURING FORM 4 AND FORM5!!!"
(Unluckily, TIME does not forward back if you didn't appreciate it.)

Gonna share you guys about something. HAHA!

I HAVE FOUND MY MR.RIGHT!!!!

I shouldn't use "MY". Because he ain't mine. He is belonged to ALL!!
I know him since I was primary five, and he was primary six. When we were all kids, and doing what our age should do, he has begun to do what we should do now. He does well in speaking, writing essays, music, and etc. I will never forget about the word "UP!". (You know if you have experienced same thing with me. Hahaha)
Besides, he is also a very gentleman one. (I have been killed by one smile from him!! wth?!)
Some of you might think that he is ugly, since he is so good in other sides. BUT, what I am going to tell is, HE IS REALLY LENGZAI, ENGDAO, AND HANDSOME!!!!

Oh gosh, I almost faint. Before I get fainted, let me tell you another thing, which happened today!!

Today, I reached school about 6.45am, consider late for me because I usually reach school at 6.30am. I don't like to go to school late, because I am lazy to bother those prefects at the gate sides. They are too annoying sometimes, however, they are doing their duties to ask us to tidy up our looking. Okay, go back to the topic. When I got into school compounds, I saw Mr.Wong(our principal), I was wondering should I greet him? How should I greet him?

"Good morning Mr. Wong. (And give him a respectful smile like that?)"

OR

"Zao4 an1, Mr.Wong. (greet him in mandarin?)"

Luckily, when I passed by him, he was talking to one of the top ten offenders, I think so?
Here comes the important part!!!
I saw him, the perfect guy I mentioned just now. Again, appeared himself with a smile. Gosh gosh gosh!!! I can't stop myself from tittering, all the way before enter my class. LOL!

I know, he is just like the sun in the sky, which human beings on the earth cannot reach, even those astronauts. (=x) He shines to prove that there is nothing impossible if you work hard for it; he smiles to remind you do think that everyday is a brand new day; he is gentleman to give a role model to guys do learn from him. (OPPSS?)


HMMMMMMMMM, time to stop dreaming. Come back to reality, Graccy.
And, it is time to take a nap. And get to study? **SIGH**
Sleeping is a luxurious habit. 40 days plus to our big days!! Cheer up, after SPM, I will sleep as much as I can, I promised. =)



***P/S. Ohya, I am so forgetful nowadays, who knows some ways to CURE the "SICKNESS"?

A special SCENE

上个星期四，我和佳慧去民事中心看了一场音乐会（之前还去KFC, 结果迟到）
我们两个，都不怎么喜欢FIRST SOPRANO.好像在半天掉一样，该上的上不去
然后，大概九点，我们就去PARKSON.
原本是想看“吓到笑”，但是没有缘分咯
哈哈哈哈

因为，我们那天的缘分是。。。。。。。
将将将将！！！嘣！！！ 哈哈

我们看到一对男女（只能说，一对男女）
因为我们不知道他们是什么关系
让我来一一介绍吧

男
身高：180cm左右
体重：不知道，但是他是属于壮壮的
长相：几不错一下的咯

女
身高：165cm左右
体重：不知道，但是她是属于非常有肉型（我和佳慧加起来应该有吧=是真的！！！）
长相：本小姐偶的一半？开玩笑啦。。就是不是很漂亮的吧

好了，要说故事了
那天，其实根本就没有意思去注意其他人
但是，那位小姐，打扮引起了我们的注意
吊带短裙加上黑色高跟鞋，配上她的身材（很“特别”）
然后，她身边的那位帅哥
又有亲密的举动，很难不让我这种八婆想入非非
原本，不想去想了
但是，我们去STARBUCK时，
他们也一起来了
这使我们更不能否认这份缘=X

我们估计了几个可能性：

1. 女的是老板，男的是员工：一起出来谈公事
但是，觉得不可能，因为，谈公事有必要穿那么性感吗？
PROBABILITY: 1/10

2.他们是姐弟
他们在STARBUCK有互喂的举动，什么意思呢？
PROBABILITY: 1/10

3.他们情侣
有这种可能，但是，这种帅哥霉女的搭配？在这21世纪还有可能吗？
PROBABILITY: 3/10

4.女的是顾客，男的是服务员（这是我想的，很坏！！！猜得到，就厉害；猜不到，去撞！！）
这个可能性最大吧？帅哥霉女的搭配=X 因为最后他们还有相约去不知道哪里。。哈哈哈哈哈
而且，难得还对那个女的照顾很周到
PROBABILITY: 5/10

有坏到？ 现在，开始投票！！1，2，3&4，您觉得什么最可能呢？LOL
如果世界上真有那么好的事，为什么就不发生在我身上？
I NEED LOVE, DESPERATE TO HAVE SOMEONE TO LOVE ME.. LOL
肖！！

哈哈哈，介绍完毕（太无聊了）

Stay Tough & Be Happy

I wonder how stupid I was. Yesterday was hell, but today, I am fine without you.
I was the one who insisted to being in at that time. I don't know why I did.
(It was kind of stupid thinking, when I reviewed back.)
Funny right? Vien said, "You will definitely feel that you're so lame if YOU think back the past."
Yeah!! Exactly, I am lame, and stupid EITHER!!!!
Haha, I spent lots of time to CRY, THINK ABOUT HOW TO GAIN BACK THE FEELING, and YET, I was so DESPERATELY to find a way to make his result good.
WTF?!! He never appreciate, yet, he ran away? And left me once again?
I'm so sorry, especially to my mom.
She told me once and once, not to get into a relationship so easily.
BUT, I didn't "listen" to her. And I got hurt, I threw my temper to her, screamed at her, scolded her not to give disturbance.
I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY.
I can't deny, I get EMO easily nowadays.
So, you can imagine, how harsh am I, when talking to my mom.
In an addition, LOL, I'm LEO. Hahahaha, does it affect? YEA, I THINK.

And, my BABIES have supported me so far.
I love them, and thanks God for He has sent me angels when I met troubles.
Jia, Vien, Pong, Lyn, Yan, Loo: Thanks :D

I believe in God, He will never leave me alone.
But I always forget about him when I am happy and satisfied.
When I blamed him, WHY he let that incident to happen to me, at my peak period of my Form 5?
He didn't give me an answer.
But now, I see---the miracle he has done to me.
I can more concentrate on my studies.
I won't easily show my bad temper to my DEARIES.
I won't cry easily because of thinking those things.
I won't hide myself inside the blanket and crying silently.
I can easily differentiate the shower and my tears, because there is no more crying under my shower head. But I sing for my shower head, it impressed with my singing.. ?!!
I've grown up. I can look further. I aim for the moon instead of falling on the stars. (BULLSHIT?)
I've learnt a lesson. I got tutorials. (This story tells us, not to trust in GUYS, because what they told might not be sincere.)

I told myself, I must STAY TOUGH & BE HAPPY.
I promised myself, I must not easily fall for anyone, besides LEEHOM =D
Hiak hiak hiak.




Thanks God, for never leave me.


***I used to be love drunk but now I'm hung over. Love is forever. But now it's over***
(Love Drunk-Boys Like Girls)


Grace

梦寐以求之 王力宏

我一定要见到王力宏！！！
哇靠，今天进youtube.com看了很多王力宏的短片
这个大歌星，原来不是想象中那么难靠近
他，很帅很帅很帅！！！

我这一辈子，一定要见他一面
他真的是一个超级才子，擅长乐器、唱歌、“模仿”！！！
人又长得帅到爆表！！！

有机会的话，我一定要去看他的演唱会！！
一定要！！

60天倒数

还剩下60天就是SPM
不知不觉，时间越来越紧
我，也不知不觉，情绪越来越不稳定
通常脾气不会乱发在好朋友的身上（家人？）
但是，真的越来越难控制自己的情绪

p.s/丽玮，paiseh啦，昨晚凶了一下

也许是自己进不了那种“读书”的心情？
只觉得自己越来越懒惰
我知道这样是不行的
但是，还是一样咯

想当年form3
会很期待每次妈妈给我钱去书店买作业回家做
但是，现在买了
完成作业的速度，真的好慢好慢
我还偷偷去买了一支笔
想要好好奖励自己
但是，现在那种满足感
一点都没有归属感

朋友们的努力
都在我眼里
他们用新的在班上做自己应该要做的事情
而我。。。。。。。
在一旁看着他们
虽然，我的成绩是好了一点（只是一点）
但是，比起其他人
我还是渺小的

我不明白现在的自己
到底想要怎样
受不了一个人的寂寞？
受不了没有笑声的自己？
受不了没有压力的自己？
受不了现在的那个自己？

哈哈哈哈
还是，我疯了？
啦啦啦啦

肖的

希望我真的能在这最后2个月，醒来吧
我相信，我要的，没有做不到的
我靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能做。



陈吟诗，加油加油加油！！！

Someone Like You

Boys Like Girls - Someone Like You


I'm wearing thin
I couldn't tell you the city I'm in
The streets and the buildings
And places I've been
Or when the stars go when it's daylight again
Or where the time went
Oh, who can save me now?

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

So sing me a song
I know all the words to
And I'll sing along
Could you be my savior?
I've been out here too long
And I've just been lookin' for somewhere to belong
Been holdin' on
So can you save me now?

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

When the stars explode
And I'm all alone
When they start to see the smoke
When I finally burn out
I'll need someone to carry me home safe and sound

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you

My life in the rearview
I'm runnin' from Jesus
Don't know where I'm going to
I got nothin' to lose
I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

以为

以为，你会为我感到高兴
以为，你会很在意
没想到你没有

我知道，这跟你以前比起来
不算什么
但是我已经尽力了
虽然还不至于满意
至少，这次我达到我的目标了

你从一开始就是资优生，样样都比人好
我？什么都不是，只是老师们眼中的一颗沙子
恨不得把我从眼泪一起排出
跟你比，更是不用比了
什么都不配，什么都不值

对不起，我的以为，令你感到困扰了
不体贴的我，根本就没有资格说什么
你也没有那种意思要让我进入你的世界吧

对不起了




晴天 笔

A great news for today!!!

Today, I got back my Biology test papers. You guess what? I got quite a good marks for it=) Hiak hiak hiak!!! This means, I can go and apply for my uni. What a good news!! And I think, I got the highest marks. =X (gonna show of xia) The most satisfied is, I got 45 out of 50 for my Paper 3, which can only happen inside my dream. Hahaha.

For those who always concern about me, THANKS!!

Thanks JUST, for always accompany me when I was EMO.
Thanks J-SON, for always teach me some good MORAL VALUES towards life.
Thanks PONG, for always SMS with me when I had almost given up hope to do my revision.
Thanks JIA HUI, for always LOLSIAO me and SHARES with me.
Thanks PEI EN, for always CHEERING ME UP when I was facing troubles.
Thanks BIET, for always KU with me at school and GIVING ME ADVICES when I was stressed.
Thanks CHOON VUI, for always GIVING ME HIS LOVE. (HAHAHAHA)
Thanks LI WEI, for always brings me NICE FOOD at school.
Thanks DEBBIE GOH DA JIE, for always JIO me, so that I can think in a positively way.

LASTLY, gonna give thanks to my MOTHER!!!!
She is the one who always stays right beside me when I was facing troubles, happy, and etc.
I love you mimi. =)

AND, GIVE THANKS TO GOD!!! He brightens up my life with my dearest friends and my lovely mama. He is the one who loves me the most which I can't deny.
I gonna give my life to him, serve him for the rest of my life, because he loves me before I knew him.
ALLELUIA!!



GracCY =)

StraightJacket Feeling

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

Trust you is just one defense off
a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me

but today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There'll be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me

but today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you



The All-American Rejection

我没有想象中坚强

看了一些不该看的东西
眼泪，还是不自觉地留下来
犯贱的眼泪---我只能这么说
明知道已经成为过去了
还那么执着什么？
我真的不知道我的心到底想怎样
我还以为我真的不在乎了
但是，事实胜于雄辩
看到他跟其他女生在一起
我的心，感觉怪怪的
不单只是怪怪的
有种撕裂的感觉
我知道不应该
我不应该还这么觉得
但是，看到有他存在的地方
就想到他的声音、他的脸、他的笑容、他的承诺、他的一切的一切
好笨好笨，真的好笨
我不知道我还能怎样。。。
有时候，我可以很残忍的撕掉我和他的过去
有时候，我更可以嘲笑我的愚蠢
那现在呢？
眼泪证明了什么？
我还没有忘记？
我不知道，真的不知道

.............................................

心

当我的心为你而悸动
你在哪里？
当我的心为你的行为感到不安
你又在哪里？
你一味儿想从我这里得到什么
有没有想过我的感受？
烦恼和不安在心外徘徊
而你，却一人逍遥自在
等待着明天的太阳
我不了解你的明白？
还是我的顾虑你不晓得？
累了～累了～
独自一人回到我孤单的房间
寻找一个人的快乐
痛快 寂寞.................





晴天 笔

雨伞下的情怀

自从你走的那一天
下雨了，我不再撑伞
为了，不要再想起你

就让雨水打在我脸上
不让别人知道我的眼泪是为了你而流
总有一天
我会坚强
总有一天
我会幸福

希望你能好好过
找到你的她～～～～

比赛倒数---8星期

今天，上bhal的课
真的被她气死
一句：“你们还剩下2个月的时间来准备，也就是说--8个月。。。”
这一句丢下来，
ah mek oii
时间越来越紧迫
常常使人喘不过气来
时间一天一天的过去
很快就是SPM了
怎么办？ 哈哈哈哈
死咯，还能怎样？

但是，想一想
我不能浪费我辛辛苦苦读了两年的书
还是考不好
我不能浪费我爸妈的钱，他们每个月给我去补习
我不能让他们的钱就这样丢进大海吧？
丢进大海还能填海
如果这样被我浪费，真的什么都没有

我的朋友们，一起加油吧
PONG, JIA HUI!!! 加油哦。。。
muacks muacks=*

位置

放在心里的那段甜蜜
是我不敢触碰的回忆
原来 我越不去面对
心中的伤痕 没有结疤
血 还在静静地流着

我终于提起勇气
把所有关于你的过去都删除了
发现没有你的我
过得比从前更好

我变得快乐多了
只因为你不在
我变得更坚强
只因为你一再伤害
我变得冷血
只因为你给的不是爱

放下你所有的过往
为了明天的我更耀眼
失去了你 不是我的错
忘记你 是我给自己从新爱的力量
心里的空间不再属于你一个人
我空出了一个位置
等待着爱我的人再次出现




晴天 笔

Thanks..

谢谢你，在我心情不好时陪着我。。。
叔叔

哈哈哈哈

迷恋---方大同

OH MAN!!! Khalil Fong, 一把好迷人的声音
以前觉得他的声音没力
现在 真的被他给迷死了
很喜欢他唱情歌那把“温柔”的声音

极力推荐他的最新专辑
“TIMELESS"!!!
真的好好听哦
虽然长得不是一张迷死人的样子
但是，这让我更专注去听他那把好听的声音

***请购买正版哦!!***
hiak hiak

无题（二）

真的有无题二
哈哈哈哈
今天，在家---闷死
发霉咯
我尽然发疯在考完试的隔一天
抱起书。。。
我也不知道
只觉得，压力真的很大
面对朋友时
根本就说不出
给他们 我很坚强
就像不用保护的野草吧
其实。。。

SORRY LO...
I AM NOT!!!
I NEED LOVE, CARING, AND HAPPINESS...

哈哈哈哈
很闷啊 很闷啊！！！

救命啊！！！ 我不想读书，I MEAN NOW!!!

梦想越来越靠近

老实说 我很期待
每当我想起 心中有种莫名的喜悦
还有4个月吧
如果我真的成功
我只剩4个月 就要离开了

你问我，放下了吗？
我不能回答
我只能说我尽量

但是 越是期待
越让人感到害怕
越是靠近 越让人感到束手无策
我 不知道 应该怎么办

离开这里 开始一段新生活？
为了自己的理想 为了自己的梦
勇敢地踏出那一步？

最让我舍不得的---我的家人，我的好朋友
他们总在我最失落时，
伸出他们的双手
来安慰我
虽然有时候，安慰的话
像巴掌一样 一巴一巴地 狠狠地骂醒我
但是 他们终究为了我好
深怕 到了外地
价值观变了 个性变了
变得我都不认识的那个
我不要 我真的害怕

有一个朋友
我怕我的烦恼告诉了他
他问我，为什么你那么担心？ 你究竟为了谁而活？ 只要你知道 你为了谁而活 只要你知道 每当你做一样事 上帝都在看着你 想想耶稣在这件事上会怎么做 你就会知道你该怎样

对，他说的对
只要我心里 有主
一切事情 交给他
让他指引我前面的路
我曾经因为不听话
撞了很多次的墙
因为不听话
流失了很多他的祝福
我学乖了
我不要放弃， 我不要再一次忘记他
我要紧紧地握住他的手

我不要变
我看到了很多变了的人
有时候真的有嘴巴说人家 没有嘴巴说自己

加油吧。。。 我的梦想，我的人生
交给他了！！！
yo~~~


我来了！！！哈哈哈哈




晴天 笔

YEAH!!!!

终于考完试了
当然，只是1st trial..
但是 还是 爽啦！！！


倒数SPM, 剩下70几天
OH NO MAN!!!
时间真的一转眼就过
还想起今年头刚交了一群新朋友
每天打打闹闹 开开心心滴
现在，每个人都有每个人的烦恼吧
考试压力，没时间玩？
哈哈哈哈

但是！！！
不玩 我会死掉
不说话 我也会死掉
哈哈哈哈

但是有时候
朋友却说，
我变了
我有时候要HIGH就很HIGH
要DIAM就很DIAM
他们有时候不知道要怎样对待我

其实，可以用一个名句精华来说（HIEN下）
“知我者谓我心忧，不知我者谓我何求”
不是我不愿将心里的烦恼说出来
只是说了出来又有什么用呢？
最后还是得自己就解决啊！

我承认我有一张臭脸啦
不笑或发呆时，
脸真的臭到可以
但是，没办法啦
我天生一张脸
除非，有一天我鼓起勇气
去“换脸”
哈哈哈哈哈
弄挺鼻子、弄大眼睛、还是什么双眼皮的
哈哈哈哈哈

所以咯，有时候
放任我一个人安静吧
我没有再生气什么
我也没有不爽什么
有时，我也需要安静一下
想一想 该做什么对吧？

哈哈哈哈
考完试了，朋友们！！！

LET'S GET HIGH!!!
ROCK UP THE PLACE WHERE BELONGS TO U.. HAHA =*





Grace=)

梦想

目前的选择
只是你迈向目标的其中一条跑道
在前进的路途中
可能会碰到意料不到的考验
动摇了你的心
不过 切记
允许自己有个转弯的空间
或换个跑道试一试 会更好？

放下了

放下的 是割舍 是心痛
我们的爱情
没有肯定的未来
拥有的只剩遗憾

越纠缠不清
越刻骨铭心

不让她伤心
不让你为难
我尊重 你的选择 你的责任

你的内疚 没有爱
你的爱 我没份

总错过的时机
证明我们能够 再坚强 在温柔？

明知道你不是
明白爱情不能一辈子
你我无法奢求
一生一世的相伴

爱 唯有放在心里
见证你们的幸福





晴天 笔

爱情的冬天

那晚 眼泪陪我一整晚
你不承认 你心里有另一个她
我接受
因为我没有勇气

不知不觉 哭了好久
我还在想着你说过的话
你说要一起加油
你说要永远牵着我的手
可是 现在我却看不见你的手
我哭倒在房间
枕头湿着我的后悔

究竟是你选择放手
还是我选择离开？
你陌生的眼睛
试着用眼泪代替抱歉
孤单在蔓延

心痛 是失去的浪漫
哭泣 是撕碎的承诺
无言 是等不到的爱情
两个人的故事从此被搁浅

窗外的最后一滴雨
消失在彼此的视线
而我们
还是过不了爱情所谓的冬天





晴天 笔

无题（一）

很想说些什么
但是又不知道要说什么
哈哈哈哈
改不了爱说话的本性
整个星期在家里闭关
闷死闷死！！！
很烦很烦！！！

电脑啊电脑
真的很闷，心里的那种感觉
怪怪的
很空虚，很纳闷
不知道为什么

总觉得，考完sejarah后
一切会变得比较容易
至少是不用一直背的
但是，我的biology还是不能进脑
做莫喔？？！！！
很显滴
我最讨厌的Physics竟然比较快进脑
oh no！！
怎么搞的？
还是因为他？
肖啦。。。
受刺激么？
哈哈哈
但是，我还是很讨厌calculations...

你们看吧
我语无伦次
就说嘛
我不能太久没有说话
lol

现在是无题1，会不会有无题2，3，4？？
哈哈哈哈哈哈

换个角度，风景更美

原本以为我会很难过
但是，偶没有！！！
恭喜恭喜

哈哈哈哈

真怕我是那种偶像剧里常播的那种
假装坚强
其实心里面还是在受伤
等时间一到，心还是会不停的流泪
不知道是吗？

不知道为什么
往往，
人一旦拥有，就不会珍惜

有一个他，在我被伤害的时候，
他在我身边
但是，我对他真的没有那种感觉
但是，他一直陪在我身边
不管我做了什么伤他的事

现在，他还在
我应该感恩？
已经一年了
他不管怎样都一直在我身边

他只能算是有脑袋，有前途的那种吧
不知道他能不能唱歌给我听？
哈哈哈哈
被爱是幸福的？
我也不知道

我只知道，背伤了一次又一次
那种痛，还在
真的无法忘记一个人躲在被窝里
想哭却不敢放声大哭
心痛的那种感觉
很难被磨灭
真的很难

就算已经相信，他是对的
最终，他还是离开了
什么意思？哈哈哈哈

终于想通了
凡事不要勉强?

哈哈哈

爱情问要怎么走？？？

怎么说都好，
换一个角度，风景更美。。。
地球更圆？？？Lol



晴天

若你碰到他

我的脆弱坚强 互相作战
理性与感性 失去平衡感
不想让自己 活在过去的遗憾
问宇宙 他是否还爱我吗
这问题 早就有答案

我的自私慷慨互相挑战
黑夜白天颠倒造成困扰
常在最乐观时突然跌进沮丧
为何失恋后想恢复那么困难
只好找些催眠的话

爱 没有绝对 虽曾经以为
我终於体会
爱不能倒退 该让它颓废
收起心碎


若你碰到了 替我问候他
告诉他 我过得很美满
已忘记他 已把泪水全部擦干
若你碰到了 替我问候他
祝福他和他的另一半
不在乎他 不再爱也不再等待
就这样吧 若你碰到他


蔡健雅

失望

原来，我真的没有很了解他
六个月并不代表什么
到现在，我还是不够了解他
虽然已经没有必要
是我不了解他呢，还是他变了？

星期天不去教堂，去朋友家玩
什么道理？
告诉我啊
当俊伟告诉我，他很常没有去教堂了
我还很担心，是不是什么事情
结果，问了。。。
去玩！！！

什么来的？
我看错了吗？
以为找到了一个爱主的
交往就没有那么困难
因为我们有共同的理念
有同样的思想
没想到
在分手过后
我才看清楚

这就是所谓的后知后觉？
还是在一起时我们都将最好的一面让对方看见？

不管怎样
我怎的希望他好
下星期他就要考试了

上帝，让他明白吧
让他觉悟吧
我已经没有权利过问些什么
上帝，他是你的
你也爱他
让他早点回到你身边吧
让他和他的家人，能够度过每一天
阿门



晴天

我的梦想

随着时间一天一天的过去
我离梦想，越来越近，
也越来越远
不知道自己的能力到了那里

哈哈哈

小学第一篇学的作文
“我的志愿”

我的志愿：药剂师（pharmacy）
原因：喜欢biology & chemistry
想进入的大学：UCSI University

所以，我必须念A-level
所以，锁定了一件大学
也是UCSI
它是KUCHING branch的
让我来介绍我的梦想学院

它，蛮漂亮的（照片看起来，因为我没有去过）
啦啦啦







然后，我要介绍---我的宿舍
坦白的
这样看起来
觉得念大学有一点奢侈
它的宿舍，几漂亮下咯


很漂亮吧？
我家都没有这样
很过分，去那里读书
还享受呢
哈哈哈哈
但是，可能这些知识宣传作用罢了
哈哈

很期待
也很矛盾
很怕家里没有办法负担我的费用
也很怕自己没办法离开家
没有勇气一个人在外面
也很怕自己会学坏
没有好朋友的陪伴，没有妈妈的唠叨
真的不知道自己会不会变成一个完全不是自己

朋友说，不要想先，等到考完试采打算
可是，我。。。做不到
这是我人生迈向另一个阶段的事
很难说不去想
既然我已经有了计划
应该更要去向方法实现
对吗？

现在八月尾了
如果真的能够去的话
还有三个月
就要离开了
我真的做得到吗？
我真的能够为了前面的路
放下一切我所爱的，一个人到外面生活吗？
经过一次又一次的事情，
我发现，我并不是自己想象中坚强
一个人生活，真的可以吗？
人际关系要从新来过，
生活环境要从新适应
很烦啊！！
哈哈哈哈
（自己拿来的）

只过一半的 1st trial.. zz

上个星期，第一次预试
对我来说，很重要
我要用那个成绩来申请大学
很多人都说，“你很开朗”


“屁啦！！！！！”


虽然我知道很重要
但是，压力中让我喘不过气来
很爱说话的我
总在人家很努力很努力的时候
我就在一边发神经

所以，别人GROUP STUDYING，
通常都不会找我
啦啦啦啦
我只会搞破坏

但是，我神经变态
我喜欢在别人在玩的时候
我在一边努力念书
哈哈哈
可能，这样会让我觉得，
我很会“利用”时间吧
哈哈哈哈哈
肖啊！！！

那整个星期，
其实，还蛮容易过的
考试，读书，看电视，睡觉
哈哈哈哈
老妈，每天都会问我，考到怎样啦？
可以怎么说呢？
如果说不好，他就会开始念
当然，有几科是比较有信心的

最“be ceh”（肉痛）就是我的add math
竟然有10分来不及做
白白的飞了=（
希望可以拿好啦
哈哈哈哈

这个1st trial 过后，
我就向我的梦想迈前一步了
UCSI, 我来了！！！
不知道能不能啦
希望经济方面
上帝能早一些帮我解决
一切，都不能确定
但是
人 有希望就是幸福的=）



晴天

我=）

一直以来
朋友们默默的支持我
谢谢你们
我知道，不管怎么样
我都要好起来
因为，你们。。。
我要像以前一样
讲话大大声、笑大大声。。。。。。
不用忌讳，因为没有任何限制了
我会努力的


最后，还是要谢谢你们，
在我最软弱时，给予我的温暖（虽然一直都被骂,啦啦啦）
谢谢。。。
还有，要考试了
我们大家都要拿好成绩哦=）

p.s/施琼，谢谢你那么早就关心我
佳慧，下次我们就等他们“喵”着回来
佩恩，我们要一起守“单身”的承诺


啦啦啦。。。。拜拜



晴天 还是 晴天

难得-ALIN

我还记得我挽着你的手
天冷时候一起躲在棉被中
那时我们不害怕犯错
那时以为天空多辽阔


朋友都说你后来变真多
总是避谈纯真坦白那时候
体贴的人不再追问我
只说你也有梦他也有梦
虽然难得不必心痛


我以为我成熟以为从此就自由
我尝试着快乐快乐却不陪着我
爱没有回来了你已经离开我
回忆紧紧缠着我像当初不肯放手


我以为我成熟以为我能好好过
我尝试着堕落当我想你的时候
爱不会回来了你已经离开我
却一直住在我心中


如果傻傻的承诺现在还在一起吗
情侣龃龉常常有
如果寂寞的时候已经学会去推托
他也有梦我也有梦
这样的爱实在难得

记得

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等着对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

再一次

再一次，
我忍不了了
好冷好冷
在雨中，我分不清楚那是泪还是雨
大风狂吹在我脸上
在没有人挡在我前面守护着我
我独自一个人～～～走

放任眼泪往下流
放任自己哭泣的声音
看着撑着伞的情侣
回想起那时我们也一样在雨中
你还牵着我的手
轻声地对我说，“别怕。。”

站在十字路口
我知道，我可以退后
但是
你已不在了
我不知道，还有谁
我不知道，我该怎样
只有站在原地
等你回来找我

我爱你，不需要你的回报
因为， 我知道
你可以找到比我更好的
如果我能勇敢一些
可能一切将不同

但是，
太迟了。。。


雨停了，
泪干了
天晴了
我，是不是该醒了？





晴天

前面的路

最近，真的很压力
预试要到了
我，提不起劲
看着朋友们纷纷放下玩耍的性情
拿起了书本
不知道为什么
总觉得
我读不进

读了这一课
读完下一课
回去前一课
又忘了

自己笨吧！！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈
不能怨谁
自己又懒惰


PMR 拿全A又怎样？
还不是这样

伟欣说，
我凡事都想得太简单，太完美
我真的是这样吗？
我计划的，
不可能发生？

哈哈哈哈哈哈
笨死笨死

不说了
为我祷告吧
我相信，上帝会为我开路
什么事，他都知道
他掌权！！

经历过神的
他们一定知道
上帝其妙的作为

我相信神必定为我开路
哈里路亚！！

学习

那天 抱着一股想挽救的心情
去找他
（对不起朋友们，让你们为了庆祝我的生日而烦恼）
找了欣洁陪我

见到他，第一句话，要我还他他朋友得电话
就没有第二句了
我想接着说
他不理会
我。。。。。。无言

去楼外楼找我亲爱的朋友们
他们就一直骂我
要我不要再想他
不要再那么傻，求他留在自己身边
不值得。。。

他们，都是“过来人”。。（他们自称的）
每一件事情，如果就像他们形容的，就好了
施琼：EMO 了一年半就忘记
颂恩： EMO 了一年多就忘记
帅哥隆： EMO 了几个月，今年过年人家放炮，他在流泪
佳慧：EMO 了半年就忘记
佩恩： EMO 了将近一年就忘记
婉君：不用EMO（因为长得太美,男人一个接一个来）

还记得去年，我 佳慧 佩恩 三个一起失恋
大家抱在一起哭
耳边传来“说好的幸福呢？”
如今，我要一个人疗伤。。。

阿隆，下次带我去醉一醉

痛苦！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

犯贱？？

这几天 心情都不怎么好
可能是因为太忙？很累？
压力越来越大 想得到的越来越多
压力让一个人成长？
对我，可能就起不了作用
心里头总觉得有一股闷气
无从发泄。。。
真的很累。。。。。。

谁能明白？真想找一个能容纳我的肩膀靠依靠
其实，是我要得太多，还是我想不开？
很多事情，我把它想得太简单
很多事，我总以为我能够接受，能承担
（拿苦来受咯！！）

对他，我已经不知道我还能做什么
无论我多殷勤地对待
他已感受不到
说着说着
眼泪不自觉地想溜出来
只觉得，是我自己拿来的
我不奢求 我只希望你永远陪着我
就希望你告诉我，我还在你心里
很难吗？

是真的很难吗？

习惯性，他已忘记他对我的承诺
我还能说什么？
上帝的试炼？
撒旦的试探？
我不知道
还是，我们真的就该这样？

帮助我。。。

每当我不知道做什么，
就会去听听歌
结果，这次让我很有感觉的歌---原来你什么都不要

他，真的什么都不要吗？



我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱只能那么少
我只有不停地要 要到你想逃

泪湿的枕头晒干就好
眼泪在你的心里只是 无力拒纳
因为在你身后 是我一辈子的骄傲
来你什么都不想要

我不要你的呵护 你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好 贪心也好
哪个女人对爱不自私 不奢望
我不要你的承诺 不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好 贪心也好
最怕你把沉默 当作对我的回答




这就是所谓的犯贱？
又不是没人要，为什么要为了一个他，犯贱？

不习惯

从开始 每天晚上
你都会至少打个电话给我
现在 算不算是奢求？
我很努力让自己去遗忘
寂寞在空气里蔓延
黑夜吞噬着我的悲伤
在空荡的房间 只有我一个人的呼吸声

不是我没有想过要放弃
这一不是现在的事
我承认 我做不到
我更答应过你 牵了手就不要轻易放手
不是我没有尝试

你也答应我 从此以后只关心我一个
从今以后把我放在你心里

都怪我太不争气 不敢狠心的恨你
这算是单方面的守候吗？

虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂 你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有 陪在你身边 当你寂寞时侯
别再看着我 说着你爱过
别太伤痛 我不难过
这不算什麽
只是为什麽眼泪会流 我也不懂
就让我走 让我开始享受自由
回忆很多 你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱 你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞 这会是我 最後的宽容
抱紧我 再抱紧我
这一份感动 请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错 爱到了尽头
是非对错 就让他随风
忘了所有 过了比你快活

我能吗？


××一直就很喜欢孙燕姿的这首歌-我不难过

走到了尽头？

很反常的 本来我对他闹情绪 我是不会主动言和的
但是 这几次
你都没有耐性的在安抚我
在你面前 我总像个傻瓜
被你耍得团团转
我没有怨言
因为我知道
我不是完美的
你，确实我心中最宝贵的那一部分

深夜了 你睡得很香
我不忍心吵醒你
从黑暗看着你的脸
觉得幸福之离我很近
但是 我却没有那份勇气伸出我的手来触摸
更害怕你的冷眼对待

所以 我拼命闪躲
希望能让自己冷静下来
眼泪不停落下
陪伴我的 只有听不厌的悲伤情歌
我的世界 真的只有灰色吗？

我绝望了
我越想离开
你的笑颜再一次出现
我还能说什么？
一次又一次
我还能说什么？




晴天（还是晴天吗？）

我们都成了大人

还是任由放空出游的眼神 呆滞的
想起那一天 很礼貌很诚恳 把微笑都带著
一连串的故事我们会讨论 瞎闹著
身边来来去去 最后剩几个 知心是真的
不是我多愁善感 也不是怨天尤人
爱情和面包的梗 还真的
能通用 能发生 能证明 你是对的

谢谢你们 那些爱过我 伤害过我的人
成长的路 总是需要 快乐悲伤的牺牲
不怕挫折 我也不怕 结局结尾太残忍
只要活著 还能说著 这一切都不算什麼
谢谢此刻 那首曾经让我 感动流涕的歌
独自一人 听著哼著 学会了成全舍得
我不怕苦 我只怕 这回忆想起太美了
一眨眼了 时间不等人
我们都成了 那所谓的大人


不是我多愁善感 也不是怨天尤人
爱情和面包的梗 还真的
能通用 能发生 能证明 你是对的

谢谢你们 那些爱过我 伤害过我的人
成长的路 总是需要 快乐悲伤的牺牲
不怕挫折 我也不怕 结局结尾太残忍
只要活著 还能说著 这一切都不算什麼
谢谢此刻 那首曾经让我 感动流涕的歌
独自一人 听著哼著 学会了成全舍得
我不怕苦 我只怕 这回忆想起太美了
一眨眼了 时间不等人
我们都成了 那所谓的大人


[Share this to all of you, I think this is really a meaningful one.. =X praising ownself??]




GracCY~~

Emo-ing

I'm like cheerful person without tears, this is what I used to think, and the CHARACTER I used to be. But, i cried non-stop since yesterday. Why? I personally can't give the answer. I never be like this, I am always the clown or someone so called "happy nut"... But then, I CRIED?? CRYING is not my habit even when facing problems or challenges..
Why? pressure? stress? I don't think so.. I've already given up doing my revision since XXX, I can't even remember when. I am just going to school like usual and listen to the teachers（some)..
Tears drop from my eyes, without reasons, without reasons......
Who can save me? Whoever...
I can't stop EMO-ING?? weird.. two-faced? cheerful one in front of public and emo when i am alone?
i cant express what kind of feeling is it..
Sharing with friends? no way, i am not used to be the one who shares all the sadness or problems to others..
even if, i want to try to share..
why am i sad? why? wad are the reasons? i don't know..
depression? LOL.. nonsense

累

其实，最近很累
平时嘻嘻哈哈的笑着
别人以为我没怎么样
其实
我真的真的很累

虽然我还是每天和朋友们闹着
但是不知到什么缘故
我真的有莫名的空虚
到底是什么？
我不晓得
我应该继续追问自己吗？
还是就让它这样呢？

眼泪，最近也莫名的多了很多
一下子 眼泪就滑下来
以前的我不是这样的啊
还是。。。
我变了？
变成一个我自己也不了解的那个陌生人？

我究竟要些什么？
我不知道
我想追求的是什么？
我不知道

最近
头也很痛 也一直反胃
我自认我每天都吃得很多
但是 为什胃酸还是那么高？
ZZZZZZ

很辛苦 很辛苦

被你爱过之后

曾经 我认为
我是这世上最幸福的人
因为有你在我身边

可是 这一切的一切将会化为乌有
从来就不觉得我付出的就等于收回
但是
这个代价也太大了吧？？

被你爱过之后
忍受心中的伤痛
面对朋友的背叛 不信任
这就是我爱太深厚的“奖赏”？？

那天晚上
我把小熊把抱眼泪流了一整晚
我几乎是“睁”着眼睛睡了一晚

被你爱过的我
心被撕裂？
无言以对？
还是我应该觉得开心
因为我终于勇敢面对与放下自己一直收藏的情感？

笑自己傻？
为他放弃了一切
以为可以得到世界的肯定。。。
换来的仅只是伤痛。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。


但是
我知道 这一切都是由自己的教训
自己太早跌进无底洞？
哈哈哈哈哈哈

××谢谢那些在我上是痛苦时，一直陪伴着我的朋友。。。谢谢你们的鼓励，支持。。。××



晴天 笔


BI=)

上瘾

他，新的一个他
又出现在我生命里
这次又会有什么结局呢？

有人说，
那些会为了自己爱的女生而哭泣的，
是真正爱你的。。。
真的吗？

他，是一个很特别的人
我喜欢听他告诉我他的事情
我喜欢他每天罗里罗嗦的要我吃东西
我喜欢他每天早上的信息
我喜欢每天晚上和他说“十分钟的电话”

我已经习惯了他在我生活里
我已经习惯每隔几分钟就要望一望手机有没有他的信息
我已经习惯“想他”。。。

我“上瘾” 了。。。 ==||

Ba，
我答应你
我不会再想太多
我相信你







晴天 笔
BI=）